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🗣️: Tofu has already returned to the stars. Lingling: Ever since I moved to Thailand, my mom saw how lonely I was on my own, so she got Tofu to keep me company. We grew up together. As Tofu got older, one day my mom called me and said, "Tofu can't hold on much longer; she is about to leave us." During that time, my work was incredibly busy, and I could barely squeeze out any time at all. But I desperately wanted to rush back to see her one last time. So I asked my mom to gently whisper in Tofu's ear, "Can you wait a little bit for P’Ling?" The moment my work ended, I immediately caught a flight back. The very next morning, I flew right back to continue working. In the end, I made it in time to hold Tofu one last time. That was the first time in my life experiencing the loss of such an important family member, and it was the first time I ever cried that hard. This experience taught me one thing: I don't want anyone to ever have to say in the future, "If I had known things would turn out this way, I definitely would have done something." If you want to take care of the important people around you, do it now. Don't wait. Now Tofu has gone to a place free of pain, and I tell myself this every single day. Even now, when I wake up every morning, I still think of her. She will always be in my heart. 🗣️: (Apart from Char Siu) will you ever get another dog? Lingling: My mom says she wants to. But now I can finally understand why so many people are afraid to get another pet after experiencing a loss. #หลิงหลิงคอง #linglingkwong
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🗣️: Tofu has already returned to the stars. Lingling: Ever since I moved to Thailand, my mom saw how lonely I was on my own, so she got Tofu to keep me company. We grew up together. As Tofu got older, one day my mom called me and said, "Tofu can't hold on much longer; she is about to leave us." During that time, my work was incredibly busy, and I could barely squeeze out any time at all. But I desperately wanted to rush back to see her one last time. So I asked my mom to gently whisper in Tofu's ear, "Can you wait a little bit for P’Ling?" The moment my work ended, I immediately caught a flight back. The very next morning, I flew right back to continue working. In the end, I made it in time to hold Tofu one last time. That was the first time in my life experiencing the loss of such an important family member, and it was the first time I ever cried that hard. This experience taught me one thing: I don't want anyone to ever have to say in the future, "If I had known things would turn out this way, I definitely would have done something." If you want to take care of the important people around you, do it now. Don't wait. Now Tofu has gone to a place free of pain, and I tell myself this every single day. Even now, when I wake up every morning, I still think of her. She will always be in my heart. 🗣️: (Apart from Char Siu) will you ever get another dog? Lingling: My mom says she wants to. But now I can finally understand why so many people are afraid to get another pet after experiencing a loss. #หลิงหลิงคอง #linglingkwong

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My Mother Will Live 100 Years More People will continue to speak the name of a woman who gave kindness freely and inspired their strength By Charlie LeDuff Charlie LeDuff Mother's life was not one of accolades or prizes or financial riches. Mother was a handsome woman who lived a normal life. But when cancer came to claim her face, it exposed a beauty previously unseen by me. “That’s the thing about growing old,” she said of the affliction that had stolen her eyes and taken the bridge of her nose and left her in darkness. “Eventually God punishes every woman for her vanity.” Even so, Mother continued to wear a wristwatch so she might document the hour when her eyesight would return. Of course, it never did. She was 81. Evangeline Baldis (née Steele) was born in Michigan’s Upper Peninsula, the daughter of a truck driver and waitress. In her life, Mother was many things. A factory girl, a florist, a painter, a gourmet, a theologian. She was a wife to three men. Mother to five children. Grandmother of 10. Great-grandmother of three. She also offered sanctuary to many children lost in the blizzard of drugs and divorce known as The Eighties. There was always a warm meal at her table. At that time, men were packing their bags and walking out the door and women were left to go out to earn the bread. Naturally, children ran wild—including her own. On more than one occasion, Mother presented herself in an old fur coat at the threshold of a disreputable door demanding her child be returned to her. “There is a word for that,” her sister Joann said at the hour of her death. “Flair. Your mother had flair.” Weeks earlier, Mother asked: “Why does God keep me around? What does he want from me? I’m ready.” “One last great lesson, Ma,” I supposed. “I think He wants you to teach us how to die with dignity. How not to be afraid.” She nodded. And then she asked for a cigarette. And then she asked for a chocolate. And then she asked for a spritz of Oscar de la Renta. At the foot of her bed, a great-grandchild clutched at the post attempting to right herself. Mother knew the baby by the sound of her gurglings. The baby carries her name. Evangeline. The bringer of good news. The scent of lilac and sage wafted in from the garden along with the dang-dong of the wind chime. Mother had been floating in the morphine clouds for sometime. As the day grew nearer, and the dosage grew higher, I expected strange things to bubble from her haze. I did not know what exactly. Rantings perhaps. Bitterness maybe. Medicine is a truth serum, and cancer is a monster. But strange words never came. She was the same woman in death’s shadow as she was in life’s light. She was more handsome than I had ever known. One evening, in the darkened room, she asked, “Why me, Lord? “What’s that, Ma?” “Kris Kristofferson,” she said. “Why me, Lord?” It wasn’t a question. It was a request. “Why Me?” is Kristofferson’s gospel song of humility and grace; of feeling unworthy of God’s blessings. I remembered it from boyhood. I played it for her. Try me, Lord If you think there's a way I can try to repay All I've taken from you Maybe, Lord I can show someone else What I've been through myself On my way back to you She sang along in a rasping, labored voice. And then she went to sleep. Mother died today, or yesterday. But not really. It is said that a woman dies twice. Once when her heart stops. And once when her name is spoken for the last time. Considering the people she touched, the kindness she freely gave, the strength she offered, I am quite sure Mother will live 100 years more. At least.
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My Mother Will Live 100 Years More People will continue to speak the name of a woman who gave kindness freely and inspired their strength By Charlie LeDuff Charlie LeDuff Mother's life was not one of accolades or prizes or financial riches. Mother was a handsome woman who lived a normal life. But when cancer came to claim her face, it exposed a beauty previously unseen by me. “That’s the thing about growing old,” she said of the affliction that had stolen her eyes and taken the bridge of her nose and left her in darkness. “Eventually God punishes every woman for her vanity.” Even so, Mother continued to wear a wristwatch so she might document the hour when her eyesight would return. Of course, it never did. She was 81. Evangeline Baldis (née Steele) was born in Michigan’s Upper Peninsula, the daughter of a truck driver and waitress. In her life, Mother was many things. A factory girl, a florist, a painter, a gourmet, a theologian. She was a wife to three men. Mother to five children. Grandmother of 10. Great-grandmother of three. She also offered sanctuary to many children lost in the blizzard of drugs and divorce known as The Eighties. There was always a warm meal at her table. At that time, men were packing their bags and walking out the door and women were left to go out to earn the bread. Naturally, children ran wild—including her own. On more than one occasion, Mother presented herself in an old fur coat at the threshold of a disreputable door demanding her child be returned to her. “There is a word for that,” her sister Joann said at the hour of her death. “Flair. Your mother had flair.” Weeks earlier, Mother asked: “Why does God keep me around? What does he want from me? I’m ready.” “One last great lesson, Ma,” I supposed. “I think He wants you to teach us how to die with dignity. How not to be afraid.” She nodded. And then she asked for a cigarette. And then she asked for a chocolate. And then she asked for a spritz of Oscar de la Renta. At the foot of her bed, a great-grandchild clutched at the post attempting to right herself. Mother knew the baby by the sound of her gurglings. The baby carries her name. Evangeline. The bringer of good news. The scent of lilac and sage wafted in from the garden along with the dang-dong of the wind chime. Mother had been floating in the morphine clouds for sometime. As the day grew nearer, and the dosage grew higher, I expected strange things to bubble from her haze. I did not know what exactly. Rantings perhaps. Bitterness maybe. Medicine is a truth serum, and cancer is a monster. But strange words never came. She was the same woman in death’s shadow as she was in life’s light. She was more handsome than I had ever known. One evening, in the darkened room, she asked, “Why me, Lord? “What’s that, Ma?” “Kris Kristofferson,” she said. “Why me, Lord?” It wasn’t a question. It was a request. “Why Me?” is Kristofferson’s gospel song of humility and grace; of feeling unworthy of God’s blessings. I remembered it from boyhood. I played it for her. Try me, Lord If you think there's a way I can try to repay All I've taken from you Maybe, Lord I can show someone else What I've been through myself On my way back to you She sang along in a rasping, labored voice. And then she went to sleep. Mother died today, or yesterday. But not really. It is said that a woman dies twice. Once when her heart stops. And once when her name is spoken for the last time. Considering the people she touched, the kindness she freely gave, the strength she offered, I am quite sure Mother will live 100 years more. At least.

Michigan Enjoyer

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Shiroko's "Are you having fun, Sensei?" from Blue Archive Fes 2026 If Shiroko was real I would definitely try to befriend her. I've always longed for someone who would encourage me to take working out more seriously—particularly cycling. Right now, my biggest problem with cycling is that I don't have that many cool spots I can go to anymore after having moved cities. And like many people, I'm bad at aimlessly strolling around, even more so at going on a trip without a clear destination. But Shiroko could help with that. She's great at planning (as shown by planning out her tour around Kivotos in her Cycling alt bond story), and I'm sure she would be able to plan several routes of various lengths and change in altitude. And I would love to go with her, no matter what she plans. If there's one thing I'm good at, it's endurance, after all. Throw however many "light 100km trips" at me as she may want, I would definitely keep up. And exercising together would bring us closer, as sharing any enjoyable activity would. Her brain would associate the endorphins released during workout with me being around, as would mine with her. And eventually, we would start dating. Doesn't a joint bank robbery sound great for the first date? How about a simple outing to a familiar ramen place? Or a romantic bike trip to the far seaside, just in time to sit down and watch the sunset, with her head leaning on my shoulder... There's just so much I would love to do together. I wonder how smooth her hair is. I wonder how soft the fur on her ears is. I wonder how much muscle she has, and how much that influences how her body feels to the touch. I would check everything. But no matter what I would discover, I'm sure I would come to love everything about her. I mean, she's already this perfect for me—she's cute, she's funny, and she even doesn't understand the appeal of electronic gear-shifting! In fact, I love her so much already, I'm worried I would mess the whole befriending part of the plan up. And even if I didn't, my feelings are bound to overflow at one point or another, and I can only imagine the things I would do when that happens. I would probably shower her in hugs, pats and kisses, and hope I won't get hated for that. Which I wouldn't if we were already dating, but then I feel like I would be on the receiving end of that kind of onslaught... That wouldn't be so bad though. In fact, I would let Shiroko assault me. I may have read too many Shiroko doujins, but she does strike me as the type to unleash her inner beast- er, I mean, unleash her emotions when faced with the man she loves. As just like with exercise, I would endure everything she would throw at me. I have gone a bit off-topic, but if Shiroko was real, I would be a healthier person. If Shiroko was real, I would be a better person. If Shiroko was real, I would be the best version of myself so that I could support her in all she does. I'm sure I could make it worth the time I would be stealing from her.
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Shiroko's "Are you having fun, Sensei?" from Blue Archive Fes 2026 If Shiroko was real I would definitely try to befriend her. I've always longed for someone who would encourage me to take working out more seriously—particularly cycling. Right now, my biggest problem with cycling is that I don't have that many cool spots I can go to anymore after having moved cities. And like many people, I'm bad at aimlessly strolling around, even more so at going on a trip without a clear destination. But Shiroko could help with that. She's great at planning (as shown by planning out her tour around Kivotos in her Cycling alt bond story), and I'm sure she would be able to plan several routes of various lengths and change in altitude. And I would love to go with her, no matter what she plans. If there's one thing I'm good at, it's endurance, after all. Throw however many "light 100km trips" at me as she may want, I would definitely keep up. And exercising together would bring us closer, as sharing any enjoyable activity would. Her brain would associate the endorphins released during workout with me being around, as would mine with her. And eventually, we would start dating. Doesn't a joint bank robbery sound great for the first date? How about a simple outing to a familiar ramen place? Or a romantic bike trip to the far seaside, just in time to sit down and watch the sunset, with her head leaning on my shoulder... There's just so much I would love to do together. I wonder how smooth her hair is. I wonder how soft the fur on her ears is. I wonder how much muscle she has, and how much that influences how her body feels to the touch. I would check everything. But no matter what I would discover, I'm sure I would come to love everything about her. I mean, she's already this perfect for me—she's cute, she's funny, and she even doesn't understand the appeal of electronic gear-shifting! In fact, I love her so much already, I'm worried I would mess the whole befriending part of the plan up. And even if I didn't, my feelings are bound to overflow at one point or another, and I can only imagine the things I would do when that happens. I would probably shower her in hugs, pats and kisses, and hope I won't get hated for that. Which I wouldn't if we were already dating, but then I feel like I would be on the receiving end of that kind of onslaught... That wouldn't be so bad though. In fact, I would let Shiroko assault me. I may have read too many Shiroko doujins, but she does strike me as the type to unleash her inner beast- er, I mean, unleash her emotions when faced with the man she loves. As just like with exercise, I would endure everything she would throw at me. I have gone a bit off-topic, but if Shiroko was real, I would be a healthier person. If Shiroko was real, I would be a better person. If Shiroko was real, I would be the best version of myself so that I could support her in all she does. I'm sure I could make it worth the time I would be stealing from her.

Minend

15,846 次观看 • 6 个月前

Q: Another person who Diana is close to and is now at a global level is #LISA. May I ask about her? how did you become close? D: It started through Kru Koi, my singing teacher at the time, who was also her singing teacher. Kru Koi told me, 'Do you know there’s a Thai girl who will debut in Korea?…. She was so cute, this Thai girl is really adorable. I told her that if she ever came to Thailand, we could meet, and that gave us the chance to meet in person. Q: How was the first time you met her in person? D: It felt like meeting a sweet little girl, and from day one, she was humble and polite. I could tell she was easygoing, sincere, and kind, which made it really easy for us to get along, especially because she didn’t have any walls up. Q: What do you think point you both become so close? D: We can talk about almost anything. Since I’m older, I can give advice on many things, like being another older sister or a confidante. She would ask, 'What do you think, P’Dia?' Bc I got to know her early on, once we got to know each other, we really got to know each other deeply. Q: You knew her from the very beginning, and now she’s gone global. How do you feel about that? D: I’m happy and very proud. Every time she has an event or posts photo, I get surprised by her. Can one person really achieve so much? She’s doing so many things: singing, acting, and more. I love seeing her grow like this. She’s achieved so much, and I’m really proud to see her succeed. I’m always here for her. Q: Some people don’t realize you’ve been with her from the start and only notice you hanging out together later. In the entertainment industry, fans and critics always exist. Some may think you’re just riding her fame. What would you like to say to those people? D: I don’t really want to say anything bc we can’t control their thoughts. I know my own intentions, I care for Lisa, and I know she doesn’t feel that way about me. Everyone around Lisa wants her to be happy and live a normal childhood. Of course, we make plans to meet when everytime she returns, but we didn’t post pictures before bc it was the rule of her previous (YG) company. Now, we can post more freely bc she’s grown up and strong. Q: Is there anything you want to say to her? D: I want to say I’m really proud of Lisa and happy for her achievements. I want her to know I’m always here, she can come to me for advice anytime. I’ll be her friend, her older sister, always accompanying her……. I feel touched when I talk about her, she’s also very sweet to me. She does things I wouldn’t expect and takes good care of me. She doesn’t just let everyone take care of her, she also takes care of everyone else. LLOUD
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Q: Another person who Diana is close to and is now at a global level is #LISA. May I ask about her? how did you become close? D: It started through Kru Koi, my singing teacher at the time, who was also her singing teacher. Kru Koi told me, 'Do you know there’s a Thai girl who will debut in Korea?…. She was so cute, this Thai girl is really adorable. I told her that if she ever came to Thailand, we could meet, and that gave us the chance to meet in person. Q: How was the first time you met her in person? D: It felt like meeting a sweet little girl, and from day one, she was humble and polite. I could tell she was easygoing, sincere, and kind, which made it really easy for us to get along, especially because she didn’t have any walls up. Q: What do you think point you both become so close? D: We can talk about almost anything. Since I’m older, I can give advice on many things, like being another older sister or a confidante. She would ask, 'What do you think, P’Dia?' Bc I got to know her early on, once we got to know each other, we really got to know each other deeply. Q: You knew her from the very beginning, and now she’s gone global. How do you feel about that? D: I’m happy and very proud. Every time she has an event or posts photo, I get surprised by her. Can one person really achieve so much? She’s doing so many things: singing, acting, and more. I love seeing her grow like this. She’s achieved so much, and I’m really proud to see her succeed. I’m always here for her. Q: Some people don’t realize you’ve been with her from the start and only notice you hanging out together later. In the entertainment industry, fans and critics always exist. Some may think you’re just riding her fame. What would you like to say to those people? D: I don’t really want to say anything bc we can’t control their thoughts. I know my own intentions, I care for Lisa, and I know she doesn’t feel that way about me. Everyone around Lisa wants her to be happy and live a normal childhood. Of course, we make plans to meet when everytime she returns, but we didn’t post pictures before bc it was the rule of her previous (YG) company. Now, we can post more freely bc she’s grown up and strong. Q: Is there anything you want to say to her? D: I want to say I’m really proud of Lisa and happy for her achievements. I want her to know I’m always here, she can come to me for advice anytime. I’ll be her friend, her older sister, always accompanying her……. I feel touched when I talk about her, she’s also very sweet to me. She does things I wouldn’t expect and takes good care of me. She doesn’t just let everyone take care of her, she also takes care of everyone else. LLOUD

