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why i had to kill my beloved electron beam project after running the numbers and working through the failure modes, I just cant justify this machine anymore its a high voltage death trap this design needs 30–60 kV to drive a usable beam that’s insta dead territory insulation, arcing,...

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Pheonix 𝕏1 year ago

link to the video keep in mind this is only 200grams worth of powder in a printer you will have dozens if not hundreds of pounds of this in one area

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Pheonix 𝕏1 year ago

terror

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outside five sigma1 year ago

theres a new ebeam litho tool at stanford that arcs almost every other month it's not even funny anymore, thankfully no powder of any form allowed in there..

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Pheonix 𝕏1 year ago

excuse me WHAT

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As a former CRT engineer, I will say that your absolutely right that this project would be pretty challenging. My main issue is that if your workpiece is in the same vacuum envelope as the electron gun you will have major issues with outgassing from the workpiece poisoning the cathode and reducing electron emission. I ran experiments where I validated cleaning/decontamination methods by enclosing electron guns from our commercial projection product in sections of glass neck tubing but instead of an aluminized screen I put small pieces of stainless steel that had gone through different cleaning steps in front of the guns and connected them to the 40kv anode supply. By biasing the tube on to a specific beam current under a given set of conditions and monitoring the decline in beam current as the steel target outgassed, I figured I could determine how effective a given protocol was. This turned out to be incredibly effective method with a HUGE delta between control samples and the 3 methods I was evaluating. The biggest takeaway was that even stuff most people would consider extremely 'clean" is just NOT. The control samples got: Bright dip (heated solution of strong acids to remove the surface layers of metal) Ultrasonic bath in 18MΩ deionized water Ultrasonic bath in acetone Ultrasonic bath in isopropyl alcohol Final bath in deionized water 24hrs min in an argon purged cabinet at 250 degrees When these were hit with the electron beam, the emission at a given bias level fell 95-99%+ in 3 minutes. The evaluation samples got, in addition to all of the above, either: Partial pressure hydrogen (5% hydrogen/95% argon introduced in a vacuum) firing at 1200C Hydrogen firing at 1200C (hydrogen flow-through furnace with a natural gas flare to burn the hydrogen at the far end) Plasma cleaning Various combinations of the above. The best performing samples got both partial pressure hydrogen firing AND plasma cleaning. Their emission drop was between 3 and 5% at the 3-minute mark but unless you are prepared to go through all that with all your workpieces you would probably have major cathode poisoning issues. Of course, you could always keep the workpiece and gun envelopes separate, but that presents all sorts of issues on its own. I love the IDEA of welding with an electron beam because you can use magnetic or electrostatic deflection to move the beam over a weld path electronically but there are a LOT of potential issues that make me think a laser is just way easier.

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Pheonix 𝕏1 year ago

yeah , normally on these you have a chamber pump and a beam column pump (pumps) do you recall what your electrons sources were in those days ? for additive we use Lanthanum hexaboride since it has a much lower work function than tungsten wire and it last considerably longer

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Lumonic•Photo1 year ago

I decided the same on my e-beam system. Mine wasn’t as high voltage, only 10kv, but it was 1.5 amps. I sneeze wrong and I die.

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Pheonix 𝕏1 year ago

e beam is not even that high…. what were you making 💀👀👀👀

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NEOAethyr1 year ago

Oh you're working on an EBM ? I always wondered if you could just break open old vacuum tubes and do this. (minus the problem with mercury)

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Pheonix 𝕏1 year ago

LMAO you mean like this , my first experiments were doing just that I DO NOT RECOMEND MESSING WITH CRT TUBES , THE FLYBACK TRANSFORMERS IN THESE TVS ARE SCARY AS HELL YEE BEEEEE WARNEE

