this shit makes me ugly cry

and the punishment was beyond belief: even when we could see it, we could not believe it

here's the full note in the book

The fact that he put himself in there is also heart breaking. (To Phil.)

Now it will make me ugly cry the next time I rewatch this

And being Philip K Dick there is notorious tendency here towards paranoic exaggeration as well.The best resource is probably the Lawrence Sutin biography

The movie is good. The book is great, and truly a difficult read. Does a similar thing in the book and it makes me sick man. PKD is a legend

okay i haven't watched this since it came out on DVD i must've been in 7th or 8th grade, i have GOT to check this out