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120,482 次观看 • 9 个月前

Vayne takes you on a hunt. you don't know why. she doesn't take anyone. she says stay behind me. don't speak unless i speak first. don't make a sound when we move. you say yes. she looks at you for a second longer than usual. "if i tell you to run, you run. you don't look back for me. are we clear" you say yes. she doesn't answer. she just turns and walks out the door. you follow her through the city streets. she moves different when she's working. shoulders lower. steps shorter. her head doesn't turn but her eyes do. you can feel her cataloguing everything. the man smoking outside the tavern. the cat under the cart. the second floor window with the curtain half drawn. she leads you through an alley you didn't know existed. stops at a brick wall. then she climbs. there are handholds carved into the mortar that you wouldn't have noticed if she hadn't used them first. she's halfway up before she realizes you're still at the bottom. she looks down at you. "up" you climb. your hands are shaking by the time you reach the top. the roof is flat. old clay tiles along the edges. a low wall you can crouch behind. the city stretches out below you in every direction. a thousand windows glowing gold in the dusk. she's already at the far side. crouched. crossbow unslung. watching a building across the square. she doesn't look at you when you come up beside her. "stay low" you crouch. "that building. third floor. second window from the left" you look. "i see it" he'll come to that window sometime tonight. i've watched him do it for three nights. i want to know who he meets you ask who he is. her jaw tightens. "a demon pretending to be a man" you don't ask what that means. you settle in beside her. the wind is up here. it pulls at her hair and she doesn't bother fixing it. the sun is going down behind her. her profile in the gold light looks like something carved. her hands on the crossbow are steady. completely still. you've never seen anyone be this still. an hour passes. she doesn't move. you try not to move. your leg falls asleep. you shift an inch. she looks at you. you go completely still again. she looks back at the window. another hour. the sun is gone. the city is blue and black. lamps are lighting up one by one. the air is getting cold. you're shivering before you realize you're shivering. she notices. she doesn't say anything. then she takes off her cloak. doesn't look at you. holds it out to the side. "take it" you say "you'll be cold" "i don't get cold. take it" you take it. it's warm from her. it smells like leather and steel and something underneath. pine. smoke. something you can't name. you put it around your shoulders. the hem pools on the tile. it's huge on you. it's not huge on her. you hadn't realized how tall she is until you were wearing her cloak. she doesn't look at you for the next ten minutes. the stars come out. she shifts closer to you. just a little. so her shoulder is almost touching yours. you don't say anything about it. she doesn't either. you can feel the heat coming off her even through the cloak. another hour. still nothing at the window. she says "tell me something" you blink. "what" "anything. i need to stay sharp. talking keeps me sharp. not about the target. something else" you didn't expect that. you tell her about a book you've been reading. she listens. actually listens. her eyes never leave the window but you can tell she's hearing every word. she asks one question. you answer. she goes quiet again. you keep talking. quieter now. she interrupts you. "shh" she's not looking at the window anymore. she's looking at the roof two buildings over. you don't see anything. you don't see anything for a long time. then you do. a shadow that moves the wrong way. her hand finds yours. she doesn't look at you when she does it. her eyes don't leave the shadow. her fingers lace through yours and LOCK. tight. too tight. knuckles going white around your hand. "don't move" she breathes. you don't move. you can feel every ounce of her focus through her grip. it's not a lover's hold. it's a predator's. every muscle in her hand coiled. ready to drop yours the instant she needs the crossbow. she's not holding you for you. she's holding you to keep track of where you are without having to look. it should scare you. it doesn't. there is something about being held that tight by someone that dangerous that makes the rest of the world go quiet. your heartbeat slows. your breathing slows. the cold stops mattering. you are not the one hunting but you are with the one who is. and nothing is going to get through her to reach you. the shadow crosses the roof and disappears into a stairwell. she watches the spot it left for another full minute. her hand is still locked around yours. she doesn't loosen it. you don't want her to. finally she lets out a breath you didn't know she was holding. "not him. but someone who works for him" her grip eases. slowly. finger by finger. like she's having to consciously tell each one to let go. the last one is her thumb. it stays against your palm for half a second longer than the rest. then she takes her hand back. the cold rushes in where she was. she glances at you. just for a second. then she looks back at the window. the rest of the night she's quieter than before. the target never shows. when the sky starts turning grey she stands up. stretches. rolls her shoulders. looks out over the city one last time. "we're done" you stand too. your legs don't work right. she catches your elbow without looking. "careful" she keeps her hand there until you're steady. then she takes it away. you start to hand her cloak back. she says "keep it for the climb down" she goes first. you follow. the handholds are easier going down once you know where they are. when you're both on the ground she turns to take the cloak. you hand it to her. her fingers brush yours. she doesn't pull back as fast as she usually does. she puts the cloak back on. it's warm now. from you. she has to notice. she doesn't say anything about it. she walks you home. at your door she stops. "don't tell anyone what you saw tonight" you say "i didn't see much" she looks at you. her eyes in the lamplight. the edge of her mouth. almost softer than it should be. "you saw enough" then she turns and walks back into the dark. you close the door. your hand still feels cold where hers was. you can still smell pine on your shirt. you don't sleep. Study the Saskio way
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Vayne takes you on a hunt. you don't know why. she doesn't take anyone. she says stay behind me. don't speak unless i speak first. don't make a sound when we move. you say yes. she looks at you for a second longer than usual. "if i tell you to run, you run. you don't look back for me. are we clear" you say yes. she doesn't answer. she just turns and walks out the door. you follow her through the city streets. she moves different when she's working. shoulders lower. steps shorter. her head doesn't turn but her eyes do. you can feel her cataloguing everything. the man smoking outside the tavern. the cat under the cart. the second floor window with the curtain half drawn. she leads you through an alley you didn't know existed. stops at a brick wall. then she climbs. there are handholds carved into the mortar that you wouldn't have noticed if she hadn't used them first. she's halfway up before she realizes you're still at the bottom. she looks down at you. "up" you climb. your hands are shaking by the time you reach the top. the roof is flat. old clay tiles along the edges. a low wall you can crouch behind. the city stretches out below you in every direction. a thousand windows glowing gold in the dusk. she's already at the far side. crouched. crossbow unslung. watching a building across the square. she doesn't look at you when you come up beside her. "stay low" you crouch. "that building. third floor. second window from the left" you look. "i see it" he'll come to that window sometime tonight. i've watched him do it for three nights. i want to know who he meets you ask who he is. her jaw tightens. "a demon pretending to be a man" you don't ask what that means. you settle in beside her. the wind is up here. it pulls at her hair and she doesn't bother fixing it. the sun is going down behind her. her profile in the gold light looks like something carved. her hands on the crossbow are steady. completely still. you've never seen anyone be this still. an hour passes. she doesn't move. you try not to move. your leg falls asleep. you shift an inch. she looks at you. you go completely still again. she looks back at the window. another hour. the sun is gone. the city is blue and black. lamps are lighting up one by one. the air is getting cold. you're shivering before you realize you're shivering. she notices. she doesn't say anything. then she takes off her cloak. doesn't look at you. holds it out to the side. "take it" you say "you'll be cold" "i don't get cold. take it" you take it. it's warm from her. it smells like leather and steel and something underneath. pine. smoke. something you can't name. you put it around your shoulders. the hem pools on the tile. it's huge on you. it's not huge on her. you hadn't realized how tall she is until you were wearing her cloak. she doesn't look at you for the next ten minutes. the stars come out. she shifts closer to you. just a little. so her shoulder is almost touching yours. you don't say anything about it. she doesn't either. you can feel the heat coming off her even through the cloak. another hour. still nothing at the window. she says "tell me something" you blink. "what" "anything. i need to stay sharp. talking keeps me sharp. not about the target. something else" you didn't expect that. you tell her about a book you've been reading. she listens. actually listens. her eyes never leave the window but you can tell she's hearing every word. she asks one question. you answer. she goes quiet again. you keep talking. quieter now. she interrupts you. "shh" she's not looking at the window anymore. she's looking at the roof two buildings over. you don't see anything. you don't see anything for a long time. then you do. a shadow that moves the wrong way. her hand finds yours. she doesn't look at you when she does it. her eyes don't leave the shadow. her fingers lace through yours and LOCK. tight. too tight. knuckles going white around your hand. "don't move" she breathes. you don't move. you can feel every ounce of her focus through her grip. it's not a lover's hold. it's a predator's. every muscle in her hand coiled. ready to drop yours the instant she needs the crossbow. she's not holding you for you. she's holding you to keep track of where you are without having to look. it should scare you. it doesn't. there is something about being held that tight by someone that dangerous that makes the rest of the world go quiet. your heartbeat slows. your breathing slows. the cold stops mattering. you are not the one hunting but you are with the one who is. and nothing is going to get through her to reach you. the shadow crosses the roof and disappears into a stairwell. she watches the spot it left for another full minute. her hand is still locked around yours. she doesn't loosen it. you don't want her to. finally she lets out a breath you didn't know she was holding. "not him. but someone who works for him" her grip eases. slowly. finger by finger. like she's having to consciously tell each one to let go. the last one is her thumb. it stays against your palm for half a second longer than the rest. then she takes her hand back. the cold rushes in where she was. she glances at you. just for a second. then she looks back at the window. the rest of the night she's quieter than before. the target never shows. when the sky starts turning grey she stands up. stretches. rolls her shoulders. looks out over the city one last time. "we're done" you stand too. your legs don't work right. she catches your elbow without looking. "careful" she keeps her hand there until you're steady. then she takes it away. you start to hand her cloak back. she says "keep it for the climb down" she goes first. you follow. the handholds are easier going down once you know where they are. when you're both on the ground she turns to take the cloak. you hand it to her. her fingers brush yours. she doesn't pull back as fast as she usually does. she puts the cloak back on. it's warm now. from you. she has to notice. she doesn't say anything about it. she walks you home. at your door she stops. "don't tell anyone what you saw tonight" you say "i didn't see much" she looks at you. her eyes in the lamplight. the edge of her mouth. almost softer than it should be. "you saw enough" then she turns and walks back into the dark. you close the door. your hand still feels cold where hers was. you can still smell pine on your shirt. you don't sleep. Study the Saskio way

Tony Chau

11,734 次观看 • 3 个月前

Caller: "Okay. So, I've been with my wife for, we've been together since we were 14, for 14 years. I'm 32, I met her when I was 19, we had a child at 20. And, um, I've always just kind of been a butthead to her, to be honest. Every now and then I would demean her or make little comments, and I would say it started to really get bad about six weeks ago. Um, we were doing some work in the yard, and I really just blew up on her over the stupidest little thing. And then about a week later, we're just constantly arguing and dividing from each other. And then about a week or two later, she told me that she thought she was falling out of love with me. And it just really crushed me. I never would have thought that those words could come out of her mouth, and she told me that the way I treat her is, I'm not treating her the right way. And I completely owned it. I mean, I said everything you said is absolutely correct. You know, and I said, 'I don't want my son, our son growing up thinking that this is how you're supposed to treat women.' And, I mean, since that day, I have treated her like an angel. I mean, I've done everything and just constantly telling her I love her, giving her hugs, kisses. Um, but that was a Saturday night, and then Monday night she ended up telling me that she was, um, in communication with a guy she met on TikTok. And she told me she broke it off with him, and I asked her, What was the subjects about?' And she said it was just somebody to talk to about what I'm going through, my mental, you know, health. And she said it was never anything flirtatious or anything like that. She said it was just a stranger that I could talk to, but she said, 'I broke it off with him, and I'm gonna focus on us. And I said, 'I'm all in with you, let's rebuild this.' And we went about two weeks and it was just absolute honeymoon phase. I mean, we were just, never it was great. And then I went through her phone two weeks after that and found that she was on Snapchat with the guy. And I confronted her about it, and she said, 'Okay, well, I didn't think you were really gonna change, and I wanted to keep this friendship with the guy.' And she said, 'I'll break it off with him.' And I'm like, 'Okay, I guess I'll give you a second chance. I'm kind of heartbroken again that you would keep this from me. And then about a week and a half later, which was just yesterday, I went through the call logs on which, I feel bad because I'm constantly digging at all this, but every time I dig, I find something. And I confronted her yesterday that she's been talking to this guy for 30, 40, 50 minutes a day, um, the last week and a half, after she told me a third time that she was breaking it off with him. And I'm just super confused. I don't really know how to handle this. Now she's saying that she's all done talking to him, and I'm like, 'Well, how do I trust you now? You've been lying to me for the past three weeks about this.' So, that's really all I got." John Delony: "So for 14 years... you belittled your wife. She got the clear message she was beneath you. You're the smart one, you're the fast one, you're the quick one. You are the provider, you're the all this stuff." Caller: "Mhm. I always thought she was beneath me." John Delony: "Yeah, you did. And she's got that message for, for a decade and a half.
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Caller: "Okay. So, I've been with my wife for, we've been together since we were 14, for 14 years. I'm 32, I met her when I was 19, we had a child at 20. And, um, I've always just kind of been a butthead to her, to be honest. Every now and then I would demean her or make little comments, and I would say it started to really get bad about six weeks ago. Um, we were doing some work in the yard, and I really just blew up on her over the stupidest little thing. And then about a week later, we're just constantly arguing and dividing from each other. And then about a week or two later, she told me that she thought she was falling out of love with me. And it just really crushed me. I never would have thought that those words could come out of her mouth, and she told me that the way I treat her is, I'm not treating her the right way. And I completely owned it. I mean, I said everything you said is absolutely correct. You know, and I said, 'I don't want my son, our son growing up thinking that this is how you're supposed to treat women.' And, I mean, since that day, I have treated her like an angel. I mean, I've done everything and just constantly telling her I love her, giving her hugs, kisses. Um, but that was a Saturday night, and then Monday night she ended up telling me that she was, um, in communication with a guy she met on TikTok. And she told me she broke it off with him, and I asked her, What was the subjects about?' And she said it was just somebody to talk to about what I'm going through, my mental, you know, health. And she said it was never anything flirtatious or anything like that. She said it was just a stranger that I could talk to, but she said, 'I broke it off with him, and I'm gonna focus on us. And I said, 'I'm all in with you, let's rebuild this.' And we went about two weeks and it was just absolute honeymoon phase. I mean, we were just, never it was great. And then I went through her phone two weeks after that and found that she was on Snapchat with the guy. And I confronted her about it, and she said, 'Okay, well, I didn't think you were really gonna change, and I wanted to keep this friendship with the guy.' And she said, 'I'll break it off with him.' And I'm like, 'Okay, I guess I'll give you a second chance. I'm kind of heartbroken again that you would keep this from me. And then about a week and a half later, which was just yesterday, I went through the call logs on which, I feel bad because I'm constantly digging at all this, but every time I dig, I find something. And I confronted her yesterday that she's been talking to this guy for 30, 40, 50 minutes a day, um, the last week and a half, after she told me a third time that she was breaking it off with him. And I'm just super confused. I don't really know how to handle this. Now she's saying that she's all done talking to him, and I'm like, 'Well, how do I trust you now? You've been lying to me for the past three weeks about this.' So, that's really all I got." John Delony: "So for 14 years... you belittled your wife. She got the clear message she was beneath you. You're the smart one, you're the fast one, you're the quick one. You are the provider, you're the all this stuff." Caller: "Mhm. I always thought she was beneath me." John Delony: "Yeah, you did. And she's got that message for, for a decade and a half.

Hecto Crypto | NetLink ⛓

147,403 次观看 • 1 个月前

The way we all kept asking for flashbacks to understand Cihan and Alya better, yet no one is talking about these beauties. Both Alya and Cihan think back to their favorite moments, and that helps highlight what their current strife is. For instance, Alya thinks about Cihan's confession, his 'I love you' moment. But before that, she thinks about how he tells her to never let go of his hand. And you can almost hear Alya thinking, 'Does he still want to hold on to my hand? Does he still want me to hold his?' And that's precisely why she pulls her hand back in the scene right before this, because while he tells her he loves her in ep32, he also says he can't ignore his brother. Which is neither here nor there. And she wants clarity. She wants him to say I choose you l, like she chose him. Meanwhile, Cihan thinks about Alya's confession and her 'seni seviyorum.' And his next flashback features Alya telling him 'Hurry back, I'll be waiting for you.' And in that moment, it's as if Cihan is asking himself, 'Is she still waiting for me? Does she even want me anymore?' In the last episode, seeing Alya crash out and say, 'What didn't I go through in the past year?' seems to him as if she's lumping their time together in that sentence, too. She isn't, of course, but Ciho doesn't know that. So, essentially, their talk later on clears out the air for Cihan. Because Alya is super clear about what she wants. But, when she throws down the gauntlet and says, 'If you don't have the courage to stand by me, I'll take me son and leave' Cihan never gets the chance to clarify himself as they're interrupted by Deniz. Thankfully, not all is lost. Alya is still pissed at Ciho when they return, but when Cihan tells her not to return to the koltuk because neither of them have the strength to return to the past, it gives Alya hope. It's Cihan's way of saying don't try and go back to the way things were because I can't/won't do that anymore. No doubt Cihan bey will make matters even clearer to his wife soon, but for now, this was a beautifully written sequence. These two lovable idiots may take some time before they're sure of themselves, but once they commit, they don't give up ❤️✨️ #CihAl #UzakŞehir
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The way we all kept asking for flashbacks to understand Cihan and Alya better, yet no one is talking about these beauties. Both Alya and Cihan think back to their favorite moments, and that helps highlight what their current strife is. For instance, Alya thinks about Cihan's confession, his 'I love you' moment. But before that, she thinks about how he tells her to never let go of his hand. And you can almost hear Alya thinking, 'Does he still want to hold on to my hand? Does he still want me to hold his?' And that's precisely why she pulls her hand back in the scene right before this, because while he tells her he loves her in ep32, he also says he can't ignore his brother. Which is neither here nor there. And she wants clarity. She wants him to say I choose you l, like she chose him. Meanwhile, Cihan thinks about Alya's confession and her 'seni seviyorum.' And his next flashback features Alya telling him 'Hurry back, I'll be waiting for you.' And in that moment, it's as if Cihan is asking himself, 'Is she still waiting for me? Does she even want me anymore?' In the last episode, seeing Alya crash out and say, 'What didn't I go through in the past year?' seems to him as if she's lumping their time together in that sentence, too. She isn't, of course, but Ciho doesn't know that. So, essentially, their talk later on clears out the air for Cihan. Because Alya is super clear about what she wants. But, when she throws down the gauntlet and says, 'If you don't have the courage to stand by me, I'll take me son and leave' Cihan never gets the chance to clarify himself as they're interrupted by Deniz. Thankfully, not all is lost. Alya is still pissed at Ciho when they return, but when Cihan tells her not to return to the koltuk because neither of them have the strength to return to the past, it gives Alya hope. It's Cihan's way of saying don't try and go back to the way things were because I can't/won't do that anymore. No doubt Cihan bey will make matters even clearer to his wife soon, but for now, this was a beautifully written sequence. These two lovable idiots may take some time before they're sure of themselves, but once they commit, they don't give up ❤️✨️ #CihAl #UzakŞehir