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Brian Roemmele

80,375 views • 3 years ago

I know a setup like this for many people would look cool and convenient but hear me out. I would only utilize something like this while parked in a camping area with other people. I would not use this by myself in the middle of the woods like this. I don’t feel they are safe and I’ll explain why. First off and most importantly, I don’t see a safe way to secure it. It’s all thin plastic sheeting meant to be waterproof but can be easily cut to gain access. If anyone wanted to cause harm or rob you, all they have to do is cut through the sheeting and they would have access to everything. It wouldn’t be hard to break into this. Then I look at how long it takes to setup, while it shows one person can set this up by themselves. Look at how long it takes to do this, it’s very impractical. I feel something like this that’s an add on to a vehicle should be much easier, like pushing a button and everything is pops out by itself. In an emergency I couldn’t imagine trying to fold things back in the right way while trying to escape. Could you imagine trying to outrun a bear in this only for it to be ripped off by tree branches cause you couldn’t fold it in time? The scenario I’m thinking of is what if I am being chased by a wild animal like a wolf or a bear. I couldn’t just hop in my Jeep and take off with this setup. Everything is folded out and tethered into the ground. It’s not like a traditional tent I could leave behind. If I was out camping with friends for a few days I think this could be ok. But doing a van life of camping for months at a time during the summer months wouldn’t be safe or practical as a solid unit like a standard RV. I wouldn’t be comfortable or safe in something like this.
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I know a setup like this for many people would look cool and convenient but hear me out. I would only utilize something like this while parked in a camping area with other people. I would not use this by myself in the middle of the woods like this. I don’t feel they are safe and I’ll explain why. First off and most importantly, I don’t see a safe way to secure it. It’s all thin plastic sheeting meant to be waterproof but can be easily cut to gain access. If anyone wanted to cause harm or rob you, all they have to do is cut through the sheeting and they would have access to everything. It wouldn’t be hard to break into this. Then I look at how long it takes to setup, while it shows one person can set this up by themselves. Look at how long it takes to do this, it’s very impractical. I feel something like this that’s an add on to a vehicle should be much easier, like pushing a button and everything is pops out by itself. In an emergency I couldn’t imagine trying to fold things back in the right way while trying to escape. Could you imagine trying to outrun a bear in this only for it to be ripped off by tree branches cause you couldn’t fold it in time? The scenario I’m thinking of is what if I am being chased by a wild animal like a wolf or a bear. I couldn’t just hop in my Jeep and take off with this setup. Everything is folded out and tethered into the ground. It’s not like a traditional tent I could leave behind. If I was out camping with friends for a few days I think this could be ok. But doing a van life of camping for months at a time during the summer months wouldn’t be safe or practical as a solid unit like a standard RV. I wouldn’t be comfortable or safe in something like this.

SonnyBoy🇺🇸

408,899 views • 2 months ago

Brian Armstrong (Brian Armstrong ) on why founder-led companies are special: Brian: We thought maybe 50% of the company would resign. David: What would've happened if 50% of the company resigned? Brian: We would've built it all back. This is actually a very important point because I think there's a big difference between a founder and a presider of a company. I know that I could build it back because I started it when it was just me on a laptop. And I was there when it was 10 people and 100 people and 1,000 people. And if we need to go from 2000 to 1000 that's not a big deal to me. I could go back to being on my laptop again if I had to. There's this great Lee Kuan Yew [founder of Singapore] speech that he gave when he was dealing with a strike that was happening. He says in this speech, and it gives me chills every time, he says I sat across the table from them and said get back to work. I will not allow you to bring this country down. And if you don’t do it, I’m prepared to rebuild it all from scratch again. And he said anyone who rules Singapore has to have iron in their veins. I will rebuild it all from scratch. I was watching videos like that and was like this is what I need to do as a leader. It was very inspiring. There are moments like that. You have to stand up and say: We're going in this direction and if you're not on board with it, that’s okay, you can leave. But we're going this way. That's leadership.
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Brian Armstrong (Brian Armstrong ) on why founder-led companies are special: Brian: We thought maybe 50% of the company would resign. David: What would've happened if 50% of the company resigned? Brian: We would've built it all back. This is actually a very important point because I think there's a big difference between a founder and a presider of a company. I know that I could build it back because I started it when it was just me on a laptop. And I was there when it was 10 people and 100 people and 1,000 people. And if we need to go from 2000 to 1000 that's not a big deal to me. I could go back to being on my laptop again if I had to. There's this great Lee Kuan Yew [founder of Singapore] speech that he gave when he was dealing with a strike that was happening. He says in this speech, and it gives me chills every time, he says I sat across the table from them and said get back to work. I will not allow you to bring this country down. And if you don’t do it, I’m prepared to rebuild it all from scratch again. And he said anyone who rules Singapore has to have iron in their veins. I will rebuild it all from scratch. I was watching videos like that and was like this is what I need to do as a leader. It was very inspiring. There are moments like that. You have to stand up and say: We're going in this direction and if you're not on board with it, that’s okay, you can leave. But we're going this way. That's leadership.

