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daesung about his throat condition (2014) 🥹 he deserves the world, i love him so much :( 🐯: My throat isn’t in good condition. Even medically speaking, ever since I was a trainee, doctors have been telling me, “If you keep singing like that, you’re going to lose your voice.” I’ve been hearing that for 10 years now. So, honestly, I avoid going to the hospital because whenever I go, I just hear the same things over and over, and it makes me mentally weaker. I already know that my throat isn’t in good condition. There’s no way for me to hide that, because apparently the vocal cords are one of those parts of the body that don’t regenerate once they’re injured. That’s something I can’t really help. And if I were to have surgery on my vocal cords, I wouldn’t be able to speak at all for several months, and I simply don’t have that kind of time. So I’ve decided to just be completely open about it. I tell my fans, “My throat is weak.” There’s no need to sugarcoat it and then have you be disappointed later. My throat is weak, I crack my voice pretty easily, and things like that happen. But I love singing, so when I’m on stage, whether my voice gives out or not, I’m going to sing with everything I’ve got. I realized something from what happened last year. Before that, whenever my voice cracked, it was honestly really obvious to me. Even up until last year’s tour, I would completely lose it mentally. I’d be like, “Ah, shit, what do I do…” and I’d start thinking about the CEO and the staff, feeling sorry and worrying about everyone. But after last year’s tour, while preparing for this year’s tour, I thought back on everything that happened last year. When I thought about why the people who came last year came back again this year, and why we were able to perform at even bigger venues, I realized something. Of course, having your voice crack is really bad for a singer, and ideally it shouldn’t happen. I’m obviously doing everything I can to prevent it, but sometimes it happens a lot without me even realizing it. So now I’ve learned how to deal with it. When it happens, instead of worrying about it, I just think, “Fine, let my vocal cords tear themselves apart if they have to,” and I sing with everything I have. And strangely enough, my voice actually comes out better that way. Even when the concert gets longer, my voice keeps holding up, and I’ve discovered that I can create a stage where the atmosphere in the concert venue gets incredibly hot and I can really move people. That’s how I’ve been singing now. #DAESUNG #DLITE #대성 #テソン

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How it started & how it’s going 💫 I have to reshare this video of me as a child, doing what I love & speaking with so much conviction & passion. Little did I know that I’d go on to do this exact thing as my full time career, but on a much larger scale…sketching up my own designs that are being worn by superstars & working with major brands. It’s pretty surreal to look back on with all that I’ve achieved now. It goes to show how our destiny is already written & can show itself from childhood. When I was at primary & secondary school, being a boy that loved drawing, collecting fashion dolls & was seen as more feminine compared to other boys, I became an easy target & was bullied quite harshly for just being myself. I sometimes still experience similar situations today as an adult, just going about my daily business. Even though I couldn’t wait for my school years to be over so I could focus on my true purpose, I never conformed to fit in. I stayed true to myself & was thankful to have supportive family that encouraged my talent & creative interests from very early on. The things that made me stand out & that I was bullied for back then, are what ultimately got me to where I am today…a self-made, fashion success story! I say all of this to encourage any young boy out there who can relate, who feels different, or that may not have the support system from their family, to never change who you are or let anyone stifle your self expression, passion & creativity. Go after all your dreams, even if you don’t have support. YOU can make it happen for yourself! I believe in you. If I can do it, so can you 🤗🩵