CocoLoco

17,771 次观看 • 10 个月前

I think it’s time to talk about it 🙂‍↕️ I was delaying it because the scene messed me up in every possible way. From the moment he entered the room panting in anger, to the moment he subconsciously hid her behind his back to protect her when he heard the Kordağlıs were coming. When he entered the room like that (and he even knocked, but… since when does Serhat knock? 🌚), he scared her, because a part of her knew exactly how crazy this would make him. Because despite everything he did, despite the divorces and all the silence, she always knew he cared. And hell… he DID 😭 Serhat shouting “You can’t marry” in the same place where he once told her “It’s your life, I’m not responsible for it”??? C I N E M A! Yıldız gasping, crying, trying to catch her breath while arguing… #BiranDamlaYılmaz , you did NOT have to be this perfect 😭 When she said “Bir kere sen çıldır, yeter,” she was at her limit. There was that tiny second of silence while she was desperately gasping, and he just looked at her, helpless, not knowing how to save both of them from this mess. Y: You gave up on me. S: No, YOU gave up on me. With all disrespect… Sir??? I know he didn’t mean to hurt her, I know he was hurting too, but accusing HER of giving up, when from her POV he is the one who let go? She is the only one living in uncertainty from day one. He can’t expect her to read his mind. When she asked him to say he didn’t give up on her… imagine his position. Everything she said, he wanted to agree with. “I didn’t give up on you. I remember kissing you. I was about to divorce Melek and marry you.” He was swallowing everything, suffering in silence, because in his mind saying that would be selfish. He was still trying to avoid that red zone. NOW. THE MIRROR SCENE. First of all, why is no one talking about how he grabbed her with ONE HAND without even looking at her? He knew exactly where she was. Her surprised gasp?? His husky voice??? #ilhanşen canım abim, if you continue like this, Serhat will be the last character I watch from you because I will ascend to heaven. Have mercy on me big boy 🌚 Making them watch themselves in the mirror was WILD, Ercan hocam. If the scene was 100% intense, the mirror made it 10000%. His hand on her waist, her looking so tiny. His other hand slowly moving her hair. His face on her head next to her ear, sniffing her scent, looking… lustful, angry, desperate. The mix of desire and rage in his eyes??? EXCUSE ME??? He didn’t even touch the tattoo on her chest. He was locking her in place, making sure she couldn’t escape (as if she could). When he turned her around, he kept her trapped in his arms. He wasn’t testing her. He KNOWS she loves him. He was trying to speak without words. “This is what I feel. I messed up. But this is what I want.” But she needed words. She DESERVED words. He definitely was going for a kiss , and she pulled away. Because she is angry. Hurt. M convinced her she is a burden, and he never denied it with words. His silence confirmed everything in her mind. When he closed his eyes in that silence, realising that by trying to protect her with silence, he destroyed her AGAIN! Her cracked voice saying, “You still didn’t say you didn’t give up on me,” I wanted to hug her and cry until sunrise 😭 Then she put her strong mask back on, telling him not to enter her room like that, because she will soon be engaged💔 And btw, I’m 100% sure if it wasn’t for the Kordağlıs, he would NOT have left without kissing her. In my head, they kissed. There is no universe where Serhat left that room untouched after that tension. I tried my best to write with my sanity on! Just an advice 👀 try to catch ilhan’s panting in the beginning 🤤 they are delicious🫦 I know it turned out to be too long but the scene is quite long and full of details. I am sure I still can talking about it with another essay🤣 but I won’t don’t worry. #HalefKöklerinÇağrısı #Yılser
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I think it’s time to talk about it 🙂‍↕️ I was delaying it because the scene messed me up in every possible way. From the moment he entered the room panting in anger, to the moment he subconsciously hid her behind his back to protect her when he heard the Kordağlıs were coming. When he entered the room like that (and he even knocked, but… since when does Serhat knock? 🌚), he scared her, because a part of her knew exactly how crazy this would make him. Because despite everything he did, despite the divorces and all the silence, she always knew he cared. And hell… he DID 😭 Serhat shouting “You can’t marry” in the same place where he once told her “It’s your life, I’m not responsible for it”??? C I N E M A! Yıldız gasping, crying, trying to catch her breath while arguing… #BiranDamlaYılmaz , you did NOT have to be this perfect 😭 When she said “Bir kere sen çıldır, yeter,” she was at her limit. There was that tiny second of silence while she was desperately gasping, and he just looked at her, helpless, not knowing how to save both of them from this mess. Y: You gave up on me. S: No, YOU gave up on me. With all disrespect… Sir??? I know he didn’t mean to hurt her, I know he was hurting too, but accusing HER of giving up, when from her POV he is the one who let go? She is the only one living in uncertainty from day one. He can’t expect her to read his mind. When she asked him to say he didn’t give up on her… imagine his position. Everything she said, he wanted to agree with. “I didn’t give up on you. I remember kissing you. I was about to divorce Melek and marry you.” He was swallowing everything, suffering in silence, because in his mind saying that would be selfish. He was still trying to avoid that red zone. NOW. THE MIRROR SCENE. First of all, why is no one talking about how he grabbed her with ONE HAND without even looking at her? He knew exactly where she was. Her surprised gasp?? His husky voice??? #ilhanşen canım abim, if you continue like this, Serhat will be the last character I watch from you because I will ascend to heaven. Have mercy on me big boy 🌚 Making them watch themselves in the mirror was WILD, Ercan hocam. If the scene was 100% intense, the mirror made it 10000%. His hand on her waist, her looking so tiny. His other hand slowly moving her hair. His face on her head next to her ear, sniffing her scent, looking… lustful, angry, desperate. The mix of desire and rage in his eyes??? EXCUSE ME??? He didn’t even touch the tattoo on her chest. He was locking her in place, making sure she couldn’t escape (as if she could). When he turned her around, he kept her trapped in his arms. He wasn’t testing her. He KNOWS she loves him. He was trying to speak without words. “This is what I feel. I messed up. But this is what I want.” But she needed words. She DESERVED words. He definitely was going for a kiss , and she pulled away. Because she is angry. Hurt. M convinced her she is a burden, and he never denied it with words. His silence confirmed everything in her mind. When he closed his eyes in that silence, realising that by trying to protect her with silence, he destroyed her AGAIN! Her cracked voice saying, “You still didn’t say you didn’t give up on me,” I wanted to hug her and cry until sunrise 😭 Then she put her strong mask back on, telling him not to enter her room like that, because she will soon be engaged💔 And btw, I’m 100% sure if it wasn’t for the Kordağlıs, he would NOT have left without kissing her. In my head, they kissed. There is no universe where Serhat left that room untouched after that tension. I tried my best to write with my sanity on! Just an advice 👀 try to catch ilhan’s panting in the beginning 🤤 they are delicious🫦 I know it turned out to be too long but the scene is quite long and full of details. I am sure I still can talking about it with another essay🤣 but I won’t don’t worry. #HalefKöklerinÇağrısı #Yılser

Maurora🫦

25,206 次观看 • 6 个月前

EMBN AT Y ENTERTAIN AWARDS #YEntAwards2025xEmiBonnie 📰 About the line-up for next year 🎤: It's almost time for the new line-up announcements. 🐰: What line-up? 🦊: Line-up for what? 🎤: Maybe GMM~ 🦊🐰: Ahhhh~ 🦊: Right. 🐰: It's close. 🦊: 😆 🐰: Not close, not far. 🦊: Yeah yeah, I think it might not be that close. 🐰: Not close, not far, for me. 🎤: Usually each year it's around next month. 🐰: Yeah, it's usually around that time. 🎤: We don't know if it's going to move around this year. 🦊: Now it's September... it might not be that close. 🐰: Not close, not far. 🎤: But there's something for us to anticipate, right? 🐰: What are you anticipating? 🦊: You can wait to find out, each pair, each person is like, whoaaa. I've seen– 🐰: You can wait to see each pair, each person. Right? 🦊: Yeah, each person, each person– 🐰: Will get to join the event. 🦊: Yes, for sure, we're attending the event this year. 🎤: If you had the chance to play another role, what kind of role do you want to play? 🐰: I want to play someone cool. 🦊: Ahhh. 🐰: I want to be a cool lady. 🦊: Weren't you already cool in the previous series? 🐰: In the previous series I was more of a puppy, a young 20 year old girl. For the next one I want to be a cool cool lady. 🦊: Cool cool. 🐰: Yeah, with a crush on a pretty older sis. 🦊: Ah... the last series was also like that! 🐰: Then... then the pretty older sis has a crush on me. 🦊: Ahhh, that's a possibility. 🐰: Making the moves on me. 🦊: That's a possibility. 🐰: Bc I'm a cool person. 🦊: Ahh, okay. 🎤: You like to be flirted on. 🐰: Yeah. 🎤: Is this in real life or...? 🐰: It's the plot that I want to play. 🎤: Do you want to do it in real life or in a series? 🦊🐰: 😆 🦊: For me... 🐰: What kind of role? Or what kind of style? 🦊: In the previous series I was a bit too cold and aloof. For this one maybe I can be a bit more cheerful. More like– 🐰: Spicy? 🦊: Not as sad. 🐰: Do you want to be spicy? 🦊: Spicy? Sometimes. Spicy just like my style. 🐰: I want to see it. 🦊: I'm already spicy every day. You'll definitely get to see it. 🎤: You want other ppl to see it. 🐰: See what? 🦊: You'll definitely get to see it, bc I'm spicy every day. 🐰: Ahh, like today. Turn around. 🦊: Today... (turns and shows her back) 🎤: (screaming) 🦊: Secretly spicy. 🎤: Can you show this side too? 🦊: (turns and shows her back again) 🦊: Secretly spicy. 🐰: Looking at the front it looks modest, but when she turns her back it's another look. 🎤: That behaviour's kind of like #ANY. 🦊: In front one thing, behind another. 🎤: You didn't teach your daughter that, did you? 🐰: If it's not a slit in the front, then it's a slit in the back. One of the two. 🦊: Yeah, according to my style. We're free ppl, we can dress however we like. 🐰: Slit however you like. 🦊: Yeah. Slit in the front, slit in the back. 🐰: It's up to you. 🐰: She can be herself, I get to reap the benefits too.
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EMBN AT Y ENTERTAIN AWARDS #YEntAwards2025xEmiBonnie 📰 About the line-up for next year 🎤: It's almost time for the new line-up announcements. 🐰: What line-up? 🦊: Line-up for what? 🎤: Maybe GMM~ 🦊🐰: Ahhhh~ 🦊: Right. 🐰: It's close. 🦊: 😆 🐰: Not close, not far. 🦊: Yeah yeah, I think it might not be that close. 🐰: Not close, not far, for me. 🎤: Usually each year it's around next month. 🐰: Yeah, it's usually around that time. 🎤: We don't know if it's going to move around this year. 🦊: Now it's September... it might not be that close. 🐰: Not close, not far. 🎤: But there's something for us to anticipate, right? 🐰: What are you anticipating? 🦊: You can wait to find out, each pair, each person is like, whoaaa. I've seen– 🐰: You can wait to see each pair, each person. Right? 🦊: Yeah, each person, each person– 🐰: Will get to join the event. 🦊: Yes, for sure, we're attending the event this year. 🎤: If you had the chance to play another role, what kind of role do you want to play? 🐰: I want to play someone cool. 🦊: Ahhh. 🐰: I want to be a cool lady. 🦊: Weren't you already cool in the previous series? 🐰: In the previous series I was more of a puppy, a young 20 year old girl. For the next one I want to be a cool cool lady. 🦊: Cool cool. 🐰: Yeah, with a crush on a pretty older sis. 🦊: Ah... the last series was also like that! 🐰: Then... then the pretty older sis has a crush on me. 🦊: Ahhh, that's a possibility. 🐰: Making the moves on me. 🦊: That's a possibility. 🐰: Bc I'm a cool person. 🦊: Ahh, okay. 🎤: You like to be flirted on. 🐰: Yeah. 🎤: Is this in real life or...? 🐰: It's the plot that I want to play. 🎤: Do you want to do it in real life or in a series? 🦊🐰: 😆 🦊: For me... 🐰: What kind of role? Or what kind of style? 🦊: In the previous series I was a bit too cold and aloof. For this one maybe I can be a bit more cheerful. More like– 🐰: Spicy? 🦊: Not as sad. 🐰: Do you want to be spicy? 🦊: Spicy? Sometimes. Spicy just like my style. 🐰: I want to see it. 🦊: I'm already spicy every day. You'll definitely get to see it. 🎤: You want other ppl to see it. 🐰: See what? 🦊: You'll definitely get to see it, bc I'm spicy every day. 🐰: Ahh, like today. Turn around. 🦊: Today... (turns and shows her back) 🎤: (screaming) 🦊: Secretly spicy. 🎤: Can you show this side too? 🦊: (turns and shows her back again) 🦊: Secretly spicy. 🐰: Looking at the front it looks modest, but when she turns her back it's another look. 🎤: That behaviour's kind of like #ANY. 🦊: In front one thing, behind another. 🎤: You didn't teach your daughter that, did you? 🐰: If it's not a slit in the front, then it's a slit in the back. One of the two. 🦊: Yeah, according to my style. We're free ppl, we can dress however we like. 🐰: Slit however you like. 🦊: Yeah. Slit in the front, slit in the back. 🐰: It's up to you. 🐰: She can be herself, I get to reap the benefits too.

K-bab

37,529 次观看 • 11 个月前

Blaqbonez finally opens up on his issue with Odumodu Blvck. A Summary of the 1hr18mins interview with Rufai Oseni. How OD tried blacklisting him from int’l gigs. How OD simped, demanded nudes from Blaq. - In 2023, both rappers met and liked a girl at an event. Eventually, she & Blaq had a FWB relationship for a year, almost throughout 2024. - Mid 2024 she asked for a break up, as their relationship had no direction. Blaq initially reluctant, but agreed. Yet she kept coming back, until she moved to UK. - Then she broke up again with Blaq, saying she is now seeing someone else. But this time her text seemed like a PR Press Release. Blaq suspected, asked to know the person, she refused to spill. He never thought it would be OD, cos she always said weird stuffs about him and how he always simped, took flowers to her work place. Blaq asked her friends too, they didn’t know whom, but confirmed it wasn’t OD. In August 2024, they finally ended the cycle of their FWB. Blaq blocked her as she won’t pick his calls or answer his questions. She hit him on iMessage, he blocked her again. Coincidentally they met 2 days later at a bar. Then was calm, and finally revealed she was with OD. There and then, Blaq again finally ended their relationship cordially. Both parties were good. 3 days later, Blaq’s Videographer tells him OD booked him to shoot his Diss to Blaq. Blaq was confused. After a while, Blaq texts OD to check up on him. OD blasts him, tells him to never call him again. Then the first wave of call harrasment started. First call OD asked if Blaq had anything he wanted to say. Blaq again confused. Asked what’s exactly our issue? “I heard you are disturbing my babe.” OD said, leaving Blaq more puzzled. Then he explained that he left the girl the moment he found out they were involved, out of respect. So Blaq thought they were cool. - Call ends. OD calls back, “when last una fvck”. Blaq refused to answer, cos it was a ridiculous question and he really wanted the matter to die. OD insisted, Blaq refused. Then OD said “Since you won’t tell me, from today we are enemies.” This was around August 2024. [A whileeee later - November, 2024] “So what were you guys doing” OD said in another call. Blaq finally picks, says, FWB. Then asks, when they started dating. OD refused to talk. OD asked “how many times una fvck” is it 10-15x, 15-30x or 40 upwards. A frustrated Blaq answered with “yh 40 upwards.” Blaq explained that, their relationship ended long ago, so if they started dating anytime around then and when she finally told him about OD, then there is really no reason for the drama. 5-mins after this call, the white elephant walked into the frey. — The girl kept spamming Blaq with short 3 seconds calls, in all, she’d yell “Liarrrrrrrrr” and drop. Blaq ignored cos, he really didn’t want to get involved in their drama. November 25-26, 2024. Now OD and the girl, start spamming Blaq calls. He ignored. Then the girls friend nudged him to get on the 3-way call and settle things once. On the call, “First what is the lie I lied?” Blaq threw to the girl. She said, they were never intimate, just friends. Blaq confused had to open a dictionary to double check the term “FWB” and “Intimacy”. Well, since she really insists they were never intimate. Blaq agreed. Just to let the matter end and regain his control of his phone. Then OD asked for proof of intimacy. End of PART1. PT 2 In Thread. Follow Trending Explained
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Blaqbonez finally opens up on his issue with Odumodu Blvck. A Summary of the 1hr18mins interview with Rufai Oseni. How OD tried blacklisting him from int’l gigs. How OD simped, demanded nudes from Blaq. - In 2023, both rappers met and liked a girl at an event. Eventually, she & Blaq had a FWB relationship for a year, almost throughout 2024. - Mid 2024 she asked for a break up, as their relationship had no direction. Blaq initially reluctant, but agreed. Yet she kept coming back, until she moved to UK. - Then she broke up again with Blaq, saying she is now seeing someone else. But this time her text seemed like a PR Press Release. Blaq suspected, asked to know the person, she refused to spill. He never thought it would be OD, cos she always said weird stuffs about him and how he always simped, took flowers to her work place. Blaq asked her friends too, they didn’t know whom, but confirmed it wasn’t OD. In August 2024, they finally ended the cycle of their FWB. Blaq blocked her as she won’t pick his calls or answer his questions. She hit him on iMessage, he blocked her again. Coincidentally they met 2 days later at a bar. Then was calm, and finally revealed she was with OD. There and then, Blaq again finally ended their relationship cordially. Both parties were good. 3 days later, Blaq’s Videographer tells him OD booked him to shoot his Diss to Blaq. Blaq was confused. After a while, Blaq texts OD to check up on him. OD blasts him, tells him to never call him again. Then the first wave of call harrasment started. First call OD asked if Blaq had anything he wanted to say. Blaq again confused. Asked what’s exactly our issue? “I heard you are disturbing my babe.” OD said, leaving Blaq more puzzled. Then he explained that he left the girl the moment he found out they were involved, out of respect. So Blaq thought they were cool. - Call ends. OD calls back, “when last una fvck”. Blaq refused to answer, cos it was a ridiculous question and he really wanted the matter to die. OD insisted, Blaq refused. Then OD said “Since you won’t tell me, from today we are enemies.” This was around August 2024. [A whileeee later - November, 2024] “So what were you guys doing” OD said in another call. Blaq finally picks, says, FWB. Then asks, when they started dating. OD refused to talk. OD asked “how many times una fvck” is it 10-15x, 15-30x or 40 upwards. A frustrated Blaq answered with “yh 40 upwards.” Blaq explained that, their relationship ended long ago, so if they started dating anytime around then and when she finally told him about OD, then there is really no reason for the drama. 5-mins after this call, the white elephant walked into the frey. — The girl kept spamming Blaq with short 3 seconds calls, in all, she’d yell “Liarrrrrrrrr” and drop. Blaq ignored cos, he really didn’t want to get involved in their drama. November 25-26, 2024. Now OD and the girl, start spamming Blaq calls. He ignored. Then the girls friend nudged him to get on the 3-way call and settle things once. On the call, “First what is the lie I lied?” Blaq threw to the girl. She said, they were never intimate, just friends. Blaq confused had to open a dictionary to double check the term “FWB” and “Intimacy”. Well, since she really insists they were never intimate. Blaq agreed. Just to let the matter end and regain his control of his phone. Then OD asked for proof of intimacy. End of PART1. PT 2 In Thread. Follow Trending Explained

Trending Explained

522,643 次观看 • 2 天前

We got sabotaged tonight in Queen’s Cup and I’ll be damned if it goes without being known. Over the years of me being in women’s comp any tweet I have made has ALWAYS been in support of the scene, but after the absolute lack of professionalism I was given today it’s time to air it out. Someone reported my teammate Nicky to be “cheating” and I will go ahead and attach the clip that was sent in to be proof. Spectator bug does not allow for you to see health bars and if you watch the clip from Ky’s vod you clearly see the health bar and me communicating and pinging where my teammates needed to be looking. Nicky looking where my ping was is what made ppl think she was cheating and instead of watching our vod went on a witch hunt. The kicker is that we weren’t contacted about it by staff at all, although a staff member from Women’s circuit spectated us on Thursday and then took it upon themself to go around to other players not in staff and voice that Nicky was 100% cheating. No bans, no proof. Just this clip. So, why didn’t they ask for Nicky to stream on Thursday if they were already spectating & thought she was cheating with the evidence that was sent in from earlier this week? Wish I knew. Instead, they waited until 2 minutes before the game started. They messaged Nicky 20 minutes before the game started but like any team we were 3v3ing/warming up prior. So 2 minutes before I get a DM telling me to have Nicky to check her DMs because they want to spectate her on the day of MP FINALS when they had all week to bring up their concerns about it. Not only that, but they send in a staff member who I personally do not get along with or feel comfortable with. We basically got sabotaged and no one on GrindSquad or Women’s Circuit wants to own up to who is at fault. Just wanted everyone else to know that we got ultimately fucked over today and this whole situation was handled poorly and I will probably never play in another women’s comp event ever again. You ALL should be ashamed of yourselves. All I will get is an apology, but the competitive integrity of this entire tournament is fucked. Congrats to all who got to play their game today without interference and was able to play it to the best of their ability.
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We got sabotaged tonight in Queen’s Cup and I’ll be damned if it goes without being known. Over the years of me being in women’s comp any tweet I have made has ALWAYS been in support of the scene, but after the absolute lack of professionalism I was given today it’s time to air it out. Someone reported my teammate Nicky to be “cheating” and I will go ahead and attach the clip that was sent in to be proof. Spectator bug does not allow for you to see health bars and if you watch the clip from Ky’s vod you clearly see the health bar and me communicating and pinging where my teammates needed to be looking. Nicky looking where my ping was is what made ppl think she was cheating and instead of watching our vod went on a witch hunt. The kicker is that we weren’t contacted about it by staff at all, although a staff member from Women’s circuit spectated us on Thursday and then took it upon themself to go around to other players not in staff and voice that Nicky was 100% cheating. No bans, no proof. Just this clip. So, why didn’t they ask for Nicky to stream on Thursday if they were already spectating & thought she was cheating with the evidence that was sent in from earlier this week? Wish I knew. Instead, they waited until 2 minutes before the game started. They messaged Nicky 20 minutes before the game started but like any team we were 3v3ing/warming up prior. So 2 minutes before I get a DM telling me to have Nicky to check her DMs because they want to spectate her on the day of MP FINALS when they had all week to bring up their concerns about it. Not only that, but they send in a staff member who I personally do not get along with or feel comfortable with. We basically got sabotaged and no one on GrindSquad or Women’s Circuit wants to own up to who is at fault. Just wanted everyone else to know that we got ultimately fucked over today and this whole situation was handled poorly and I will probably never play in another women’s comp event ever again. You ALL should be ashamed of yourselves. All I will get is an apology, but the competitive integrity of this entire tournament is fucked. Congrats to all who got to play their game today without interference and was able to play it to the best of their ability.