David Senra

100,936 views • 5 months ago

250709 | #ATEEZ #Hongjoong on how creative expression beyond music inspires his growth as an artist , TOKTOQ pop (voice) live (rough translation): I’m also studying design and slowly creating things on my own, step by step. I’ve said something similar before, but honestly - who knows what might happen in the distant future, right? For now, though, I’m still in the process of learning more about myself - my tastes, my design style, and how I work. And I know that if I ever do create something, our ATINYs would definitely take interest and support it. But as I continue getting to know myself, I just want to say - and I’ll say this clearly - I have absolutely no intention of starting a brand or selling anything at this point. Not even a little bit. Right now, I just see this - working and designing - as another way of expressing myself. That’s all it is. At least for now, I don’t have any plans beyond that. So I know there are people who hope I might do something more with this, and on the other hand, there may also be some fans who start to wonder, “Is he planning something?” - and maybe feel a bit uneasy about it. Because it could seem like I’m taking on too much or not focusing on my main work. But I’m very aware of that myself, and honestly, I don’t want that to happen. I really don’t. So to be clear - I’ll say it firmly - I don’t have any such plans right now. It all started simply because I wanted to try wearing clothes from different brands, and eventually, I thought, “I want to wear what I want,” or “I want to create something I’d like to wear.” That’s the situation I’m in. I just want to keep expressing myself. As long as it doesn’t become a burden for me or interfere with my schedule, I’d love to keep doing fun and creative things and share them with our ATINYs. So… it’s really just that. Since I’ve been using something like a stylized “HJ” - kind of like a personal mark - some people might start thinking, “Oh, is he launching a brand?” But absolutely not. That’s not the case at all. I’ve just been adding that mark to the clothes I make because I think it looks nice, and it kind of makes it feel like it’s mine. That’s really all there is to it. To be honest, I do want to make a tag eventually, but the design isn’t fully clear in my head yet - I haven’t figured it out. So for now, I’m just using the logo that’s in my mind. And honestly, it’s not like I’m trying to hide anything or doing something secretly behind my members’ backs. I just wanted to talk about it openly and put it out there. Because that way, I can really have fun with it. And if our ATINYs say, “Oh, that looks nice,” then I can just feel happy about it as it is. And even if I end up making something that doesn’t turn out so great sometimes, if ATINYs say, “You made that?” - even that, I can just laugh and enjoy it for what it is. So that’s what it is. That’s really the reason. Continuously creating - not just in music, but in other areas too - gives me so much energy. And I truly believe that this kind of creativity brings new inspiration to my performances as well. I think that’s what it is - the process of constantly making something new gives me another kind of drive, another kind of motivation. That’s what it feels like to me. So… that’s why I enjoy it. And honestly, that’s also why - even more so - I feel more motivated when it comes to things like choreography practice, or even just the basics of rapping. It makes me want to put in even more effort.
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250709 | #ATEEZ #Hongjoong on how creative expression beyond music inspires his growth as an artist , TOKTOQ pop (voice) live (rough translation): I’m also studying design and slowly creating things on my own, step by step. I’ve said something similar before, but honestly - who knows what might happen in the distant future, right? For now, though, I’m still in the process of learning more about myself - my tastes, my design style, and how I work. And I know that if I ever do create something, our ATINYs would definitely take interest and support it. But as I continue getting to know myself, I just want to say - and I’ll say this clearly - I have absolutely no intention of starting a brand or selling anything at this point. Not even a little bit. Right now, I just see this - working and designing - as another way of expressing myself. That’s all it is. At least for now, I don’t have any plans beyond that. So I know there are people who hope I might do something more with this, and on the other hand, there may also be some fans who start to wonder, “Is he planning something?” - and maybe feel a bit uneasy about it. Because it could seem like I’m taking on too much or not focusing on my main work. But I’m very aware of that myself, and honestly, I don’t want that to happen. I really don’t. So to be clear - I’ll say it firmly - I don’t have any such plans right now. It all started simply because I wanted to try wearing clothes from different brands, and eventually, I thought, “I want to wear what I want,” or “I want to create something I’d like to wear.” That’s the situation I’m in. I just want to keep expressing myself. As long as it doesn’t become a burden for me or interfere with my schedule, I’d love to keep doing fun and creative things and share them with our ATINYs. So… it’s really just that. Since I’ve been using something like a stylized “HJ” - kind of like a personal mark - some people might start thinking, “Oh, is he launching a brand?” But absolutely not. That’s not the case at all. I’ve just been adding that mark to the clothes I make because I think it looks nice, and it kind of makes it feel like it’s mine. That’s really all there is to it. To be honest, I do want to make a tag eventually, but the design isn’t fully clear in my head yet - I haven’t figured it out. So for now, I’m just using the logo that’s in my mind. And honestly, it’s not like I’m trying to hide anything or doing something secretly behind my members’ backs. I just wanted to talk about it openly and put it out there. Because that way, I can really have fun with it. And if our ATINYs say, “Oh, that looks nice,” then I can just feel happy about it as it is. And even if I end up making something that doesn’t turn out so great sometimes, if ATINYs say, “You made that?” - even that, I can just laugh and enjoy it for what it is. So that’s what it is. That’s really the reason. Continuously creating - not just in music, but in other areas too - gives me so much energy. And I truly believe that this kind of creativity brings new inspiration to my performances as well. I think that’s what it is - the process of constantly making something new gives me another kind of drive, another kind of motivation. That’s what it feels like to me. So… that’s why I enjoy it. And honestly, that’s also why - even more so - I feel more motivated when it comes to things like choreography practice, or even just the basics of rapping. It makes me want to put in even more effort.

