Lindsay Kelly
@lindsaywadmankelly • 406,000 subscribers
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It takes a village y’all. #assistedliving #caregiver #familyiseverything
Lindsay Kelly1,300,000 views • 8 months ago
Only my caregiver spouses will understand the loneliness, the thanklessness, the many tears you cry while no one is watching then putting on a strong face while dying inside. This last year has been one of the hardest. One day I’ll share the full story of how we came to this conclusion of a divorce. When you step into caregiving for your spouse, you completely set yourself aside. No one warns you of the opposition you face in your own life. You face a spouse declining right in front of you. Then the grieving emotions. The exhaustion of doing everything for everyone, while you’re running on fumes, falling apart and becoming a shell of the person you once were. Grieving the life you thought you’d have with the person you love. You face your spouse becoming someone different…even abusive. Over years that becomes worse and worse until you hit a breaking point. You have people who could jump into lift your burdens but instead constantly judge you and take actions to make the whole process more difficult and heartbreaking. As a wife, you feel defeated and beaten down by life while providing and taking on full responsibility for a husband who doesn’t mean to make your life harder or be mean. It’s the disease but you look past it while feeling completely alone and even humiliated at times. Over the last year it has become more and more evident that I need to make a decision. Even my kids and family noticed it but I hung on. My husband is such an amazing person and I plan to continue keeping Rhead close. He and I are just too good of friends. When people have issues with their brain they fixate on something and ,I as the wife, happen to be the person Rhead fixates on to pick apart and constantly find fault with. One moment, He tells me he loves me so much and then a couple of hours later tells me I’m awful and not doing enough. It’s hard to explain the whiplash. Rhead says he still wants to make posts with me but I’m not sure what it looks like right now. To my caregiver spouses: I see you. You aren’t alone. No one knows what you’re facing. I do. Please reach out anytime. #caregiver #growthroughwhatyougothrough #divorce
Lindsay Kelly361,000 views • 2 months ago
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