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52,755 次观看 • 2 个月前

A teeny tiny notice before I proceed with my analysis. If you have a problem with either Cihan or Alya, don't bother reading. Because I don't take sides. I don't watch or think or write through the lens of Alya vs Cihan. Both characters are dear to me. And, if that's the way you roll, by all means, proceed. Analyzing Episode 36. Season 2 aka Of Strengths, Weaknesses, and The Last Nail in the Coffin Evvveeettt. Another episode, another meltdown. Just another day in the CihAl fandom. Ngl, it took me two days to even think about writing my regular analysis post, because the negativity was more potent than usual. Or maybe my resistance is waning, who knows? But that's not what we're gonna focus on today. This day, we analyze the words and actions of the heart and soul of Uzak Sehir, aka Alya and Cihan Albora. But we'll do so within the framework of strengths and weaknesses, because to me, that's what really comes to the fore in ep36. Alya Albora Alya Albora was especially heartbreaking this episode. And coming from someone who gets their heartbroken regularly because of Alya, that's saying something. The episode starts with the zombie-man opening his eyes (I think this PoS is just lying there pretending to be a vegetable, but that's for another time). And the look Alya has on her face when she looks at Cihan is indescribable. Almost as if everything inside her is pleading, 'Please don't regress back to where we just came from.' Because she fears, even as she tries to check on the zombie, that the closer Frankenboran gets to waking up, the further Cihan will drift from her. And, to an extent, her fears are proven right when Sadakat brings up divorce again. See, Alya doesn't come from strong family roots. She believes her biological mother abandoned her for most of her adult life. Then she has Caroline, who tries to fill all the empty spaces abandonment leaves in little Alya, but doesn't manage to succeed too much. As I've said before, Alya's primary fears stem from being abandoned and being a burden. That's what she tries to protect herself from. Those walls around her heart are in place to keep her from suffering that same pain again. That's both her strength and her weakness. While the fear pushes Alya to love harder, to push past difficulties, to rise from the ashes over and over, it also makes her more aloof. She doesn't find it as difficult as Cihan to leave behind 'family' ties because she's never experienced just how forceful those bonds can be. When it falls to her to choose between her love for Cihan and whatever she had with Boran, she picks the former without much guilt. But there's another factor that helps keep her from feeling much remorse for Boran, and that's the way her former husband treats her. Before Alya finds out about the will, her anger at Cihan is at an all-time high, and there's no question of any relationship developing between the two. After the will, however, that's a different story. So, when it falls to her to choose, she can do so easily, with her conscience at rest. And we see that so clearly in the way she announces she won't return to Boran even when he wakes up. Now, let's focus on the tricky bit. The weaknesses. Because Alya fears being a burden, being imposed on someone, adding to their strain, anything other than clarity can't help but raise doubts. When Cihan doesn't answer her question of 'Where will you stand?' with a clear with you or with you, distrust raises its ugly head. She starts asking herself if their relationship is what Cihan really wants now that Boran is back in the picture. She starts wondering whether Cihan will be able to shoulder the burden their relationship will add to his already weighed-down shoulders. It's harrowing to watch her be drawn to Cihan one instant, and pull back the next. Not because she doesn't love him, but because she can't bear to be another weight on Cihan's existence. That's what we see when she's shivering with fever. She wants him close, but she also doesn't want him to suffer. She keeps asking Cihan to leave, but he refuses to budge. And, that cures and hurts at the same time. For some reason, when she says, 'I'm also trying to find a way,' I couldn't help but feel that a part of her is already reverting back to the old Alya. The longer Cihan refrains from giving Alya a clear answer, the more her doubts grow. The more their 'impossibility' takes over her love. The closer she grows to wanting to leave. This time, if she attempts to leave, it won't be because her feelings overwhelm her. It'll be because she can't bear to see Cihan hurt anymore. Cihan Albora Oh boy. I can already hear the jeers of 'coward' and 'gavat' (which, by the way, I find to be a really ugly word) ringing in my ears. Well, fcuk that. Let's get back to our analysis. I talked about how Cihan seems to be stuck between suppression and surrender when it comes to his guilt. And, I did think that almost losing Alya would break that spell. But, clearly, that's not the road that Gulizar wants to take. Perhaps she does want it to come down to conflict. I'm not sure yet. What I am sure of is that Cihan is already aware of what he wants. And it's not wanting to be BFFs with Boran at the expense of Alya, guilt be damned. You can see it in the way his answers get bolder every time Sadakat asks him about a divorce. This episode is the first time Cihan states outright that the burden of 'conscience' isn't his to bear because he merely did what Boran asked of him. In other words, he didn't plan on falling in love with Alya, but it happened, and if there's any blame in that, it's not on him or Alya. Here's what irks most people. He doesn't ever talk about what he wants. It's always 'What if Boran wants this' or 'What if Boran wants that.' In other words, it's a form of misdirection on his part. He knows what's in his heart, but he doesn't want to say it out loud. Another scene where you can clearly see what his choice will be is when he's taking care of Alya during her fever. The more Alya insists that he leave, the more he digs in his heels. Until finally, he says, 'I won't allow anyone to hurt you, I won't allow anyone to harm you, and that's how it will be until I draw my last breath.' People don't say things like. 'That's how it'll be as long as I live,' if they're not sure about what they want. This is Cihan's strength. His love, protective instincts, and his code of sticking up for the people he loves. Unfortunately, like Alya, that's also his weakness. Cihan's been trained to fight for his family and his people to his very last. And, that's one HUGE reason why he can't verbalize what's already screaming inside his mind and his heart. We know he can't live without Alya, he says as much in the last episode. He keeps buying time because he knows once he states those words - there's no turning back. And he knows exactly how ugly things could go because dealing with ugly has been his entire existence. People won't be kind to him or Alya in the place where they live (think back to how Demir sends his goons to insult Alya's mom). And besides all that, what if Boran doesn't want to let go? That's when shit will truly hit the fan, because once Cihan says he's with Alya, he'll be fighting his brother, standing up to his mother, breaking his family apart, endangering Albora with internal strife, and worst of all, risking Alya and Deniz's safety. And remember, unlike Alya, who can control her conscience because of an extenuating factor, Cihan has no such relief. So, what you see is a man trying to survive an impending hurricane in a straw hut. He knows when that storm hits, and it will, things will go to hell. Besides all that, there is his stupid conscience that just won't shut the hell up because of that code of his. To me, that's not cowardice. That's a man standing at the edge of a life-changing truth, and being undone by the gravity of it. It's almost as if his soul is negotiating with reality, hoping to avoid collateral damage, while grieving for the version of himself he knows won't survive after he states his truth. As we can see in the scene where he and Alya are saying goodbye, they're already a family. His heart has already made the choice, so much so that in that scene, even Sadakat and Nare see the invisible bonds tying Cihan to Alya and vice versa. It's not a question of if, merely when. The Last Nail in the Coffin The question on everyone's mind is, what will it be? The last nail in the coffin of Cihan and Boran's brotherhood. The point of no return. To me, the way things are shaping up, there will be a clash. Will the showdown happen when Boran wakes up, or will Cihan learn the truth about his brother and finally be set free? I don't know. I've always had the inkling that Boran isn't what he claims to be. I guess we'll find out soon. But until then, I'll be watching. Gladly. For both my babies. Till next time, happy reading, y'all. #CihAl #UzakŞehir
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A teeny tiny notice before I proceed with my analysis. If you have a problem with either Cihan or Alya, don't bother reading. Because I don't take sides. I don't watch or think or write through the lens of Alya vs Cihan. Both characters are dear to me. And, if that's the way you roll, by all means, proceed. Analyzing Episode 36. Season 2 aka Of Strengths, Weaknesses, and The Last Nail in the Coffin Evvveeettt. Another episode, another meltdown. Just another day in the CihAl fandom. Ngl, it took me two days to even think about writing my regular analysis post, because the negativity was more potent than usual. Or maybe my resistance is waning, who knows? But that's not what we're gonna focus on today. This day, we analyze the words and actions of the heart and soul of Uzak Sehir, aka Alya and Cihan Albora. But we'll do so within the framework of strengths and weaknesses, because to me, that's what really comes to the fore in ep36. Alya Albora Alya Albora was especially heartbreaking this episode. And coming from someone who gets their heartbroken regularly because of Alya, that's saying something. The episode starts with the zombie-man opening his eyes (I think this PoS is just lying there pretending to be a vegetable, but that's for another time). And the look Alya has on her face when she looks at Cihan is indescribable. Almost as if everything inside her is pleading, 'Please don't regress back to where we just came from.' Because she fears, even as she tries to check on the zombie, that the closer Frankenboran gets to waking up, the further Cihan will drift from her. And, to an extent, her fears are proven right when Sadakat brings up divorce again. See, Alya doesn't come from strong family roots. She believes her biological mother abandoned her for most of her adult life. Then she has Caroline, who tries to fill all the empty spaces abandonment leaves in little Alya, but doesn't manage to succeed too much. As I've said before, Alya's primary fears stem from being abandoned and being a burden. That's what she tries to protect herself from. Those walls around her heart are in place to keep her from suffering that same pain again. That's both her strength and her weakness. While the fear pushes Alya to love harder, to push past difficulties, to rise from the ashes over and over, it also makes her more aloof. She doesn't find it as difficult as Cihan to leave behind 'family' ties because she's never experienced just how forceful those bonds can be. When it falls to her to choose between her love for Cihan and whatever she had with Boran, she picks the former without much guilt. But there's another factor that helps keep her from feeling much remorse for Boran, and that's the way her former husband treats her. Before Alya finds out about the will, her anger at Cihan is at an all-time high, and there's no question of any relationship developing between the two. After the will, however, that's a different story. So, when it falls to her to choose, she can do so easily, with her conscience at rest. And we see that so clearly in the way she announces she won't return to Boran even when he wakes up. Now, let's focus on the tricky bit. The weaknesses. Because Alya fears being a burden, being imposed on someone, adding to their strain, anything other than clarity can't help but raise doubts. When Cihan doesn't answer her question of 'Where will you stand?' with a clear with you or with you, distrust raises its ugly head. She starts asking herself if their relationship is what Cihan really wants now that Boran is back in the picture. She starts wondering whether Cihan will be able to shoulder the burden their relationship will add to his already weighed-down shoulders. It's harrowing to watch her be drawn to Cihan one instant, and pull back the next. Not because she doesn't love him, but because she can't bear to be another weight on Cihan's existence. That's what we see when she's shivering with fever. She wants him close, but she also doesn't want him to suffer. She keeps asking Cihan to leave, but he refuses to budge. And, that cures and hurts at the same time. For some reason, when she says, 'I'm also trying to find a way,' I couldn't help but feel that a part of her is already reverting back to the old Alya. The longer Cihan refrains from giving Alya a clear answer, the more her doubts grow. The more their 'impossibility' takes over her love. The closer she grows to wanting to leave. This time, if she attempts to leave, it won't be because her feelings overwhelm her. It'll be because she can't bear to see Cihan hurt anymore. Cihan Albora Oh boy. I can already hear the jeers of 'coward' and 'gavat' (which, by the way, I find to be a really ugly word) ringing in my ears. Well, fcuk that. Let's get back to our analysis. I talked about how Cihan seems to be stuck between suppression and surrender when it comes to his guilt. And, I did think that almost losing Alya would break that spell. But, clearly, that's not the road that Gulizar wants to take. Perhaps she does want it to come down to conflict. I'm not sure yet. What I am sure of is that Cihan is already aware of what he wants. And it's not wanting to be BFFs with Boran at the expense of Alya, guilt be damned. You can see it in the way his answers get bolder every time Sadakat asks him about a divorce. This episode is the first time Cihan states outright that the burden of 'conscience' isn't his to bear because he merely did what Boran asked of him. In other words, he didn't plan on falling in love with Alya, but it happened, and if there's any blame in that, it's not on him or Alya. Here's what irks most people. He doesn't ever talk about what he wants. It's always 'What if Boran wants this' or 'What if Boran wants that.' In other words, it's a form of misdirection on his part. He knows what's in his heart, but he doesn't want to say it out loud. Another scene where you can clearly see what his choice will be is when he's taking care of Alya during her fever. The more Alya insists that he leave, the more he digs in his heels. Until finally, he says, 'I won't allow anyone to hurt you, I won't allow anyone to harm you, and that's how it will be until I draw my last breath.' People don't say things like. 'That's how it'll be as long as I live,' if they're not sure about what they want. This is Cihan's strength. His love, protective instincts, and his code of sticking up for the people he loves. Unfortunately, like Alya, that's also his weakness. Cihan's been trained to fight for his family and his people to his very last. And, that's one HUGE reason why he can't verbalize what's already screaming inside his mind and his heart. We know he can't live without Alya, he says as much in the last episode. He keeps buying time because he knows once he states those words - there's no turning back. And he knows exactly how ugly things could go because dealing with ugly has been his entire existence. People won't be kind to him or Alya in the place where they live (think back to how Demir sends his goons to insult Alya's mom). And besides all that, what if Boran doesn't want to let go? That's when shit will truly hit the fan, because once Cihan says he's with Alya, he'll be fighting his brother, standing up to his mother, breaking his family apart, endangering Albora with internal strife, and worst of all, risking Alya and Deniz's safety. And remember, unlike Alya, who can control her conscience because of an extenuating factor, Cihan has no such relief. So, what you see is a man trying to survive an impending hurricane in a straw hut. He knows when that storm hits, and it will, things will go to hell. Besides all that, there is his stupid conscience that just won't shut the hell up because of that code of his. To me, that's not cowardice. That's a man standing at the edge of a life-changing truth, and being undone by the gravity of it. It's almost as if his soul is negotiating with reality, hoping to avoid collateral damage, while grieving for the version of himself he knows won't survive after he states his truth. As we can see in the scene where he and Alya are saying goodbye, they're already a family. His heart has already made the choice, so much so that in that scene, even Sadakat and Nare see the invisible bonds tying Cihan to Alya and vice versa. It's not a question of if, merely when. The Last Nail in the Coffin The question on everyone's mind is, what will it be? The last nail in the coffin of Cihan and Boran's brotherhood. The point of no return. To me, the way things are shaping up, there will be a clash. Will the showdown happen when Boran wakes up, or will Cihan learn the truth about his brother and finally be set free? I don't know. I've always had the inkling that Boran isn't what he claims to be. I guess we'll find out soon. But until then, I'll be watching. Gladly. For both my babies. Till next time, happy reading, y'all. #CihAl #UzakŞehir