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Abubaker Abed

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【📢IGLive: อันโดรเมด้า ชุน 】 #จุงอาเชน #JoongArchen 🌞: it’s break time from my shoot. i had one scene this morning and my next scene is at night so i have to wait around the filming location. i came out here to buy some grilled prawns. wait let me show you… oh, shoot… how do i say this? they’re really fresh and they’re cheap too so… i bought the whole batch!. i bought these prawns from a grilled prawn shop to bring back to the set for everyone tonight. cause if nothing goes wrong today should be the wrap day for wan thong 🌞right now i’m filming outside bangkok, and honestly i don’t know what to do while waiting. some people finish their morning scenes, go home and then come back at night. but i’m too lazy to do that. i didn’t want to drive all the way back to bangkok and then drive here again. the crew called me for 9am. so i left home at about 7:30am. to make it on time. while driving i got onto the motorway. i was supposed to turn right toward the filming location but i completely missed the exit and just kept driving straight. at first google maps said i was 19mins away. then all of a sudden…55 mins. and 70km .i was like “oh crap… where the heck am i going?” so i checked the map but there wasn’t anywhere to make a u-turn. then i noticed a police station on the left. on the map it looked like an alternate route like i could turn in there so i did. the eta immediately changed to 24 minutes and i thought “okay… that’s better. at least i won’t have to drive another 55 mins” by then it was already around 8:30 and i had to be in front of the camera within half an hour. so i drove in… …and a couple of security guards stopped me. they said “you can’t go through here”. there were a few other cars that had driven in with me too. they eẽplained “this is the police station. you’re not allowed to drive through” - i said “but the map says i can. it looks like a normal road” they replied “no. we’ve already had several people get fired cause they let cars pass through here” i was like “wait… what do you mean?” then i realized they meant the guards who used to work there. they had gotten fired for letting drivers use that route. so i said “alright that’s okay” i didn’t even ask why it was closed. i didn’t want to cause any trouble for them so i just turned around and left. and in the end… i had to drive another 70km before i finally reached the filming location. while i was driving i saw signs pointing toward Kanchanaburi. my heart literally sank. i was thinking, “oh my god… where on earth am i driving to?” i seriously couldn’t believe it. i just kept driving, already feeling completely defeated. by the time i had reached the police station area, i had already driven about 45km from the city. so altogether: 45km to reach the police station. then another 70km to finally reach the filming location. i was just like “oho wow… amazing” i completely gave up at that point. earlier i had even sent a message to my fans saying “today’s our wrap day! i’m so excited!”

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124,871 görüntüleme • 10 ay önce

Um, am I the [ __ ] for sleeping with my ex to hurt my husband, only to discover he had already moved on with my best friend? I ruined my marriage on purpose, and my husband already had a replacement lined up before I even realized what I had done. Three weeks ago, my ex sent me a text out of nowhere. we dated for 2 years before I met my husband. The breakup was mutual, nothing messy. The text said he missed me and wondered if we could talk. I screenshot it and showed my husband that night while we were watching TV. My ex texted me," I said to my husband. "Uh, says he misses me. My husband glanced at the screen, then back at the TV, and said, Okay. That's it Just okay He shrugged Then he said, What do you want me to say? I don't know what I expected Maybe jealousy Maybe anger. Something that proved he still cared We'd been married for 4 years, and things had gone very stale He worked late constantly. We barely talked anymore And I felt completely invisible. "What if I wanted to see him?" I pushed back My husband looked at me Then really looked at me His face was completely blank Then see him my husband, said Are you serious? Follow your heart," he said. Then he went back to watching TV like nothing, Like I had just told him nothing about considering my ex, I was furious. What kind of husband says that I wanted a reaction, I wanted him to fight for me Instead, he acted like he didn't even care, So I left I texted my ex back We met for coffee two days later, He looked good, He asked about my marriage, and I told him the truth, That it felt dead He listened. He remembered things about me that my husband had forgotten My favorite coffee order, The book series that I loved, Small things that suddenly felt huge. We met again and again, Each time I'd come home, my husband wouldn't ask where I had been, He'd just nod when I walked in and go back to whatever he was doing. Last week, I crossed the line, I went to my ex's place, and we slept together, I felt disgusting afterward, But also triumphant in a sick way, I'd finally done something my husband would have to react to. I came home at midnight, My husband was still reading on the couch, I slept with my ex," I said. He closed his book slowly, looked at me, and said, I know "You know?" "How do you know? You're not subtle," he said. You've been trying to hurt me for weeks, and I just let you, "You wanted to leave, and I wasn't going to stop you, I waited for the anger, I waited for the pain or Something. His face showed nothing. That's it?" "You're not even going to yell at me? What's the point, He stood up. "I'll sleep in the guest room tonight, and we can figure out the divorce details tomorrow, He walked away just like that, I'd blown up our marriage expecting fireworks, and got a quiet exit instead.

