Vicky Nicole ⁷ ❯❯❯❯❯
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Arrow ❯❯❯❯ Warrior “I’ll try but I’ll miss you too much Liam” “Any room to hold you?” #JusticeForLiam 🕊️🤍
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Liam & alcohol addiction and substance use. Or maybe I should say Liam & depression Before any of you start calling him an alcoholic and drug addict again, let me tell you what addiction is. I'm not talking about the “dictionary“ definition; you can search for it yourself. I'm talking about the “real life” definition. Addiction is a survival mechanism. No one starts drinking out of nowhere or because they get bored at home. Addiction is much more than this. Addiction happens when the outside world is too much to bear and you have to find a way to survive. You're anxious, you're depressed, everything becomes too much and you don't know what to do. You don't want to feel anymore; you just want to be numb. So you start with “Just one glass.” and end with “Just one more.”, after having several. You know it’s not right at some point, but all you can think of is, “So what?”. That happens when you want to forget about the world. A world that can't understand you, a world that's too much to bear. The same goes for drugs. So, no, you don't start drinking or using substances for fun. Many of those who get on this path have a terrible depression. The problem with depression is that some can very easily hide it. There's one called high-functioning depression, and it’s the most dangerous one because no one can see it. You are crumbling on the inside but look happy and sunny on the outside. You usually do that because you realise the people around you don't and can't understand what you are going through. So you just hide it. Because it’s easier. Addiction is never the main problem, but that's all the people outside see. People never try to find the real problem. It’s easier to call someone addicted than to search for the actual reason that's behind it all. But we all know Liam was open about his struggles. He was in recovery, he tried his best to be fine. He fought every single second of his life to survive. That man went through so much sh*t some of you can't even imagine, in a world full of hate pointed at him. Yes, he probably had a bad depression too, among other things. And God forbid any of you to have a bad depression because you don't know how fucking hard it is to even wake up in the morning. Properly functioning requires a new level of mental strength. And he was fucking STRONG and BRAVE and KIND and I can go on for 2 days, and he DIDN'T deserve anything that happened to him. Keep this in mind. So, if you don't know about a subject, you don't have to talk about it. You know nothing. You have no idea what he'd been through. He openly talked about mental health and his struggles. He wore his heart out on his sleeve all the time. He was honest. And all you heard was “alcohol and drug use”. You never cared about him. You never cared about the people around him who didn't support him at all, the people who harmed him in a lot of different ways. You don't care at all. You should be embarrassed of yourselves for being this blind. Open your eyes. It’s already late but do it at least now
Vicky Nicole ⁷ ❯❯❯❯❯36,471 views • 1 year ago
I know I got to see Louis’s performance later than everyone else, but “Drag Me Down”? I have no words. Him pausing his singing and just letting Liam’s voice play… and then looking up as Liam sings in the background “With your love, nobody can drag me down.” “All my life, you stood by me When no one else was ever behind me All these lights, they can’t blind me With your love, nobody can drag me down.” Hit me right in the core for so many reasons
Vicky Nicole ⁷ ❯❯❯❯❯14,672 views • 6 months ago
This, THIS was a scream for help. A scream no one heard. Liam went through so much all by himself. And people unnecessarily hate(d) him so much for nothing. You call(ed) him an alcoholic drug addict and tarnish(ed) his image as much as you could. Until the last moment AND even now. I'll never forget anyone who did this. Not in a million years. And I'll NEVER forgive you. You never understood him. You never understood what addiction is. You only blamed him. You didn't and still don't want to accept that addiction might be a way to hide depression. And this shows. Depression is always underestimated but when it is about a public figure, it's even worse. You simply never cared about him. And that shows what kind of people you are. Scums. Hating him for no reason at all. Also “Y thing went wrong in life, so I blocked Liam Payne”. Fuck you, from all my heart. Liam never deserved anything that happened. He was such a bright soul, such an amazing person, with the warmest heart. He was supposed to be HERE with US now, not 6 feet under, in cold, alone, with no blanket to keep him warm. I will hate you for this for the rest of my life. And I will hate you in my next life too. I hope at least a part of his pain, even the smallest part, will go back to you. You won't be able to bear it. He was strong, you aren't. But you deserve it. And you, exactly the ones who did this to him, the ones who ended him, I know you'll probably never be able to feel the pain you gave him, but I hope the guilt will eat you alive and that karma will hit you when you least expect it. We can't brink Liam back, no matter what we do (believe me, I’d do ANYTHING possible in this world if I know it'll bring him back) but at least I hope you will pay for what you did. We’ll get #JusticeForLiam, you have my promise I'm with you, Liam. Always. I hope you know that. Be well up there
Vicky Nicole ⁷ ❯❯❯❯❯24,022 views • 1 year ago
No, it probably isn’t about Liam. But for me, it will be. I know for a fact that this song will both break and heal at the same time. I have no words... just seeing Liam in the video they uploaded makes my heart shatter. You are so missed, Payno… 💔 #MidnightTilMorning
Vicky Nicole ⁷ ❯❯❯❯❯17,681 views • 10 months ago
This was beautiful and I'm sure Liam knows ❤️ Thank you, guys Midnight Til Morning
Vicky Nicole ⁷ ❯❯❯❯❯12,523 views • 8 months ago
Today hurts like hell. Liam was supposed to be 32. But now... he’ll be 31 forever 🕊 He isn’t here to blow out candles or to smile and laugh with us anymore. But his light continues to shine, to guide us, comfort us, and inspire us every day ✨ This project, “Once In a Lifetime”, is a project that's very close to our hearts. We made it with all our love. The pain can't be explained. But through tears, we celebrate him. His life. His light. The love he left behind still carries us. Happy Birthday in heaven, Liam! We miss you more than words will ever say ❤️🩹 #WeLoveYouLiam #LiamPayneForever #LiamsWeek #OnceInALifetimeProject
Vicky Nicole ⁷ ❯❯❯❯❯13,193 views • 9 months ago
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