CocoLoco

51,143 次观看 • 9 个月前

Shared by Mommy. "Here is Vida's story. I took my precious Vida to her 4 months well check and she received Haemophilus influenzae type b (Hib), Polio (IPV), Pneumococcal (PCV13), Rotavirus (RV), Diphtheria, tetanus, whooping cough (DTaP). That is 7 shots ☹. Never did I question what they are for. Are they all neccessary at such a young age (only 17lbs) or even all at once? What are the side effects? What should I Look for if she has a reaction? Instead I just held my baby down while all kinds of chemicals, aluminum, mercury, Monkey cells(Yes monkey cells) the list goes on...were injected in my baby girls body. Now I am left thinking how I Wish I Knew Better. Would a Dr. prescribe you 7 medications at once to take with out a chance of haveing a reaction nor Not give you a paper of instructions and side effects of each medication. Why are these rules not applied here for each injection they give your child👶?? The Dr stated she was in great health and in 90% percentile. I asked the Dr for Motrin to give my baby before I left to help with her pain and any fever that she might get. Not even 2hours later the screams and crying started and no matter what i did, nothing would sooth her. I was almost in tears because she was a good baby. 2 days later she had her 1st poopy diaper since her shots. She was with the siter and noticed her stool was black. She thought this is odd but surely i must know about it already but I didn't. I found her pretty serious after that more than normal but didnt think much about her fussiness after the days went by because when I asked my dr about it she told me it could be colic. Of course I Googled and thought ok that makes sense. 4 days after her shots she had a black poopy Pamper again. The color didnt alarm me(because when she was born it was black and gooey too and the nurse told me that was normal and had been already give her 1st 2 sets of vaccines)but the Smell did! Why does it smell like mothballs. ( If you never smelled one it is a strong awful chemical smell) I googled and of course different pages say different thing. One site had several parents complaining about the smell so I thought to myself in relief "Ok this is normal it happens to other people/ children" I never thought it would be the last diaper I change. She went to bed Friday night 7 days after vaccinations after a early morning feeding 4am and that would be the last time my daughter would be alive. 2 hours later I found my Babygirl lifeless. Screaming and yelling Jesse comes running out the shower with a scared face yelling "what happened" "what happened" I will always remember that look on his face😭 as I paced back forth with my dead baby screaming and crying hysterically. He took her from my arms and started CPR until the ambulance got there. They rushed her into the ambulance and were tacking to Methodist hospital. The Doctors rushed her to the ER were the began to try to bring her back. I knew she was dead and I dropped to my knees and begged🙏🙏 God Please dont do this to Me!! Please Dont take her from us!! Please Please bring her back because you can do anything. Please listen to me! I started to pray. I begged the Dr please dont give up. please! This was the worse day of my life and I am sharing it with you so that you will never have to feel this pain 💔. The Rotavirus vaccine has a side effect called intussusception. One of the side effects symptoms is black jelly stool. If only I knew better I would of taken my babygirl to the hospital the 1st time her stool changed and she would still be alive today. DEATH CERTIFICATE states cause of death is from Natural Causes. According to the CDC it only happens in 1 of 100, 000 babies. BS!! I am sure that is just the # that gets reported. (no real studies have been done) We are getting ready to battle for justice for Vida. The Vaccine lawyer said to me "I hope you aren't doing this for money because the MAX payout is $250,000."
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Shared by Mommy. "Here is Vida's story. I took my precious Vida to her 4 months well check and she received Haemophilus influenzae type b (Hib), Polio (IPV), Pneumococcal (PCV13), Rotavirus (RV), Diphtheria, tetanus, whooping cough (DTaP). That is 7 shots ☹. Never did I question what they are for. Are they all neccessary at such a young age (only 17lbs) or even all at once? What are the side effects? What should I Look for if she has a reaction? Instead I just held my baby down while all kinds of chemicals, aluminum, mercury, Monkey cells(Yes monkey cells) the list goes on...were injected in my baby girls body. Now I am left thinking how I Wish I Knew Better. Would a Dr. prescribe you 7 medications at once to take with out a chance of haveing a reaction nor Not give you a paper of instructions and side effects of each medication. Why are these rules not applied here for each injection they give your child👶?? The Dr stated she was in great health and in 90% percentile. I asked the Dr for Motrin to give my baby before I left to help with her pain and any fever that she might get. Not even 2hours later the screams and crying started and no matter what i did, nothing would sooth her. I was almost in tears because she was a good baby. 2 days later she had her 1st poopy diaper since her shots. She was with the siter and noticed her stool was black. She thought this is odd but surely i must know about it already but I didn't. I found her pretty serious after that more than normal but didnt think much about her fussiness after the days went by because when I asked my dr about it she told me it could be colic. Of course I Googled and thought ok that makes sense. 4 days after her shots she had a black poopy Pamper again. The color didnt alarm me(because when she was born it was black and gooey too and the nurse told me that was normal and had been already give her 1st 2 sets of vaccines)but the Smell did! Why does it smell like mothballs. ( If you never smelled one it is a strong awful chemical smell) I googled and of course different pages say different thing. One site had several parents complaining about the smell so I thought to myself in relief "Ok this is normal it happens to other people/ children" I never thought it would be the last diaper I change. She went to bed Friday night 7 days after vaccinations after a early morning feeding 4am and that would be the last time my daughter would be alive. 2 hours later I found my Babygirl lifeless. Screaming and yelling Jesse comes running out the shower with a scared face yelling "what happened" "what happened" I will always remember that look on his face😭 as I paced back forth with my dead baby screaming and crying hysterically. He took her from my arms and started CPR until the ambulance got there. They rushed her into the ambulance and were tacking to Methodist hospital. The Doctors rushed her to the ER were the began to try to bring her back. I knew she was dead and I dropped to my knees and begged🙏🙏 God Please dont do this to Me!! Please Dont take her from us!! Please Please bring her back because you can do anything. Please listen to me! I started to pray. I begged the Dr please dont give up. please! This was the worse day of my life and I am sharing it with you so that you will never have to feel this pain 💔. The Rotavirus vaccine has a side effect called intussusception. One of the side effects symptoms is black jelly stool. If only I knew better I would of taken my babygirl to the hospital the 1st time her stool changed and she would still be alive today. DEATH CERTIFICATE states cause of death is from Natural Causes. According to the CDC it only happens in 1 of 100, 000 babies. BS!! I am sure that is just the # that gets reported. (no real studies have been done) We are getting ready to battle for justice for Vida. The Vaccine lawyer said to me "I hope you aren't doing this for money because the MAX payout is $250,000."

Jessica Rojas 🇺🇸💪

33,984 次观看 • 1 年前

SN1 EP2: VICTIMIZATION I don't delete stuff online usually. Folks who have dug up my old content, have a clue of the much love I had for my little thriving family. One would wonder 'what went wrong?'. The plot twist was started by toxic friends and family members of my baby mama who took center stage in our family. They ill advised her to become the man in the house. Her daily routine gravitated around demeaning sneers, verbal artillery, toxic attitudes, victimization and all the disrespectful deeds. These behaviours were witnessed by a few of my close friends in broad day light. I didnt just record her on that last day out of the blue. I had recorded her a couple of times majorly to defend myself to my inner circles because everytime she started up a fuss, she would later blackmail me to my friends. I shared these videos a couple of times with them and confided in them about my family issues. The number of times she held out a knife and other objects for me is not below 10, but in her TV interviews, she claims that was the only time. I lost most of the recorded content, but my closer friends knew of her toxicity. I held on to the relationship because of my exuberant love for my son, I never wanted to watch him slip away from me. After a scuffle that last day, which almost got my eye out narrowly, she went ahead to unleash the verbal artillery, a skill she had perfected. She said ill things about my son, and that's when I decided to let her go with my son against my wish. Her move to go to the village that Christmas was baseless and I had suspected infidelity prior. She came back after two weeks in the middle of the night without my son. I couldn't admit her in because I feared she could have ill plans against me that night. I had packed her things previously, so I put them at the balcony in the next morning for the sake of sanity and my own mental wellness. These scenes have been traumatizing to me since. I had healed and moved on from those despicable scenes, but as for now, I'm getting fresh relapses. All I have wanted is access to my son and integral decision making opportunity in his life. Family and friends of my baby mama rule and I have no say when they take a particular path in my son's affairs. Whenever I ask to have the boy, the mother sparks off. My sources prove, she doesn't see the boy eye to either in many weeks because she is always "in field" trips. When she gets to the boy, harsh texts and calls buzz my phone asking for this and that. My boy has always been turned into a skit actor of extortion whenever the mother wants money for her own endeavors. I have had free offers from my family circles getting the boy a decent school, but the mother has turned that down claiming I want to 'kidnap' the boy and cut ties with her. The world always listens to a woman, and I respect that. But I wish my son to be under my custody as his father. I deserve an equal position on the table of decision making. Using the boy as a meal card is the reason I am a deadbeat father. Using my son as super glue to get us back, and to no avail, is the reason I am a deadbeat father. Using my boy as a tool to one sided legal advisors is the reason I am a deadbeat father. I seek redress on the surface of this universe, and if I can't get it, I will rather try mars than accept an injustice in exchange for my son's plight. Some of what I type on here, is evidenced in the clip below. I have no doubts about being the father of that boy, even when the mother claims otherwise. Victimization has been her upper hand, but I will not submit to it this time. I thank you all.
1:26

SN1 EP2: VICTIMIZATION I don't delete stuff online usually. Folks who have dug up my old content, have a clue of the much love I had for my little thriving family. One would wonder 'what went wrong?'. The plot twist was started by toxic friends and family members of my baby mama who took center stage in our family. They ill advised her to become the man in the house. Her daily routine gravitated around demeaning sneers, verbal artillery, toxic attitudes, victimization and all the disrespectful deeds. These behaviours were witnessed by a few of my close friends in broad day light. I didnt just record her on that last day out of the blue. I had recorded her a couple of times majorly to defend myself to my inner circles because everytime she started up a fuss, she would later blackmail me to my friends. I shared these videos a couple of times with them and confided in them about my family issues. The number of times she held out a knife and other objects for me is not below 10, but in her TV interviews, she claims that was the only time. I lost most of the recorded content, but my closer friends knew of her toxicity. I held on to the relationship because of my exuberant love for my son, I never wanted to watch him slip away from me. After a scuffle that last day, which almost got my eye out narrowly, she went ahead to unleash the verbal artillery, a skill she had perfected. She said ill things about my son, and that's when I decided to let her go with my son against my wish. Her move to go to the village that Christmas was baseless and I had suspected infidelity prior. She came back after two weeks in the middle of the night without my son. I couldn't admit her in because I feared she could have ill plans against me that night. I had packed her things previously, so I put them at the balcony in the next morning for the sake of sanity and my own mental wellness. These scenes have been traumatizing to me since. I had healed and moved on from those despicable scenes, but as for now, I'm getting fresh relapses. All I have wanted is access to my son and integral decision making opportunity in his life. Family and friends of my baby mama rule and I have no say when they take a particular path in my son's affairs. Whenever I ask to have the boy, the mother sparks off. My sources prove, she doesn't see the boy eye to either in many weeks because she is always "in field" trips. When she gets to the boy, harsh texts and calls buzz my phone asking for this and that. My boy has always been turned into a skit actor of extortion whenever the mother wants money for her own endeavors. I have had free offers from my family circles getting the boy a decent school, but the mother has turned that down claiming I want to 'kidnap' the boy and cut ties with her. The world always listens to a woman, and I respect that. But I wish my son to be under my custody as his father. I deserve an equal position on the table of decision making. Using the boy as a meal card is the reason I am a deadbeat father. Using my son as super glue to get us back, and to no avail, is the reason I am a deadbeat father. Using my boy as a tool to one sided legal advisors is the reason I am a deadbeat father. I seek redress on the surface of this universe, and if I can't get it, I will rather try mars than accept an injustice in exchange for my son's plight. Some of what I type on here, is evidenced in the clip below. I have no doubts about being the father of that boy, even when the mother claims otherwise. Victimization has been her upper hand, but I will not submit to it this time. I thank you all.

MrHashtag🇺🇬 𝕏

141,231 次观看 • 1 年前

Let's break down what happens in this clip donated to us by saintontas First, you call me Cap's favorite chatter. This is impossible, I've been gone from her community for over a year up until you started flinging shit at people, I had not spoken to her until the drama started. Second, you Ad Hominem attack me SEVEN times in 60 seconds, that's almost a record. Not a good look for the self-proclaimed "voice of reason". Third, you don't address even a singular one of the points I have made over the last couple weeks, nearly every single one of which has ratio'd you even in your own comments and has dozens of people agreeing with me that you're incorrect or disingenuous in your points. And as for your ad hominems: - Full Time Employed. - Numerous award-winning hobbies. - You call my existence pathetic but I dont remember crashing out on stream on valentines day about other people having fun and making content. - I also don't remember insinuating that people were cheating on their SO's on valentines day because they did a podcast, that's pretty pathetic. - Unlike you I don't have to lie and spread misinformation to keep my community sated, and I dont have to beg my community to clip farm like you do, nor do I have to constantly think about my friends values in numbers like you do, all signs of someone with little man syndrome. - Unlike you I don't hide behind larger creators and go running to daddy when I run out of lies to tell. I have talked my shit to you myself from day one and we both know that a year ago you were STILL too much of a bitch to talk to me yourself (screenshot included). You can enjoy spinning my tweets to your community however you want and attacking me however you want, but the fact that you had to spend over a minute finding as many things to ad hominem at me with as you could tells me that I live rent free in your head, and I relish in the fact that you will never be as big of a man as you think you are. So put your booster seat back on your chair, fix that hat that's too big for your head, and until you grow the balls to actually address me, I'm going to enjoy every moment of you talking yourself in circles.
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Let's break down what happens in this clip donated to us by saintontas First, you call me Cap's favorite chatter. This is impossible, I've been gone from her community for over a year up until you started flinging shit at people, I had not spoken to her until the drama started. Second, you Ad Hominem attack me SEVEN times in 60 seconds, that's almost a record. Not a good look for the self-proclaimed "voice of reason". Third, you don't address even a singular one of the points I have made over the last couple weeks, nearly every single one of which has ratio'd you even in your own comments and has dozens of people agreeing with me that you're incorrect or disingenuous in your points. And as for your ad hominems: - Full Time Employed. - Numerous award-winning hobbies. - You call my existence pathetic but I dont remember crashing out on stream on valentines day about other people having fun and making content. - I also don't remember insinuating that people were cheating on their SO's on valentines day because they did a podcast, that's pretty pathetic. - Unlike you I don't have to lie and spread misinformation to keep my community sated, and I dont have to beg my community to clip farm like you do, nor do I have to constantly think about my friends values in numbers like you do, all signs of someone with little man syndrome. - Unlike you I don't hide behind larger creators and go running to daddy when I run out of lies to tell. I have talked my shit to you myself from day one and we both know that a year ago you were STILL too much of a bitch to talk to me yourself (screenshot included). You can enjoy spinning my tweets to your community however you want and attacking me however you want, but the fact that you had to spend over a minute finding as many things to ad hominem at me with as you could tells me that I live rent free in your head, and I relish in the fact that you will never be as big of a man as you think you are. So put your booster seat back on your chair, fix that hat that's too big for your head, and until you grow the balls to actually address me, I'm going to enjoy every moment of you talking yourself in circles.

Maple

36,515 次观看 • 6 个月前

Analyzing Episode 35. Season 2 aka Turning the Tables Alrighty, let's do this. Episode 35 was one of the strongest episodes of season 2, I think, because we get to see Ciho and Alya kind of switch places, for once. In s1, Alya would mostly pick flight when her feelings got overwhelming. Whereas Ciho, with his Ağa mindset, would inevitably choose to fight. But, unlike in s1, the circumstances are unique. We see the tables turn because Alya probably hasn't loved anyone before like she loves Cihan, and Cihan hasn't ever come across a test as heavy as the half-alive Boran. So, essentially, they're both out of their comfort zones. Let's discuss Alya first. My love for this character just keeps growing. I've yet to see someone be as principled and willing to break the rules, as strong and soft at the same time, as Alya Albora. The woman is a marvel. We must protect her at all costs (Get in line, Ciho). As the episode begins, Alya walks off to their room and proceeds to lock herself in Cihan's study after informing everyone about Cihan's not-so-tiny health problem. I think being the smart cookie she is, she realizes early on that Cihan will be his stubborn self about the surgery business, which is why something of a plan is already forming in her head. When Cihan shows up to talk, Alya doesn't back down from telling him she knows exactly why he's walking to almost certain death. Still, she only brings out the big guns after pleading with him to review his decision doesn't work. Her goal isn't to hurt him. It's to save him. To shock him enough to wake from the limbo Cihan has isolated himself in. When her words fail to achieve their target, she acts. I'm pretty damn sure she knows exactly what she's going to do as she's packing her clothes to leave the mansion. Alya refuses to leave Cihan's side even in the worst of circumstances, so her walking out when he's about to risk his life is completely out of character. And not only that, before leaving, she tells Cihan she doesn't want to talk to him or see him until he changes his mind about becoming the donor. See? Smart. She's doing everything she can to keep him from monitoring her movements (like he generally does :D). She's learned to read her husband, so much so that she turns his tactics on him. And Cihan never picks up on it. And watching her in action is poetry in motion - beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. Because this time, the one person she can always count on for support isn't with her. She's fighting for Cihan, for their love, all on her own. Even though they promise each other they'd face whatever obstacles come their way together as they leave the airport in ep 29. While everyone gathers to wish Cihan well before the operation, Alya walks through those corridors alone. She has no one to calm her fears, no one to soothe her brow. No one tells her they'll be praying for her quick recovery. And that hurts like a son of a bitch. Because Alya has such a capacity for love and giving, she doesn't hesitate to take huge risks for the people she loves. On the other hand, she has no one other than Cihan to do the same for her. He's her other half. And there's no way in hell she'd stand back and watch him destroy himself. Her devotion and resolve are crystal clear when she speaks to Cihan while he's sedated. Still, I think some of her loneliness and desperation bleeds through her words to her husband. Almost as if something deep inside her cries out for him to wake up and choose her - like she's choosing him. Over everyone. Even her own life. Speaking of choosing, let's pause here and pivot to Cihan Bey. Cihan, like all of us, is a product of his upbringing, his environment, and his personal beliefs. Two of those three things are extremely toxic and warped. Not to mention, the guilt that's eating him alive is a product of those two things. They say when you're undergoing feelings of intense guilt, you tend to fluctuate between two states - suppression and surrender. When you suppress, you tell yourself you're fine. Everything's okay. Things are best this way type of stuff. In fact, I want you to remember this phrase. Then, there's surrender - moments of lucidity where you realize you're falling apart, that this isn't what you want at all. You're flooded by emotions and longing about what you're denying yourself. And that's something you see in Cihan over and over in this episode. He keeps fluctuating from one state to the other, and I don't think he even realizes what he's about to do to himself and Alya by wanting to go through with that operation. Take the scene where they're talking in their room before Alya leaves. On the one hand, Cihan tells Alya he has responsibilities to his family, and on the other, he can't see how his decision will affect Alya and Deniz. Then, when Cihan tries talking to Alya when he's driving her to work, he tells her he doesn't want to sacrifice their love, but in the next instance, he tells her he won't lose her 'in his heart' even if Boran wakes up. You see the inconsistency? He keeps switching between what he truly wants and the things might be best this way mindset. Surrender and suppression. Like when he keeps seeking her out at every turn, but insists on undergoing a surgery that will almost certainly kill him. The guilt inside him builds like pressure almost. He tries to suppress it until it spills over, revealing his true feelings, then he panics and moves back to suppression again. This keeps repeating until he wakes up to discover that Alya is the one undergoing the surgery. That's when the cycle finally breaks. Because when he's faced with the reality of losing Alya forever, he finally accepts the core truth driving his guilt - he fell in love with his brother's wife. Sure, he thinks Boran is dead and gone when it happens, but guilt doesn't really follow logic. That's why Alya being the donor and almost losing her life forces him to accept the love he feels for Alya is part of him now. There is no fighting it, there is no changing it. There is only accepting it. And his speech to Boran before he sees Alya is proof of his surrender. Because he finally admits that his bond with Alya isn't about choice anymore, he doesn't control the love; it controls him now. In front of Boran, no less. He finally looks his guilt in the face and starts to overcome it. That's why we see him initiating the kiss in their room. He's not overcome by self-reproach when he thinks of touching Alya intimately now. All very, very positive signs. And, let's not forget, when he sees his entire family conspired behind his back to allow Alya to be the donor, he understands another sold truth. He is the only family Alya has apart from Deniz. Which makes Alya's sacrifice all the more powerful. Because he realizes that she kept her part of the bargain. She kept fighting for them, even when he didn't. Hopefully, this is the moment where Cihan stops running and starts choosing. Alya didn’t just save his life physically; she forced him to confront the part of himself he kept buried. And now that he’s finally surrendered to that truth, we’re about to see the version of Cihan who fights for love instead of resisting it. Till next time, happy reading, y'all. #CihAl #UzakŞehir
4:55