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JOONGDUNK PRAEW PODCAST #DearMyselfxJoongDunk the first photo : “from the day that kid had to survive on his own” —— 🌞be called the last one i took with my dad before his father passed away. at that time i never expected it would happen. during COVID i was in China to compete in a survival show having decided to leave and sacrifice everything i had in Thailand to go there. but the pandemic hit the show couldn’t be filmed and i was left with only about 50,000B in my account — everything i had. when i returned to Thailand i felt completely lost not knowing what job to do or where to go. acting singing — everything seemed uncertain and nothing could move forward because of COVID. not long after that my dad passed away. it’s been about 6 years since then 🌞the reason i chose this photo is because it truly was a turning point in my life. everything felt like it had exploded — like i was completely cornered with no way out. so i had to struggle, do everything i could just to survive. and it wasn’t only me who had to survive but my whole family too. i still have my mom, three younger sisters and brothers who are in Turkey. that’s why i had to do everything to make sure my people could survive. it felt like every door in my life had completely shut every single one. so i had no choice but to search for new doors. luckily during COVID, many new doors eventually opened for me. honestly, in the days when those doors hadn’t opened yet, did i ever think this might not be the right path? no! not at all. i just felt that this was the path i was good at — and also the one i loved. i had already experienced what it felt like to be here and i truly liked it. i got to do so many things — dancing, acting, going to international fan meetings. it made me feel like… once you keep getting on stage, you start craving it. you crave the stage, the screams from the crowd, singing together with fans. it’s a completely different feeling. hearing their voices—it’s indescribable. back then, what I wanted was simply… i don’t even know exactly what it was but i wanted to see myself on stage, singing, with people singing along with me. And i realized i truly loved that feeling. that’s why i knew this was my path. 🌞because when i was younger, i used to love singing in the bathroom. and. my father… was the only person in the house who would knock on the bathroom door and say “stop singing everyone else in the neighborhood can hear you already” 🌞this was back when i was living at Eason Blue. basically the bathrooms in that house were connected. it was like a family apartment: upstairs was one relative’s place, downstairs was another, and our home was in the middle. so everyone could hear everything. my dad was worried that my voice would disturb the neighbors, so even in the bathroom or in my own room i wasn’t really allowed to sing. instead, i would go sing at school. simply put, my dad didn’t really support me much when it came to singing. he just didn’t see what this kid could become, or where singing could take me. and honestly, back then, i couldn’t see it myself either—i never imagined that one day i’d get to sing this much : nd now that you’re about to have a fan concert, where you can fully perform and sing… your dad must finally get to see it somewhere right? 🌞but in the end he didn’t get to see it. Maybe he’s listening from above

