This isn’t some abstract idea. This is methodical, and this is not who I am’. But we had to go to this event, and I remember him saying, ‘I don’t think you can go’. And I said, ‘I can’t be left alone’.

And I remember this conversation like it was yesterday, because they said, ‘My heart goes out to you, because I see how bad it is, but there’s nothing we can do to protect you because you’re not a paid employee of the institution’.

But I knew that if I didn’t say it, that I would do it. And I . . . I just didn’t . . . I just didn’t want to be alive any more. And that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought.

And every time that those lights went down in that Royal Box, I was just weeping, and he was gripping my hand. And then, it was, ‘OK, intermission’s coming, the lights are about to come on, everyone’s looking at us again’, and you have to just be on again.

Lucy - It was just gloomy. Like she was just kind of disappearing inside herself. Abigail - I'd never seen her like that. It was hard. It's very hard to talk about. I was really scared.

Doria - Well, I knew that it was bad. But to just constantly be,picked at by these vultures... Uh, just picking away at her spirit. That she would actually think of not wanting to be here. That's not an easy one for a mom to hear.

Breaks my heart every time. To know this woman fell in love that is all she did and they wanted to destroy her completely! Sick cult!

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