Analyzing Episode 35. Season 2 aka Turning the Tables Alrighty, let's do this. Episode 35 was one of the strongest episodes of season 2, I think, because we get to see Ciho and Alya kind of switch places, for once. In s1, Alya would mostly pick flight when her feelings got overwhelming. Whereas Ciho, with his Ağa mindset, would inevitably choose to fight. But, unlike in s1, the circumstances are unique. We see the tables turn because Alya probably hasn't loved anyone before like she loves Cihan, and Cihan hasn't ever come across a test as heavy as the half-alive Boran. So, essentially, they're both out of their comfort zones. Let's discuss Alya first. My love for this character just keeps growing. I've yet to see someone be as principled and willing to break the rules, as strong and soft at the same time, as Alya Albora. The woman is a marvel. We must protect her at all costs (Get in line, Ciho). As the episode begins, Alya walks off to their room and proceeds to lock herself in Cihan's study after informing everyone about Cihan's not-so-tiny health problem. I think being the smart cookie she is, she realizes early on that Cihan will be his stubborn self about the surgery business, which is why something of a plan is already forming in her head. When Cihan shows up to talk, Alya doesn't back down from telling him she knows exactly why he's walking to almost certain death. Still, she only brings out the big guns after pleading with him to review his decision doesn't work. Her goal isn't to hurt him. It's to save him. To shock him enough to wake from the limbo Cihan has isolated himself in. When her words fail to achieve their target, she acts. I'm pretty damn sure she knows exactly what she's going to do as she's packing her clothes to leave the mansion. Alya refuses to leave Cihan's side even in the worst of circumstances, so her walking out when he's about to risk his life is completely out of character. And not only that, before leaving, she tells Cihan she doesn't want to talk to him or see him until he changes his mind about becoming the donor. See? Smart. She's doing everything she can to keep him from monitoring her movements (like he generally does :D). She's learned to read her husband, so much so that she turns his tactics on him. And Cihan never picks up on it. And watching her in action is poetry in motion - beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. Because this time, the one person she can always count on for support isn't with her. She's fighting for Cihan, for their love, all on her own. Even though they promise each other they'd face whatever obstacles come their way together as they leave the airport in ep 29. While everyone gathers to wish Cihan well before the operation, Alya walks through those corridors alone. She has no one to calm her fears, no one to soothe her brow. No one tells her they'll be praying for her quick recovery. And that hurts like a son of a bitch. Because Alya has such a capacity for love and giving, she doesn't hesitate to take huge risks for the people she loves. On the other hand, she has no one other than Cihan to do the same for her. He's her other half. And there's no way in hell she'd stand back and watch him destroy himself. Her devotion and resolve are crystal clear when she speaks to Cihan while he's sedated. Still, I think some of her loneliness and desperation bleeds through her words to her husband. Almost as if something deep inside her cries out for him to wake up and choose her - like she's choosing him. Over everyone. Even her own life. Speaking of choosing, let's pause here and pivot to Cihan Bey. Cihan, like all of us, is a product of his upbringing, his environment, and his personal beliefs. Two of those three things are extremely toxic and warped. Not to mention, the guilt that's eating him alive is a product of those two things. They say when you're undergoing feelings of intense guilt, you tend to fluctuate between two states - suppression and surrender. When you suppress, you tell yourself you're fine. Everything's okay. Things are best this way type of stuff. In fact, I want you to remember this phrase. Then, there's surrender - moments of lucidity where you realize you're falling apart, that this isn't what you want at all. You're flooded by emotions and longing about what you're denying yourself. And that's something you see in Cihan over and over in this episode. He keeps fluctuating from one state to the other, and I don't think he even realizes what he's about to do to himself and Alya by wanting to go through with that operation. Take the scene where they're talking in their room before Alya leaves. On the one hand, Cihan tells Alya he has responsibilities to his family, and on the other, he can't see how his decision will affect Alya and Deniz. Then, when Cihan tries talking to Alya when he's driving her to work, he tells her he doesn't want to sacrifice their love, but in the next instance, he tells her he won't lose her 'in his heart' even if Boran wakes up. You see the inconsistency? He keeps switching between what he truly wants and the things might be best this way mindset. Surrender and suppression. Like when he keeps seeking her out at every turn, but insists on undergoing a surgery that will almost certainly kill him. The guilt inside him builds like pressure almost. He tries to suppress it until it spills over, revealing his true feelings, then he panics and moves back to suppression again. This keeps repeating until he wakes up to discover that Alya is the one undergoing the surgery. That's when the cycle finally breaks. Because when he's faced with the reality of losing Alya forever, he finally accepts the core truth driving his guilt - he fell in love with his brother's wife. Sure, he thinks Boran is dead and gone when it happens, but guilt doesn't really follow logic. That's why Alya being the donor and almost losing her life forces him to accept the love he feels for Alya is part of him now. There is no fighting it, there is no changing it. There is only accepting it. And his speech to Boran before he sees Alya is proof of his surrender. Because he finally admits that his bond with Alya isn't about choice anymore, he doesn't control the love; it controls him now. In front of Boran, no less. He finally looks his guilt in the face and starts to overcome it. That's why we see him initiating the kiss in their room. He's not overcome by self-reproach when he thinks of touching Alya intimately now. All very, very positive signs. And, let's not forget, when he sees his entire family conspired behind his back to allow Alya to be the donor, he understands another sold truth. He is the only family Alya has apart from Deniz. Which makes Alya's sacrifice all the more powerful. Because he realizes that she kept her part of the bargain. She kept fighting for them, even when he didn't. Hopefully, this is the moment where Cihan stops running and starts choosing. Alya didn’t just save his life physically; she forced him to confront the part of himself he kept buried. And now that he’s finally surrendered to that truth, we’re about to see the version of Cihan who fights for love instead of resisting it. Till next time, happy reading, y'all. #CihAl #UzakŞehir

CocoLoco

26,299 次观看 • 9 个月前

The days of calling it an “alleged recording” are over. Aidan recorded Karen without her consent. Then he played that recording for multiple people with one purpose- to turn them against her. Everything I’m saying below is based on what Aidan himself told me, repeatedly, long before any of this went public. And to make it even clearer, I’m including a clip in the comments of Aidan admitting directly to me that: He did record Karen, He lied about Nurse Kim not hearing it, He said it was “not a big deal,” and He admitted he has zero proof that I shared anything, because I didn’t. He’s publicly accusing me of something he knows he can’t prove because it never happened. Who he shared the recording with These names aren’t guesses or assumptions. They came straight from Aidan. -Nurse Kim -Will -Jimmy (Auntie Deb) -Jess Machado -Others I’m not naming because they haven’t lied publicly or attacked me. Will heard it. Kim heard it. Jimmy heard it. Jess publicly admitted she heard it. Aidan told each of us at different times. The initial list of 4 has since grown exponentially because he forgot who he shared it with. This is what he does. He overshares, forgets who he told, and then lies when the fallout hits. The Timeline August 26: Howie Carr announces Karen Read and team will join show. Aidan melts down and makes now-deleted tweet bashing Howie Carr. Throws shade at both Karen and Howie on his show. He even tried to beg the producer to let him go on with her. He eventually bashes said producer on twitter as well. August 28: Karen goes on Howie Carr show. Aidan throws a hissy fit because she didn’t thank him (after he’d been subtly attacking her for months and for going on Howie’s show at all). Aug 29: Karen and Aidan have a phone call. She gets rightfully angry with him, he stays calm and secretly records her. He then uses that recording to try to convince other content creators to turn on her. At first, he told me only 4 people heard it that same day, but now that is unknown. Like everything with Aidan, he shares things impulsively and forgets who he told after. Aug 30: The very next day, someone tells Karen that she was recorded and that Will and others have heard it. Karen contacts Will and he denies hearing it. Karen accuses Aidan directly of recording her and express what a betrayal it is. Sept 1: Aidan and I speak for the first time in over a month since our breakup. He tells me Karen is “accusing him of recording her.” I asked, “Well… did you?” He said yes, and followed it with, “But I think she’s bluffing because she probably doesn’t have a recording.” I told him that’s a very specific accusation to make out of nowhere, she’s never accused you of recording her before, someone clearly told her. He repeated the same four names he claimed heard it. He was sure no one would dare betray him by doing the right thing and being honest with Karen. (Again, that list has grown since, because he lies, shares, forgets, and backtracks.) The Following week Karen repeatedly tells him she knows he recorded her. Aidan repeatedly lies and denies it. September 8 I hear the recording myself for the first time, during lunch with him. I don't ask to hear the recording, he shoves his phone in my face to listen. The recording is not what he described, where he painted Karen as an evil c*nt, just as he's done to his followers. Karen is rightfully angry and fed up with Aidan's antics. By this point, Karen already had the recording. Whoever told Karen was not me, because I didn’t even know the recording existed yet. Multiple people lied to her. She knows who they are. Someone eventually came clean. It wasn’t me. Karen never wanted Aidan to be criminally charged for this or “send him to jail” as he’s spun his narrative. Neither did I. All she wanted was for people to stop lying to her and for Aidan to stop disrespecting her. I happily lied for Aidan for quite awhile, but since he’s used me as the scapegoat for the recording leak, that’s over. Why People Lie People ask why these creators denied hearing it. Because they didn’t want to choose between Aidan and Karen. They wanted continued access, relevance, and possible media opportunities. For example, Kim told me during a two-hour call in October that she “didn’t know it was illegal” when she heard it and felt for Karen. Sure, a loyal Turtleboy follower doesn’t know about wiretapping laws. But she also didn’t want the Turtleboy wrath. She denied it publicly because she wanted to keep doors open with Karen. So she went along to try to keep playing both sides. Fine with me, until she started publicly bashing me too. To the Creators Pushing Aidan’s Narrative… Shame On You You spent two years defending Karen, raising money off her name, and building platforms on her story, then the minute Aidan needed cover, you parroted every lie he fed you to tear her down. Hypocrisy doesn’t even begin to cover it. Tonight He’s bringing on the same creators who have been lying for the last two months, the same people who denied hearing the recording even though they did. Let’s see what happens tonight. Will they keep lying? Will they keep dragging Karen to protect him? Or will they finally tell the truth now that the lies have collapsed? Because the truth is no longer “alleged.” The clip I’m posting proves exactly what happened, in Aidan’s own voice. I never wanted to do any of this. I never wanted a public war. But at some point, you’re pushed so far you have no choice. Now the truth is out, all of it, including the part straight from Aidan’s mouth.
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The days of calling it an “alleged recording” are over. Aidan recorded Karen without her consent. Then he played that recording for multiple people with one purpose- to turn them against her. Everything I’m saying below is based on what Aidan himself told me, repeatedly, long before any of this went public. And to make it even clearer, I’m including a clip in the comments of Aidan admitting directly to me that: He did record Karen, He lied about Nurse Kim not hearing it, He said it was “not a big deal,” and He admitted he has zero proof that I shared anything, because I didn’t. He’s publicly accusing me of something he knows he can’t prove because it never happened. Who he shared the recording with These names aren’t guesses or assumptions. They came straight from Aidan. -Nurse Kim -Will -Jimmy (Auntie Deb) -Jess Machado -Others I’m not naming because they haven’t lied publicly or attacked me. Will heard it. Kim heard it. Jimmy heard it. Jess publicly admitted she heard it. Aidan told each of us at different times. The initial list of 4 has since grown exponentially because he forgot who he shared it with. This is what he does. He overshares, forgets who he told, and then lies when the fallout hits. The Timeline August 26: Howie Carr announces Karen Read and team will join show. Aidan melts down and makes now-deleted tweet bashing Howie Carr. Throws shade at both Karen and Howie on his show. He even tried to beg the producer to let him go on with her. He eventually bashes said producer on twitter as well. August 28: Karen goes on Howie Carr show. Aidan throws a hissy fit because she didn’t thank him (after he’d been subtly attacking her for months and for going on Howie’s show at all). Aug 29: Karen and Aidan have a phone call. She gets rightfully angry with him, he stays calm and secretly records her. He then uses that recording to try to convince other content creators to turn on her. At first, he told me only 4 people heard it that same day, but now that is unknown. Like everything with Aidan, he shares things impulsively and forgets who he told after. Aug 30: The very next day, someone tells Karen that she was recorded and that Will and others have heard it. Karen contacts Will and he denies hearing it. Karen accuses Aidan directly of recording her and express what a betrayal it is. Sept 1: Aidan and I speak for the first time in over a month since our breakup. He tells me Karen is “accusing him of recording her.” I asked, “Well… did you?” He said yes, and followed it with, “But I think she’s bluffing because she probably doesn’t have a recording.” I told him that’s a very specific accusation to make out of nowhere, she’s never accused you of recording her before, someone clearly told her. He repeated the same four names he claimed heard it. He was sure no one would dare betray him by doing the right thing and being honest with Karen. (Again, that list has grown since, because he lies, shares, forgets, and backtracks.) The Following week Karen repeatedly tells him she knows he recorded her. Aidan repeatedly lies and denies it. September 8 I hear the recording myself for the first time, during lunch with him. I don't ask to hear the recording, he shoves his phone in my face to listen. The recording is not what he described, where he painted Karen as an evil c*nt, just as he's done to his followers. Karen is rightfully angry and fed up with Aidan's antics. By this point, Karen already had the recording. Whoever told Karen was not me, because I didn’t even know the recording existed yet. Multiple people lied to her. She knows who they are. Someone eventually came clean. It wasn’t me. Karen never wanted Aidan to be criminally charged for this or “send him to jail” as he’s spun his narrative. Neither did I. All she wanted was for people to stop lying to her and for Aidan to stop disrespecting her. I happily lied for Aidan for quite awhile, but since he’s used me as the scapegoat for the recording leak, that’s over. Why People Lie People ask why these creators denied hearing it. Because they didn’t want to choose between Aidan and Karen. They wanted continued access, relevance, and possible media opportunities. For example, Kim told me during a two-hour call in October that she “didn’t know it was illegal” when she heard it and felt for Karen. Sure, a loyal Turtleboy follower doesn’t know about wiretapping laws. But she also didn’t want the Turtleboy wrath. She denied it publicly because she wanted to keep doors open with Karen. So she went along to try to keep playing both sides. Fine with me, until she started publicly bashing me too. To the Creators Pushing Aidan’s Narrative… Shame On You You spent two years defending Karen, raising money off her name, and building platforms on her story, then the minute Aidan needed cover, you parroted every lie he fed you to tear her down. Hypocrisy doesn’t even begin to cover it. Tonight He’s bringing on the same creators who have been lying for the last two months, the same people who denied hearing the recording even though they did. Let’s see what happens tonight. Will they keep lying? Will they keep dragging Karen to protect him? Or will they finally tell the truth now that the lies have collapsed? Because the truth is no longer “alleged.” The clip I’m posting proves exactly what happened, in Aidan’s own voice. I never wanted to do any of this. I never wanted a public war. But at some point, you’re pushed so far you have no choice. Now the truth is out, all of it, including the part straight from Aidan’s mouth.