🇻🇳Jaidee’s aunt Bamnie🐣

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Lord Jesus, I’m stepping up today, loud & proud, & I’m praising Your name so the nonbelievers feel You, even if they don’t want to hear You. I’m standing on the frontline in the face of every demon that thought they could play with my soul. In Your name, Lord, I send them back to that pit where they belong, to the fire they crawled out of, the darkness You already conquered. Thank You, Lord, for the shield of protection You gave me through faith. Without You, I’d be food for the wolves. With You, I’m now the lion in the den & the light in the alley. I’m the soldier in Your army. This is Your plan, Lord, so I don’t have to understand it to trust it. You write the script, I just play my part with no hesitation or fear. If You say go, I’m gone. If You say fight, I’m swinging. If You say love, I’m pouring my whole heart out. Use me today, Lord. Let me be the blessing in somebody’s storm. Let me reach those who lost their faith in the dark. Let me show those chasing false prophets that there’s only one truth, only one way, & only one King, Lord Jesus. Let Your light hit the coldest hearts, Lord. Melt the hate, wash the pain, drown the doubt in Your mercy. Replace it all with love, joy, & peace that only You can give. Keep my focus sharp, Lord. Don’t let fatigue slow me down. This mission doesn’t stop until the trumpet sounds. I thank You for the blessings I see & those still on the way. Thank You for the wars You fought for me when I didn’t even know I was under attack... And for every prayer warrior that stands with me, that’s real love. That’s God’s love! There's no love greater than the love You gave on that cross. There's no power stronger than the blood that covered us all. I send this the only way I know how... With my heart open, my knees bent, & my soul filled with the holy spirit. In Jesus’ mighty name I pray, Amen & AMEN!

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[ condition update ] 🐻‍❄ In short of what happen with me is an inflammation on heart muscle from a virus infection which still cant be identified yet. The symptoms I experience are painful breathing, heart racing, tight chest, difficulty breathing, kinda thing. I’m told not to overwork my heart because it could make the inflammation gets worse. That’s basically in short. As for the details, it was 4-5 days ago, I started feeling uncomfortable in my chest, it felt tight and I had trouble breathing as well. Anytime I did something, like exercising or walking on a treadmill, my body felt hurt, and my heart rate went up way higher than usual. It’s normally around 100, but it went to 150 even when I was just doing little activity. It felt off, so I thought I might have caught some kind of infection. The other day I made a doctor appointment in the hospital as I got some free time. I was told to go to internal medicine doctor and was asked about what I’ve been experiencing. I had fever, waking up found tightness in chest at one night, a nausea, but nothing came out. I just felt like about to vomiting but nothing came out at all, so I thought it was unusual. At that time, my face went all pale and lips went all purple already, which why I decided to go to the hospital. Once I was in the internal medicine, well, they did some screening. I said I have low fever, painful breathing, body and muscle pain, so I was sent to ENT because I experience a ringing in my ear as well, I then sent to do a hearing function test. Right ear was normal, while my left ear was.. what’s it called.. ringing in ear. My left ear hearing function drops down one level. It’s not that serious but since it’s related to inner ear, and it's a part of nervous system, right? If it’s affecting that, the doctor afraid it could lead to permanent hearing function loss. Yeah, that part is concerning. So I was prescribed steroids to be consumed to prevent further inflammation and damage more than this. Not sure if I’m explaining it right, but that’s what I remember. I’m not a doctor, lol. And then, after I got the steroids and back home, I had work to film on the next day. I was like, why I feel so tired going for work at 6 in the morning, why my body feels this exhausting, just bending over to grab something or doing other things made me feel like I was gonna pass out. Thought I was just old lol. But at that time I felt unwell, my chest felt tight, and I felt exhausted. That day, I kept working even though I was exhausted. I felt like I don’t wanna work anymore, it was tiring, even just walking up the stairs, I had to stop and take a break. I couldn’t do it, it felt so tiring. When filming, just stepping my legs already felt tiring that I didn’t want to step my legs anymore. So that day decided to see a doctor, focusing to check my heart as it felt tight and was racing, and I had pain when breathing as well so I decided to see a heart specialist doctor but I arrived there at 2 PM and there was no available appointment anymore. Also, the Echo or ECG machine was all used so I had to schedule an appointment for the next day. I went there in the afternoon. Blood pressure and other test was normal, around 110-160, and it’s normal. Pulse is normal. Blood pressure was okay. And what else, yeah that’s it. I had an ECG, the result came out normal. I’ve also just get physical check up recently and the result were almost the same when compared. But since I still didn’t feel well, I wanted to know what’s wrong with me so I asked for a blood test. It’s a blood test that focusing on troponin and CRP level, which are enzymes in blood cells that indicate heart issues if the levels are high. After my blood test, I waited an hour for the results. When they called me, they said my symptom is serious, it’s a heart disease. Normal troponin levels are below 1 for healthy human, but mine was 3800, which is extremely high, so I had to be admitted. This is an enzyme level in the heart muscle cells. If heart muscle is damaged or its cells break down, the enzyme will mix into the blood and can be detected in the blood indicating a heart problem, so I need to be admitted for further examination with echo. It’s an ultrasound for heart. The result saying that there’s an inflammation in my heart as predicted by the doctors. The heart muscle is really swollen and… [takes deep breath] oh I’m tired already. It's enlarging which makes my heart race and feel tight and uncomfortable. That’s what they said. It’s not working the way it should, which is why I get tired so easily. So it answers everything. After the echo I took a rest and got therapy regimen… as what I understand, consuming steroid can suppress the immune system, right? They help reduce inflammation while the body fights the virus. It’s reducing the inflammation, right? But they said steroids alone weren’t enough because my troponin levels were way too abnormally high, so I got an injection instead. [deep breath] I got injected last night for only three dosage because I had to work today in the morning.asked the doctor to discharge me cause I had to work first. But the decision was taken with condition. I got injected three dosage in the morning and did another blood test which show a result of a decrease in troponin level from 3800 to 1600. Doctor said it was probably 5000 before this and it keeps decreasing to 3800, and to 1600, So if the work isn’t too hard physically, I’m allowed to go, I then go to work. Today at work I was only standing around and talking around. I can stand and talk, but I can’t do any heavy work as it’ll will make my heart work hard and affecting the recovery, I then have to walk slowly. But even so, I can’t even walk fast tho, I get tired easily. Yeah, that’s all. It’s not like I’m completely bedrotting or something, it’s just heart muscle problem, so… fighting ✌🏻