The old M can’t come to the phone right now

527,518 次观看 • 8 个月前

The “I never wanted any of this to be public or content” Lie, A Timeline I never wanted any of this to come out. Except I actually mean that. It’s embarrassing, it’s trashy, and it’s the opposite of how I want to present myself publicly. I stayed silent for months while lie after lie was spun about me behind the scenes because I didn’t want to air private, messy moments from a relationship I genuinely cared about. I stayed silent out of fear, because I was told no one would believe me because he would be blindly believed on his large platform. In one of our very last conversations before I blocked him everywhere mid-October, he threatened to do a show on me, contact my employer, and “turn me into the next Lindsey”. Why? Because I didn’t want to continue apologizing to him for the 300th time about venting to someone I thought was a friend. I stayed silent because of these threats. But after Wednesday, after Chelsea posted the private video Aidan gave her, (the same one he threatened me with directly back on 10/2), and after the gaslighting, I don’t have a choice anymore. So here is the timeline. Here are the receipts. Here is what actually happened. September-October 2025- I Stayed Silent Through Months of Smear Campaigns For months, several creators repeated the same false narrative that “Aidan never said a bad word about Meredith.” Jess. Glarer. Auntie Deb. Kim. Ray from Dallas. Others. Meanwhile, Aidan was: • Badmouthing me privately and encouraging others to do so publicly, • Texting Joe “Flipperhead” entire paragraphs trashing me, • Aidan knew Joe would leak them (and even bragged on a stream that he did exactly that so he’d leak them), • Sending Jess Machado after me for months on her large platform, • Directing people behind the scenes to paint me as a villain. • Sending random people who supported me DMs to change their mind (yes Aidan, not everyone is fooled by your bullshit and they came right to me). I ignored all of it. I said nothing. I stayed silent through daily lies because I didn’t want to call more attention to it or face Aidan’s wrath. November 2025 -The Rumors About “March 4” and Joe Flipperhead Flips to Team Aidan Aidan texted Joe his entire made-up version weeks ago. Joe circulated those texts on purpose. Joe threatened me with posting a video montage of mine and Aidan’s private texts. Joe is a pussy so he eventually had Kristy post it for him. Creators discussed it publicly without me ever responding. I STILL didn’t defend myself. November 26-27, 2025- Ratchet Chelsea: The Full 48 Hour Meltdown 11/26/25— The Unprovoked Attack & The March 4 Video On Tuesday night, Chelsea came out of nowhere and launched herself straight at me, accusing me of all kinds of conspiracies from harassment to the horrific crime of sending a friend request, which is explained in vivid detail in the below post (she’s since gone somewhat viral, love this for her!) She spent the next 24 hours thoroughly embarrassing herself and the moment anyone challenged her story even slightly, she did what she always does: she imploded. Her accusations spiraled into her posting the March 4 video. On 11/26/25 at 11:08 PM, Chelsea posted the first clip–a blanket, context-less snippet of me drunk saying something I immediately apologized for the next morning. At 11:50 PM, I responded because at that point, I had no choice. 11/27/25— The 9-Minute Backpedal Then on Thanksgiving, Aidan tried to save face by posting that he “didn’t want the video to be public.” And like clockwork, nine minutes later, Chelsea came charging into the comments like a Temu-sponsored bat out of hell, scrambling to apologize, trying to rewrite reality so it looked like he didn’t send her to do it. It was panicked, sloppy damage control. An amateur quality cover-up attempt that only made it more obvious how coordinated this all was. She wasn’t apologizing because she grew a conscience. She was apologizing because she got caught doing exactly what she’d been primed to do. I wonder if Aidan called her “you should’ve waited at least 20 minutes, dumbass!!!”. Not too bright that Chelsea. I can only imagine the regrets he must have for utilizing someone with the IQ of a pencil to do his dirty work. The Coordination Between Aidan & Chelsea Is Obvious Chelsea had virtually NO followers Wednesday morning. Aidan was one of the first. We’re supposed to believe someone with 150k followers just stumbled on an account that starts posting HIS private messages and HIS private videos? Kk. Aidan commented on her posts that same day, clearly encouraging it, continuing to this day, all while pretending he's not directing it. Kk. She confirmed in my DMs back on 11/6 that she and Aidan were aligned. And she literally wrote at 4:04 AM that she had “proof,” videos & screenshots she would release if I didn’t “stop calling” her, calls she still hasn’t produced a single shred of proof of. Then yesterday within 9 minutes of his post, she writes: “Sorry for going rogue, Aidan, I hope you don’t hate my guts.” Going rogue? From WHAT? Who gave you the material in the first place? The coordination is obvious to anyone with functioning brain cells. The “I never wanted this public” lie Aidan’s post yesterday claimed he “never wanted this to be public.” He’s been threatening me for months behind the scenes to post the infamous video. To do a show on me. To send things to others to weaponize against me. If this were true, why did he instruct Chelsea to post it? Why did he share it with Jess Machado to threaten me with for the last month? Why did he share it with Joe Flipperhead, and God knows who else? If he didn’t want it public, he wouldn’t have shared it with anyone, let alone the girl I caught him cheating with. The timeline is clear– Chelsea posted a video at 11:08 pm on Thanksgiving Eve, I responded at 11:50 out of self defense. He leaked first. He escalated first. He weaponized it first. Trying to rewrite that now is gaslighting, pure and simple. The “Meredith accused him of abuse” narrative is FALSE My actions tell the truth: • I never went to police. • I never filed anything. • I never told anyone he hit me. • I never repeated it. • I apologized the next day. • We stayed together for FOUR more months after that night. • He called me 100+ times some days, even indicating he’d end his life if we broke up. If he believed I was “dangerous,” his actions would have said that. They didn’t. The only reason this is public now is because HE leaked it. Actions > drunk slurred words said because a camera was shoved in my face when I asked him repeatedly to stop filming and to leave. The Wilbur Theatre Rumors—Let’s get petty for a second. This is another topic I’m cringing at discussing but we can thank Aidan for since he shared our sexual messages with Joe Flipperhead. And since some people (Auntie Deb, sweetie, this means you) insist on pushing their Dollar Store fan-fiction about the Wilbur Theatre night, let’s actually walk through what happened, using facts instead of whatever drug-induced hallucinations you’ve been spinning this week. The rumor goes like this- I was “mad at Aidan because we didn’t hook up,” and to “prove” it, they trot out a cherry-picked text where I said I wanted to hook up, he didn’t answer, and the next morning I said I was drunk and sorry. And somehow this has been spun into me being desperate, obsessed, or pining like a background character in a teenage soap opera. Adorable. Wrong, but adorable. Here’s the real plot twist-Aidan and I had already been together literally two days earlier, and shocker-that was initiated by him, not me. I didn’t just “show up at the Wilbur”. He invited me to come to the after party at Encore knowing I had a wedding earlier in the night. I wanted to see my friends there who I actually met to go with. This wasn’t a surprise, it was planned ahead of time. The “I was drunk, sorry” message wasn’t heartbreak. It wasn’t longing. It was me politely tapping the brakes because I didn’t even want to entertain whatever bad path it could lead us back down. And then? He texted me asking about my brother’s wedding, how I am, etc. I ignored him for a full week. Until I had no choice but to speak to him about MereNeill. That silence, from me, is what triggered his latest meltdown. Not mine. His. So no, Auntie Deb, your version isn’t “a different perspective.” It’s just wrong. Like wildly, hilariously, not-even-in-the-ballpark wrong. But sure, keep spinning fanfic if it makes your livestreams feel more exciting. I realize it’s probably been awhile since you’ve had any action since you’ve let yourself go so badly, so you live vicariously through others. Recap For MONTHS I ignored: • the texts he sent Joe to leak • the smear campaign • the creators parroting lies • the behind-the-scenes messages • the insinuations I hacked him and even shared revenge porn • the constant coordinated attacks • the threats of “turning me into the next Lindsey” • his warning that everyone would believe him because of his platform • the threats to contact my employer I didn’t clap back, didn’t retaliate, didn’t respond. But Wednesday, when Chelsea dumped the video he gave her, the same video she threatened weeks ago to drop, AND he posted pretending he didn’t want this all out? That was the line. They chose the nuclear option. And last night's gaslighting grift was just the icing on the cake. Now I’m responding with facts in pure self-defense. Conclusion/Message for Temu Storm This entire mess could have stayed private. I wanted it to stay private. But when someone leaks your private moments, lies about your intentions, weaponizes your past, and coordinates an online attack, you either let the false narrative stand or you defend yourself. I’m choosing to defend myself with receipts, not gossip. With timelines, not “he said.” With evidence, not weaponized drunk clips. And then there’s Aidan’s favorite delusion. The claim that I was ‘working with Karen behind the scenes’ or ‘conspiring with her to get him in trouble for the recording.’ That could not be further from the truth. I didn’t even know he had recorded her until after she already knew about it herself. I wasn’t working with her, plotting with her, or communicating with her about it. She and I have always been friendly, but we didn’t even discuss the recording until it started leaking and Joe Flipperhead went feral on Twitter. Meanwhile, Aidan spent weeks screaming at me, accusing me of being some kind of secret double agent, like he was trying to create the betrayal he was terrified of. Almost a self-fulfilling prophecy. And here’s the reality: in the last few weeks, after he’s gone fully scorched earth on me, I have talked to her, and I support her 100%. The things he’s done to her over the past couple years, and the way he twisted it all for his followers, is the exact same manipulation I lived through. I’m not going into her details because that’s her story to tell… but let’s just say I have a feeling you’ll be hearing it sooner rather than later. The lie that Aidan never wanted this to be public is just laughable at this point. Who are we kidding? He's been foaming at the mouth for months to make this content where he can play the victim, as usual. And since this week has apparently become “Let’s All Fixate on Meredith Week,” let me address the content-creator sideshow, too. Some of you are strangers, while some I actually considered my friends. It’s shocking but not shocking how quickly you all flip a switch and follow your captain’s orders. Ray from Dallas spent his Sunday foaming at the mouth in a hostile little video about me, all bark, no substance. I saw it. I’m not intimidated. Mostly, I’m embarrassed for you. Then there’s Will, who’s gone on multiple streams calling me “crazy” and pretending he’s scared of me, despite me being nothing but nice to him. Why? Because he thinks I was the first one to tell Karen he heard the recording, which he absolutely did (unless Aidan is lying about who he played it for, but we know he’s actually telling the truth on this for once). She was informed of it the very next day, which is why she called you and you know this. This was two full days before I was even aware of a call at all. Will, for someone with your track record, maybe sit the “women are dangerous” narrative out. You’re not fooling anyone. I’m staring at 15 pages of police reports and no, it’s not all “things you’ve owned up for in the past”. You know this. Again, I’d take a very large seat here. And my personal favorite-Auntie Deb, who decided to spice up his Spaces on Thanksgiving by accusing me of distributing revenge p*rn with zero evidence, zero screenshots, zero anything. Accusing me of killing a turtle yesterday. A completely fabricated felony tossed around like it’s gossip hour at the bingo hall. Considering your own professional history, James, I’d hope you of all people would understand how catastrophic false accusations can be, but apparently not. I wonder if you’ll have that same enthusiasm when the topic is you. TBD. I’ll wait for that retraction about revenge p*rn, animal abuse, etc. Ball’s in your court hun. And of course, there’s Jessica Machado, who’s been grinding this axe for months like it’s her full-time personality. Hos long did you cry when Chelsea beat you to the punch with that video? Don’t worry hun, there’s more but she didn’t post it because it’s not great for your fairytale. Since you reported my last post, I'll leave the rest up for your imagination. You’ve been so obsessed with me for so long that you can’t even keep your own narratives straight anymore. I love this so much for you. Let me be crystal clear–I am done being all of your punching bag. You love to spin this narrative that I’m this dangerous person. You’d think you’d lay off from constantly f*cking with me if you truly believed that. I would genuinely love for this nonsense to stop. But that requires ALL of you to stop manufacturing drama, stop lying, and stop weaponizing made-up crimes for clicks. And if they want to keep going? I’ve got plenty of content for many seasons to come.
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The “I never wanted any of this to be public or content” Lie, A Timeline I never wanted any of this to come out. Except I actually mean that. It’s embarrassing, it’s trashy, and it’s the opposite of how I want to present myself publicly. I stayed silent for months while lie after lie was spun about me behind the scenes because I didn’t want to air private, messy moments from a relationship I genuinely cared about. I stayed silent out of fear, because I was told no one would believe me because he would be blindly believed on his large platform. In one of our very last conversations before I blocked him everywhere mid-October, he threatened to do a show on me, contact my employer, and “turn me into the next Lindsey”. Why? Because I didn’t want to continue apologizing to him for the 300th time about venting to someone I thought was a friend. I stayed silent because of these threats. But after Wednesday, after Chelsea posted the private video Aidan gave her, (the same one he threatened me with directly back on 10/2), and after the gaslighting, I don’t have a choice anymore. So here is the timeline. Here are the receipts. Here is what actually happened. September-October 2025- I Stayed Silent Through Months of Smear Campaigns For months, several creators repeated the same false narrative that “Aidan never said a bad word about Meredith.” Jess. Glarer. Auntie Deb. Kim. Ray from Dallas. Others. Meanwhile, Aidan was: • Badmouthing me privately and encouraging others to do so publicly, • Texting Joe “Flipperhead” entire paragraphs trashing me, • Aidan knew Joe would leak them (and even bragged on a stream that he did exactly that so he’d leak them), • Sending Jess Machado after me for months on her large platform, • Directing people behind the scenes to paint me as a villain. • Sending random people who supported me DMs to change their mind (yes Aidan, not everyone is fooled by your bullshit and they came right to me). I ignored all of it. I said nothing. I stayed silent through daily lies because I didn’t want to call more attention to it or face Aidan’s wrath. November 2025 -The Rumors About “March 4” and Joe Flipperhead Flips to Team Aidan Aidan texted Joe his entire made-up version weeks ago. Joe circulated those texts on purpose. Joe threatened me with posting a video montage of mine and Aidan’s private texts. Joe is a pussy so he eventually had Kristy post it for him. Creators discussed it publicly without me ever responding. I STILL didn’t defend myself. November 26-27, 2025- Ratchet Chelsea: The Full 48 Hour Meltdown 11/26/25— The Unprovoked Attack & The March 4 Video On Tuesday night, Chelsea came out of nowhere and launched herself straight at me, accusing me of all kinds of conspiracies from harassment to the horrific crime of sending a friend request, which is explained in vivid detail in the below post (she’s since gone somewhat viral, love this for her!) She spent the next 24 hours thoroughly embarrassing herself and the moment anyone challenged her story even slightly, she did what she always does: she imploded. Her accusations spiraled into her posting the March 4 video. On 11/26/25 at 11:08 PM, Chelsea posted the first clip–a blanket, context-less snippet of me drunk saying something I immediately apologized for the next morning. At 11:50 PM, I responded because at that point, I had no choice. 11/27/25— The 9-Minute Backpedal Then on Thanksgiving, Aidan tried to save face by posting that he “didn’t want the video to be public.” And like clockwork, nine minutes later, Chelsea came charging into the comments like a Temu-sponsored bat out of hell, scrambling to apologize, trying to rewrite reality so it looked like he didn’t send her to do it. It was panicked, sloppy damage control. An amateur quality cover-up attempt that only made it more obvious how coordinated this all was. She wasn’t apologizing because she grew a conscience. She was apologizing because she got caught doing exactly what she’d been primed to do. I wonder if Aidan called her “you should’ve waited at least 20 minutes, dumbass!!!”. Not too bright that Chelsea. I can only imagine the regrets he must have for utilizing someone with the IQ of a pencil to do his dirty work. The Coordination Between Aidan & Chelsea Is Obvious Chelsea had virtually NO followers Wednesday morning. Aidan was one of the first. We’re supposed to believe someone with 150k followers just stumbled on an account that starts posting HIS private messages and HIS private videos? Kk. Aidan commented on her posts that same day, clearly encouraging it, continuing to this day, all while pretending he's not directing it. Kk. She confirmed in my DMs back on 11/6 that she and Aidan were aligned. And she literally wrote at 4:04 AM that she had “proof,” videos & screenshots she would release if I didn’t “stop calling” her, calls she still hasn’t produced a single shred of proof of. Then yesterday within 9 minutes of his post, she writes: “Sorry for going rogue, Aidan, I hope you don’t hate my guts.” Going rogue? From WHAT? Who gave you the material in the first place? The coordination is obvious to anyone with functioning brain cells. The “I never wanted this public” lie Aidan’s post yesterday claimed he “never wanted this to be public.” He’s been threatening me for months behind the scenes to post the infamous video. To do a show on me. To send things to others to weaponize against me. If this were true, why did he instruct Chelsea to post it? Why did he share it with Jess Machado to threaten me with for the last month? Why did he share it with Joe Flipperhead, and God knows who else? If he didn’t want it public, he wouldn’t have shared it with anyone, let alone the girl I caught him cheating with. The timeline is clear– Chelsea posted a video at 11:08 pm on Thanksgiving Eve, I responded at 11:50 out of self defense. He leaked first. He escalated first. He weaponized it first. Trying to rewrite that now is gaslighting, pure and simple. The “Meredith accused him of abuse” narrative is FALSE My actions tell the truth: • I never went to police. • I never filed anything. • I never told anyone he hit me. • I never repeated it. • I apologized the next day. • We stayed together for FOUR more months after that night. • He called me 100+ times some days, even indicating he’d end his life if we broke up. If he believed I was “dangerous,” his actions would have said that. They didn’t. The only reason this is public now is because HE leaked it. Actions > drunk slurred words said because a camera was shoved in my face when I asked him repeatedly to stop filming and to leave. The Wilbur Theatre Rumors—Let’s get petty for a second. This is another topic I’m cringing at discussing but we can thank Aidan for since he shared our sexual messages with Joe Flipperhead. And since some people (Auntie Deb, sweetie, this means you) insist on pushing their Dollar Store fan-fiction about the Wilbur Theatre night, let’s actually walk through what happened, using facts instead of whatever drug-induced hallucinations you’ve been spinning this week. The rumor goes like this- I was “mad at Aidan because we didn’t hook up,” and to “prove” it, they trot out a cherry-picked text where I said I wanted to hook up, he didn’t answer, and the next morning I said I was drunk and sorry. And somehow this has been spun into me being desperate, obsessed, or pining like a background character in a teenage soap opera. Adorable. Wrong, but adorable. Here’s the real plot twist-Aidan and I had already been together literally two days earlier, and shocker-that was initiated by him, not me. I didn’t just “show up at the Wilbur”. He invited me to come to the after party at Encore knowing I had a wedding earlier in the night. I wanted to see my friends there who I actually met to go with. This wasn’t a surprise, it was planned ahead of time. The “I was drunk, sorry” message wasn’t heartbreak. It wasn’t longing. It was me politely tapping the brakes because I didn’t even want to entertain whatever bad path it could lead us back down. And then? He texted me asking about my brother’s wedding, how I am, etc. I ignored him for a full week. Until I had no choice but to speak to him about MereNeill. That silence, from me, is what triggered his latest meltdown. Not mine. His. So no, Auntie Deb, your version isn’t “a different perspective.” It’s just wrong. Like wildly, hilariously, not-even-in-the-ballpark wrong. But sure, keep spinning fanfic if it makes your livestreams feel more exciting. I realize it’s probably been awhile since you’ve had any action since you’ve let yourself go so badly, so you live vicariously through others. Recap For MONTHS I ignored: • the texts he sent Joe to leak • the smear campaign • the creators parroting lies • the behind-the-scenes messages • the insinuations I hacked him and even shared revenge porn • the constant coordinated attacks • the threats of “turning me into the next Lindsey” • his warning that everyone would believe him because of his platform • the threats to contact my employer I didn’t clap back, didn’t retaliate, didn’t respond. But Wednesday, when Chelsea dumped the video he gave her, the same video she threatened weeks ago to drop, AND he posted pretending he didn’t want this all out? That was the line. They chose the nuclear option. And last night's gaslighting grift was just the icing on the cake. Now I’m responding with facts in pure self-defense. Conclusion/Message for Temu Storm This entire mess could have stayed private. I wanted it to stay private. But when someone leaks your private moments, lies about your intentions, weaponizes your past, and coordinates an online attack, you either let the false narrative stand or you defend yourself. I’m choosing to defend myself with receipts, not gossip. With timelines, not “he said.” With evidence, not weaponized drunk clips. And then there’s Aidan’s favorite delusion. The claim that I was ‘working with Karen behind the scenes’ or ‘conspiring with her to get him in trouble for the recording.’ That could not be further from the truth. I didn’t even know he had recorded her until after she already knew about it herself. I wasn’t working with her, plotting with her, or communicating with her about it. She and I have always been friendly, but we didn’t even discuss the recording until it started leaking and Joe Flipperhead went feral on Twitter. Meanwhile, Aidan spent weeks screaming at me, accusing me of being some kind of secret double agent, like he was trying to create the betrayal he was terrified of. Almost a self-fulfilling prophecy. And here’s the reality: in the last few weeks, after he’s gone fully scorched earth on me, I have talked to her, and I support her 100%. The things he’s done to her over the past couple years, and the way he twisted it all for his followers, is the exact same manipulation I lived through. I’m not going into her details because that’s her story to tell… but let’s just say I have a feeling you’ll be hearing it sooner rather than later. The lie that Aidan never wanted this to be public is just laughable at this point. Who are we kidding? He's been foaming at the mouth for months to make this content where he can play the victim, as usual. And since this week has apparently become “Let’s All Fixate on Meredith Week,” let me address the content-creator sideshow, too. Some of you are strangers, while some I actually considered my friends. It’s shocking but not shocking how quickly you all flip a switch and follow your captain’s orders. Ray from Dallas spent his Sunday foaming at the mouth in a hostile little video about me, all bark, no substance. I saw it. I’m not intimidated. Mostly, I’m embarrassed for you. Then there’s Will, who’s gone on multiple streams calling me “crazy” and pretending he’s scared of me, despite me being nothing but nice to him. Why? Because he thinks I was the first one to tell Karen he heard the recording, which he absolutely did (unless Aidan is lying about who he played it for, but we know he’s actually telling the truth on this for once). She was informed of it the very next day, which is why she called you and you know this. This was two full days before I was even aware of a call at all. Will, for someone with your track record, maybe sit the “women are dangerous” narrative out. You’re not fooling anyone. I’m staring at 15 pages of police reports and no, it’s not all “things you’ve owned up for in the past”. You know this. Again, I’d take a very large seat here. And my personal favorite-Auntie Deb, who decided to spice up his Spaces on Thanksgiving by accusing me of distributing revenge p*rn with zero evidence, zero screenshots, zero anything. Accusing me of killing a turtle yesterday. A completely fabricated felony tossed around like it’s gossip hour at the bingo hall. Considering your own professional history, James, I’d hope you of all people would understand how catastrophic false accusations can be, but apparently not. I wonder if you’ll have that same enthusiasm when the topic is you. TBD. I’ll wait for that retraction about revenge p*rn, animal abuse, etc. Ball’s in your court hun. And of course, there’s Jessica Machado, who’s been grinding this axe for months like it’s her full-time personality. Hos long did you cry when Chelsea beat you to the punch with that video? Don’t worry hun, there’s more but she didn’t post it because it’s not great for your fairytale. Since you reported my last post, I'll leave the rest up for your imagination. You’ve been so obsessed with me for so long that you can’t even keep your own narratives straight anymore. I love this so much for you. Let me be crystal clear–I am done being all of your punching bag. You love to spin this narrative that I’m this dangerous person. You’d think you’d lay off from constantly f*cking with me if you truly believed that. I would genuinely love for this nonsense to stop. But that requires ALL of you to stop manufacturing drama, stop lying, and stop weaponizing made-up crimes for clicks. And if they want to keep going? I’ve got plenty of content for many seasons to come.

The old M can’t come to the phone right now

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Analyzing Episode 60. Season 2 aka Motherhood Deconstructed I want to start this analysis with a disclaimer that I'll be writing about that kiss separately, because really, it deserves a post of its own. I'll talk about it here briefly, but this analysis will stick to the overall events of ep 60. To me, the main theme of this episode was motherhood. Be it Alya, Nare, Zerrin, Sadakat, and yes, even the dishrag. We see how these different women strive, suffer, and never stop trying to keep their children with them, all except one. So, let's begin. We start episode 60 with Alya and Cihan awaiting to conduct a DNA test on baby Simal, whom Kaya insists is his child. Long story short, Kaya is feeling a little pissed about Zerrin keeping the truth of Simal from him, and he has a point. But then, it's not like Zerrin has had a jolly good time pretending to play house with a creep like Demir. The only reason she relents is to keep her baby safe. So, it's a catch-22 situation, where both sides are right and wrong. But, it's not like we don't know these two will make up soon. What stood out to me in that sequence was Alya taking charge of ensuring Zerrin has access to her baby. She knows exactly what it is to be separated from one's child, and she's kind and brave enough to refuse to let anyone suffer through the same. So, in a way, Alya's motherhood doesn't just extend to Deniz. It encompasses her to the point where she shields all those she feels need protection. I also like the fact that she's taken Zerrin under her wing, because when the latter moves into the konak with Sadakat, she'll need all the help she can get. The next sequence begins at the hospital, where Nare is still hell-bent on continuing with the pregnancy, though at great risk to her life. This is another glimpse of motherhood the show gives us - in the shape of a woman who is so in love with her unborn child already, she's willing to risk death to bring it into the world. Contrasted to that is Sadakat, who's willing to lie or cheat to keep her daughter alive. Here is a ruthless kind of motherhood. Sadakat's love (if you can call it that) has always been wrapped in control, manipulation, and fear. But, still at the center of all her ugliness is a woman who doesn't want to lose her children. Nare is willing to die for her child, Sadakat is willing to kill Nare's child to ensure she lives - quite the compelling contrast. Different forms of motherhood, but both rooted in desperation. In the middle of all that, Meryem pops up like a bad penny. But even as she arrives in that room and Sadakat wants to keep her there, the awkward silence that envelops the space as she lingers is telling. She doesn't belong, it seems to say. But, there's another person who's starting to question their 'belonging' in this new version of the past that's come back - and of course, that's Alya. The more she sees Meryem infiltrate parts of her life beyond the konak, the more her exposed nerves are rubbed raw. This woman is so close to complete and utter exhaustion, it's heartbreaking. What's even more heartbreaking is that while she tries to be there for everyone, she herself cuts everyone off when she feels troubled. And that, to me, is where the episode quietly portrays the emotional labor aspect of being a mom. Alya mothers everyone around her. Nare, Zerrin, Kaya, and Deniz. Even Cihan at times. She absorbs pain, tries to stem chaos, protects others from falling apart, yet when it comes to her own fears and insecurities, she retreats inward completely. It's almost as if she believes she only deserves to be the shelter, never the one allowed to seek sanctuary. Because children who grow up thinking they've been abandoned grow up thinking love is a thing to be earned through caring or usefulness. So, instead of asking for comfort, they always end up providing it. But humans, even the strongest of the strong, have their limits. And, it's so clear that Alya is close to reaching hers. So, when Cihan is forced to relent and allow Mujgan and her son to the konak because Deniz wants it, Alya does what she does best - she withdraws and leaves the source of discomfort. That's why she tells Cihan she hates going to the konak now because every time she goes there, the spectre of Meryem and what she can snatch away becomes unavoidable. And, as blind as Cihan can be at times, he picks up on that. He knows exactly what she's trying to do, which is why he tries to redirect her attention to the fact that he hates going to the konak without Alya around, too. He wants to be wherever Alya is. In his own way, he's trying to tell her it doesn't matter who stays at that house; it's only home to Cihan when Alya is around. His words reach Alya, which is why she relents and visits the konak for a few hours, but then shit hits the fan again. We'll get to that, but first, let's talk about Meryem. Meryem's scene in the hospital with Mujgan reveals Meryem saying she can't tell Cihan about Serhat because she's not sure who the father is, and that she'd rather live in the hope that Serhat is the son of the man she loves, bla blah. Now, go back and think of all the versions of motherhood we've seen in this series, and indeed this episode. They all have one thing in common - that all the mothers did whatever they had to, and bore whatever came their way to ensure their babies stayed with them. No matter how much Alya, Zerrin, or Nare love their better halves, when push came to shove, they put their children first. Even Sadakat married Azem for Boran. All except one. Meryem. Meryem sent her son away and made it look like he was Mujgan's child, thereby erasing all his links to her. One could argue it was because she feared Feyyaz. But what's stopping her now? Let's assume what Meryem says is right and there's a 50 percent chance Serhat is Cihan's son. For a mother desperate to save her child from danger, those are pretty good odds, so why avoid the DNA test? Suppose Serhat turns out to be Feyyaz's son; even so, if she comes clean with Cihan, she knows he's the kind to help her, even if just to keep an innocent child safe. So, her version of motherhood sticks out like a sore thumb in the episode. In contrast, I found Alya's line, 'When it comes to my son, I put him before everything and everyone else,' much more fitting with the theme. Mothers on the defensive, who feel there's a threat to their child's wellbeing, will relent to even the most extreme measure - even if it tears their own being apart. Alya hates being away from Cihan. She hates that distance she imposes between them as much as Cihan, but she can't help it. Because the mother in her won't let her choose anything else. Which is why I say Serhat is almost like an afterthought to Meryem because his needs are never the focus. And I get the feeling that whatever Meryem is trying to hide threatens not her son, but likely the version of herself she's presented to the world. Even when I rewatched the kite flying scene, the way the camera pans into Serhat only once, but mostly focuses on Cihan and Alya after showing us Meryem is telling. Like this is a woman not going through hell because of her child, but because she's looking at a structure of acceptance she's no longer able to enter. Life at the konak, Cihan's family unit, his love for Alya and Deniz - it's everything that could have been hers once, but no longer. No matter how she tries, she no longer fits. And honestly, that’s why that sense of not belonging is even more overt in an episode about motherhood. Every other mother in this episode becomes messy because of love for their child. Nare breaks down. Zerrin panics. Sadakat manipulates openly. Alya practically emotionally disintegrates trying to hold everything together. Their feelings spill all over the place because motherhood, especially threatened motherhood, breaks people down. But Meryem remains oddly stoic throughout it all, except for a few tears. She's mostly careful and controlled, and always aware of who's watching her. Going back to the point of shit hitting the fan, when Alya discovers Meryem and Mujgan in Cihan's room, she doesn't buy Meryem's story for a bit. When Cihan tries to calm the situation, she dismantles the sorry excuse Meryem gives with two questions. In other words, her spidey senses pick up trouble, but she keeps it locked in because she doesn't want to appear as the jealous, unreasonable wife. But things come to a head anyway when Feyyaz cuts Cihan and Alya off on the road. Cihan seems to finally realize exactly the kind of trouble Meryem has unleashed in their lives when Feyyaz keeps eyeing Alya. Because to Feyyaz's psychotic mind, Cihan is keeping Meryem away from him, which makes Alya fair game. But when Cihan insists Alya return to the konak, Alya flat out refuses, and all the pressure that's been building inside her gets directed at Cihan. She knows deep down he's not at fault, but the fact that he's jumped into another situation without thinking of the danger, grates on her nerves. Which is why her default setting kicks in; she demands that Cihan bring Deniz to her and leave the apartment. Cihan, who is already reeling from Alya pulling back from him and the reality of Feyyaz targeting the only thing he truly holds dear, is desperate to stop Alya's isolation before she decides he's not worth all the misery she's suffering, and does what's worked for him once before in a desperate situation (the airport, anyone?). He forgets everything, pulls Alya in, and kisses the breath out of her. And, it works too, because for that moment, Alya stops spiraling long enough to simply feel. To stop calculating danger or bracing for abandonment. She feels loved and safe in Cihan's arms again. That's what makes that kiss so powerful. It isn't just the passion. It's the desperation behind it, on both sides. Cihan isn't kissing Alya because he wants to win an argument. He's kissing her because he's terrified, and he misses her. He's worried that if she keeps retreating inward, one day she'll retreat so far he won't be able to reach her anymore. Worried that all the fear, exhaustion, and pressure she's carrying will eventually make her decide loving him isn't worth the cost. And Alya responds because beneath all her anger, fear, and exhaustion, she loves him just as desperately. That's the irony of CihAl this season. They're not going to pieces because the love is weakening. They're going to pieces because the love has become so enormous that losing it feels catastrophic to both of them. To conclude, everything within ep 60, including the kiss, works so beautifully because technically everyone is unraveling. Every woman in this episode is fighting to protect something she loves, but the ways they do so reveal who they are at their core. Alya protects by sacrificing parts of herself. Nare protects by risking herself. Sadakat protects by controlling others. Zerrin protects by enduring humiliation. And Meryem... Meryem protects the narratives she builds. Her emotions, while visible, don't land with impact, almost as if they're missing a core ingredient. On the opposite end of the spectrum lie CihAl, whose love strips them bare, only for them to realize that retreat is no option. The only way forward for them is through - through fear, through exhaustion, through jealousy, through danger, and through every ugly and painful thing that loving someone this deeply awakens inside them. Because CihAl are incapable of loving each other halfway. Their love keeps dragging every hidden wound, every insecurity, every instinct to the surface until there is nowhere left to hide. And maybe that’s the real contrast episode 60 quietly builds toward: one side clinging to carefully maintained facades, the other being emotionally dismantled by a love too raw and overwhelming to remain controlled. Till later, happy reading, y'all. #CihAl #UzakŞehir
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Analyzing Episode 60. Season 2 aka Motherhood Deconstructed I want to start this analysis with a disclaimer that I'll be writing about that kiss separately, because really, it deserves a post of its own. I'll talk about it here briefly, but this analysis will stick to the overall events of ep 60. To me, the main theme of this episode was motherhood. Be it Alya, Nare, Zerrin, Sadakat, and yes, even the dishrag. We see how these different women strive, suffer, and never stop trying to keep their children with them, all except one. So, let's begin. We start episode 60 with Alya and Cihan awaiting to conduct a DNA test on baby Simal, whom Kaya insists is his child. Long story short, Kaya is feeling a little pissed about Zerrin keeping the truth of Simal from him, and he has a point. But then, it's not like Zerrin has had a jolly good time pretending to play house with a creep like Demir. The only reason she relents is to keep her baby safe. So, it's a catch-22 situation, where both sides are right and wrong. But, it's not like we don't know these two will make up soon. What stood out to me in that sequence was Alya taking charge of ensuring Zerrin has access to her baby. She knows exactly what it is to be separated from one's child, and she's kind and brave enough to refuse to let anyone suffer through the same. So, in a way, Alya's motherhood doesn't just extend to Deniz. It encompasses her to the point where she shields all those she feels need protection. I also like the fact that she's taken Zerrin under her wing, because when the latter moves into the konak with Sadakat, she'll need all the help she can get. The next sequence begins at the hospital, where Nare is still hell-bent on continuing with the pregnancy, though at great risk to her life. This is another glimpse of motherhood the show gives us - in the shape of a woman who is so in love with her unborn child already, she's willing to risk death to bring it into the world. Contrasted to that is Sadakat, who's willing to lie or cheat to keep her daughter alive. Here is a ruthless kind of motherhood. Sadakat's love (if you can call it that) has always been wrapped in control, manipulation, and fear. But, still at the center of all her ugliness is a woman who doesn't want to lose her children. Nare is willing to die for her child, Sadakat is willing to kill Nare's child to ensure she lives - quite the compelling contrast. Different forms of motherhood, but both rooted in desperation. In the middle of all that, Meryem pops up like a bad penny. But even as she arrives in that room and Sadakat wants to keep her there, the awkward silence that envelops the space as she lingers is telling. She doesn't belong, it seems to say. But, there's another person who's starting to question their 'belonging' in this new version of the past that's come back - and of course, that's Alya. The more she sees Meryem infiltrate parts of her life beyond the konak, the more her exposed nerves are rubbed raw. This woman is so close to complete and utter exhaustion, it's heartbreaking. What's even more heartbreaking is that while she tries to be there for everyone, she herself cuts everyone off when she feels troubled. And that, to me, is where the episode quietly portrays the emotional labor aspect of being a mom. Alya mothers everyone around her. Nare, Zerrin, Kaya, and Deniz. Even Cihan at times. She absorbs pain, tries to stem chaos, protects others from falling apart, yet when it comes to her own fears and insecurities, she retreats inward completely. It's almost as if she believes she only deserves to be the shelter, never the one allowed to seek sanctuary. Because children who grow up thinking they've been abandoned grow up thinking love is a thing to be earned through caring or usefulness. So, instead of asking for comfort, they always end up providing it. But humans, even the strongest of the strong, have their limits. And, it's so clear that Alya is close to reaching hers. So, when Cihan is forced to relent and allow Mujgan and her son to the konak because Deniz wants it, Alya does what she does best - she withdraws and leaves the source of discomfort. That's why she tells Cihan she hates going to the konak now because every time she goes there, the spectre of Meryem and what she can snatch away becomes unavoidable. And, as blind as Cihan can be at times, he picks up on that. He knows exactly what she's trying to do, which is why he tries to redirect her attention to the fact that he hates going to the konak without Alya around, too. He wants to be wherever Alya is. In his own way, he's trying to tell her it doesn't matter who stays at that house; it's only home to Cihan when Alya is around. His words reach Alya, which is why she relents and visits the konak for a few hours, but then shit hits the fan again. We'll get to that, but first, let's talk about Meryem. Meryem's scene in the hospital with Mujgan reveals Meryem saying she can't tell Cihan about Serhat because she's not sure who the father is, and that she'd rather live in the hope that Serhat is the son of the man she loves, bla blah. Now, go back and think of all the versions of motherhood we've seen in this series, and indeed this episode. They all have one thing in common - that all the mothers did whatever they had to, and bore whatever came their way to ensure their babies stayed with them. No matter how much Alya, Zerrin, or Nare love their better halves, when push came to shove, they put their children first. Even Sadakat married Azem for Boran. All except one. Meryem. Meryem sent her son away and made it look like he was Mujgan's child, thereby erasing all his links to her. One could argue it was because she feared Feyyaz. But what's stopping her now? Let's assume what Meryem says is right and there's a 50 percent chance Serhat is Cihan's son. For a mother desperate to save her child from danger, those are pretty good odds, so why avoid the DNA test? Suppose Serhat turns out to be Feyyaz's son; even so, if she comes clean with Cihan, she knows he's the kind to help her, even if just to keep an innocent child safe. So, her version of motherhood sticks out like a sore thumb in the episode. In contrast, I found Alya's line, 'When it comes to my son, I put him before everything and everyone else,' much more fitting with the theme. Mothers on the defensive, who feel there's a threat to their child's wellbeing, will relent to even the most extreme measure - even if it tears their own being apart. Alya hates being away from Cihan. She hates that distance she imposes between them as much as Cihan, but she can't help it. Because the mother in her won't let her choose anything else. Which is why I say Serhat is almost like an afterthought to Meryem because his needs are never the focus. And I get the feeling that whatever Meryem is trying to hide threatens not her son, but likely the version of herself she's presented to the world. Even when I rewatched the kite flying scene, the way the camera pans into Serhat only once, but mostly focuses on Cihan and Alya after showing us Meryem is telling. Like this is a woman not going through hell because of her child, but because she's looking at a structure of acceptance she's no longer able to enter. Life at the konak, Cihan's family unit, his love for Alya and Deniz - it's everything that could have been hers once, but no longer. No matter how she tries, she no longer fits. And honestly, that’s why that sense of not belonging is even more overt in an episode about motherhood. Every other mother in this episode becomes messy because of love for their child. Nare breaks down. Zerrin panics. Sadakat manipulates openly. Alya practically emotionally disintegrates trying to hold everything together. Their feelings spill all over the place because motherhood, especially threatened motherhood, breaks people down. But Meryem remains oddly stoic throughout it all, except for a few tears. She's mostly careful and controlled, and always aware of who's watching her. Going back to the point of shit hitting the fan, when Alya discovers Meryem and Mujgan in Cihan's room, she doesn't buy Meryem's story for a bit. When Cihan tries to calm the situation, she dismantles the sorry excuse Meryem gives with two questions. In other words, her spidey senses pick up trouble, but she keeps it locked in because she doesn't want to appear as the jealous, unreasonable wife. But things come to a head anyway when Feyyaz cuts Cihan and Alya off on the road. Cihan seems to finally realize exactly the kind of trouble Meryem has unleashed in their lives when Feyyaz keeps eyeing Alya. Because to Feyyaz's psychotic mind, Cihan is keeping Meryem away from him, which makes Alya fair game. But when Cihan insists Alya return to the konak, Alya flat out refuses, and all the pressure that's been building inside her gets directed at Cihan. She knows deep down he's not at fault, but the fact that he's jumped into another situation without thinking of the danger, grates on her nerves. Which is why her default setting kicks in; she demands that Cihan bring Deniz to her and leave the apartment. Cihan, who is already reeling from Alya pulling back from him and the reality of Feyyaz targeting the only thing he truly holds dear, is desperate to stop Alya's isolation before she decides he's not worth all the misery she's suffering, and does what's worked for him once before in a desperate situation (the airport, anyone?). He forgets everything, pulls Alya in, and kisses the breath out of her. And, it works too, because for that moment, Alya stops spiraling long enough to simply feel. To stop calculating danger or bracing for abandonment. She feels loved and safe in Cihan's arms again. That's what makes that kiss so powerful. It isn't just the passion. It's the desperation behind it, on both sides. Cihan isn't kissing Alya because he wants to win an argument. He's kissing her because he's terrified, and he misses her. He's worried that if she keeps retreating inward, one day she'll retreat so far he won't be able to reach her anymore. Worried that all the fear, exhaustion, and pressure she's carrying will eventually make her decide loving him isn't worth the cost. And Alya responds because beneath all her anger, fear, and exhaustion, she loves him just as desperately. That's the irony of CihAl this season. They're not going to pieces because the love is weakening. They're going to pieces because the love has become so enormous that losing it feels catastrophic to both of them. To conclude, everything within ep 60, including the kiss, works so beautifully because technically everyone is unraveling. Every woman in this episode is fighting to protect something she loves, but the ways they do so reveal who they are at their core. Alya protects by sacrificing parts of herself. Nare protects by risking herself. Sadakat protects by controlling others. Zerrin protects by enduring humiliation. And Meryem... Meryem protects the narratives she builds. Her emotions, while visible, don't land with impact, almost as if they're missing a core ingredient. On the opposite end of the spectrum lie CihAl, whose love strips them bare, only for them to realize that retreat is no option. The only way forward for them is through - through fear, through exhaustion, through jealousy, through danger, and through every ugly and painful thing that loving someone this deeply awakens inside them. Because CihAl are incapable of loving each other halfway. Their love keeps dragging every hidden wound, every insecurity, every instinct to the surface until there is nowhere left to hide. And maybe that’s the real contrast episode 60 quietly builds toward: one side clinging to carefully maintained facades, the other being emotionally dismantled by a love too raw and overwhelming to remain controlled. Till later, happy reading, y'all. #CihAl #UzakŞehir

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