deeコ

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#JANHAE #JANIVERSE 💬: does p’ get annoyed with someone who overthinks? 🦊: p’ myself overthinks! i’m one of them. i think a lot! i overthink so so much! i wouldn’t be annoyed. i understand. but the person who gets annoyed is myself, you get it? like “can you stop thinking already? can you stop please? oh god!” other people might not… the people around me are great. honestly, sometimes they probably get annoyed with me for overthinking too, but they don’t really get annoyed. but the person who gets annoyed is me myself. i get annoyed with myself, “i don’t want to be someone like this!! i don’t want to overthink. why do i keep thinking?” there has to be some way of handling it yourself, like being firm with yourself or having more confidence in yourself 🦊: when i was a kid, i would overthink and be scared that people would not like me, like a kid in primary or secondary school. i was scared there might be people who didn’t like me, because when i was kid, i was kind of good-looking~~ so i had some roles [in school]. many people knew me at school. they often said i was arrogant, or wouldn’t respond when they said hi to me. one, i’m someone who would space out. i didn’t really pay attention. sometimes, i might walk and not pay attention to anything. i would just walk. two, if i was with my friends, i would only focus on my friends. i wouldn’t pay attention to other people. whoever said hi, i wouldn’t really know. so, i was scared then. i didn’t want to go to school. my peers didn't seem to like me. i didn’t say hi when i saw someone. i would overthink, you know 🦊: but i realized, “what did i do wrong?” what i did… you know? i didn’t do anything. when i didn’t say hi or smile back, sometimes it’s just that i didn’t see or hear. so when someone said something like this, i was like, “ok, i’ll pay more attention. but don’t blame myself, thinking, ‘is it my fault or not?’ ‘am i a bad person?’ ‘am i an arrogant person?’ ‘oh my peers criticized me for being arrogant. i’m scared that they don’t like me.’” i was like this when i was a kid. those were just minor things that happened 🦊: but after i got older, i just let it go. i just try to know myself the best i can. i’m someone who doesn’t want to be a bad person already. like i don’t want to be a bad person in other people’s lives either. so i try to be the best person i can be. i really am a good person 5555 i try to be myself as long as other people aren’t troubled, “are other people are troubled or not? does it affect other people? if it doesn’t affect anyone, just do it! there’s no need to be afraid! but i have to think properly”

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jihoon’s sleep paralysis is so bad that he went in and out of it more than 10 times during his massage today :( he couldnt even sleep and get some rest even if he had the time to :( i feel so bad :( 🐶 right after I got back to Korea, I went to get a massage. while I was getting the massage, I ended up getting sleep paralysis. 🐶 u know how it is, right? when you get sleep paralysis, you wake up - fall asleep - get sleep paralysis - wake up - fall asleep - boom sleep paralysis. over and over. u know you’re trapped in that cycle, but you can’t escape it because you’re so tired that you keep falling back asleep 🐶 im like “ah im probably gonna get sleep paralysis again” but at the same time you think, “maybe this round will be different” 🐶 but no, I got sleep paralysis so many times. I seriously got stuck in an endless loop. I was trying so hard to snap out of it, like moving around and struggling, and then when I finally woke up, the massage therapist was like 👩🏻 oh? are you okay? is this position uncomfortable for you? 🐶 so I pretended it was that and went “ah yeah im okimokimok” 🐶 then I fell asleep again, and it happened again. I’d move around, wake up, and they’d ask me if im okay. i say yes. this happened like three or four times. 🐶 then later they put something warm on me. but when they did, I suddenly got kind of scared because I was already in that weird state, so I asked, “how long does this stay on for?” and they said about 7 minutes. by then I’d already had sleep paralysis like four times in a row. every time it happened, i’d wake up - sleep paralysis - wake up - sleep paralysis just over and over. 🐶 anyway, after it was all done 👩🏻 does your body feel okay now? 🐶 oh yeah yeah my body feels great. yes yes I think I feel really good 🐶 my manager said he could give me a ride, but since the other hyungs had just gotten back to Korea too, I was like, “no everyone go home and rest. its Sunday anyway, I’ll go by myself.” 🐶 so I was dragging myself home thinking, “should I just lie down and sleep right here on the street?” but it was so hot today, and the back of my neck was burning from the heat. I pulled myself together and got home. 🐶 honestly, I was planning to sleep. I thought I’d sleep for like three hours after getting home, but I just couldn’t fall asleep. And seriously, this is torture. the suffering of insomnia is real. people who can actually sleep when they want to sleep are seriously amazing. 🐶 I really tried today. I turned on the styler, lay there with my eyes closed for like forty minutes, but in the end I couldn’t sleep. so I was like, “okay if it’s gonna be like this, i’ll just start a livestream! okay”

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21 yr old gets delivered from an LGBTQ+ lifestyle by Jesus Christ ✝️ Jesus can change anyone! “if you couldn’t tell by the end i really needed that hug. i felt the pull of Jesus really hard alone in a room and decided to try it out considering i’ve tried EVERYTHING else and nothing was making me happy. he has shown to me how real he really is and when i thought i knew who i was, God showed me who i really am. and i’m happier, my life has purpose and i no longer have hate for myself. all it took was one try and he changed my life from that moment forward. if out of ALL PEOPLE he could change MY life for the better.. he could do it for anyone.. you guys know me and you know i wouldn’t change for anyone and no one could change me. a lot can change in one day. but i didn’t change myself when i went to God to try him out and opened the bible. just as you don’t go into a shower already clean. you go in as you are and come out clean. he says come as you are. so don’t think you have to look or be a certain way to come to him and to believe in him. because it’s not true. he’s for everyone and he actually came to break people from being too religious. don’t let church hurt hold you back. he never wanted you to be hurt and that wasn’t him. i was very into myself and prideful of who i was and this isn’t because someone forced me to go to church or because i was brainwashed. it was because i genuinely fell in love with Jesus and he’s in love with you too. you just need to open your eyes to see it. #jesussaves” - Benjamin

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