Irene | AhgaTiny🍋

27,502 views • 1 year ago

This Illinois woman says she doesn’t always like the way Trump speaks or talks or the way he does things, but…. “But now, the first President to come along that said I’m not going to allow this anymore, I’m not gonna’ allow you to fill your pockets, I’m not gonna allow everyone to just run amuck, is in office. And I don’t like everything he says, and I don’t like everything he does or the way he does it, but the one thing we have to remember is he’s not a politician. He’s a business man and he’s running this country as a business to make us be the better business than all the other businesses out there, which is a good thing. You may not agree with the National Guard coming in. I do! I agree whole heartedly with the National Guard coming in because in Illinois we have a Governor and a Mayor of Chicago that think it’s okay for 50 people to be k****d in a weekend or 300 people s**t in a month. They think that’s okay. Carjackings- ‘nah, we’re not going to prosecute.z’ And the sanctuary state and the sanctuary city has bled Illinois dry. Personally, I’m over it. Whatever you have to do Trump, get ‘em in here. Get these Governors and these Mayors out that are refusing to follow Federal Law that’s been set up….you don’t get to disagree with and break the law that’s been set up, to say Illinois is a sanctuary city and you’re going to fight ICE. …You don’t have to like him (Trump), but if he’s doing what’s good for the country, you gotta’ like what he’s doing.” 100% correct ma’am. 100%. You may not like the boss but if the boss is making the country safer and better than before, you have to like the job he is doing. People are fed up. As she said, go get ‘em Mr. President. The majority that elected you, supports you.
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This Illinois woman says she doesn’t always like the way Trump speaks or talks or the way he does things, but…. “But now, the first President to come along that said I’m not going to allow this anymore, I’m not gonna’ allow you to fill your pockets, I’m not gonna allow everyone to just run amuck, is in office. And I don’t like everything he says, and I don’t like everything he does or the way he does it, but the one thing we have to remember is he’s not a politician. He’s a business man and he’s running this country as a business to make us be the better business than all the other businesses out there, which is a good thing. You may not agree with the National Guard coming in. I do! I agree whole heartedly with the National Guard coming in because in Illinois we have a Governor and a Mayor of Chicago that think it’s okay for 50 people to be k****d in a weekend or 300 people s**t in a month. They think that’s okay. Carjackings- ‘nah, we’re not going to prosecute.z’ And the sanctuary state and the sanctuary city has bled Illinois dry. Personally, I’m over it. Whatever you have to do Trump, get ‘em in here. Get these Governors and these Mayors out that are refusing to follow Federal Law that’s been set up….you don’t get to disagree with and break the law that’s been set up, to say Illinois is a sanctuary city and you’re going to fight ICE. …You don’t have to like him (Trump), but if he’s doing what’s good for the country, you gotta’ like what he’s doing.” 100% correct ma’am. 100%. You may not like the boss but if the boss is making the country safer and better than before, you have to like the job he is doing. People are fed up. As she said, go get ‘em Mr. President. The majority that elected you, supports you.

👉M-Û-R-Č-H👈

777,144 views • 9 months ago

Rick Rubin tells Andrew Huberman how he deals with creative or writer’s block. He treats his work like a diary entry (and doesn’t worry about internal or external judgment): ➡️ “What's the cause of the block? The block is usually something that's either personal ("I'm not good enough") or it can be a confidence issue ("I don't have anything to say") or it could be...thinking about someone else ("nobody's going to like what I make"). Do you know what I'm saying? So, it's either fear of self-judgment or external judgment. If you're making something with a freedom of "this is something I'm making for myself for now", that is all [you have to do]. It is a diary entry. Everything I make is a diary entry. The beauty of a diary entry is that I can write my diary entry and you can't tell me that my diary entry wasn't good enough. Or that [the diary entry] is not what I experienced. Of course it's what I experienced: I'm writing a personal diary for myself and no one else can judge if it is my experience of my life. Everything we make can be that: a personal reflection of who we are in that moment of time. It doesn't have to be the greatest you could ever do. It doesn't have to have any expectation that it's going to change the world. It doesn't have to sell a certain number of copies for any reason. It doesn't have any of those things at all. It is "I'm making this thing for me and I want to do it to the best of my ability and to where I feel good about it". [The work] is honest of where I'm at and if you're living in this world of just being honest to where you're at, there's nothing blocking you. There are no blocks. The blocks are all based on dealing with a different force or a different perception that is made up.” ⬅️
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Rick Rubin tells Andrew Huberman how he deals with creative or writer’s block. He treats his work like a diary entry (and doesn’t worry about internal or external judgment): ➡️ “What's the cause of the block? The block is usually something that's either personal ("I'm not good enough") or it can be a confidence issue ("I don't have anything to say") or it could be...thinking about someone else ("nobody's going to like what I make"). Do you know what I'm saying? So, it's either fear of self-judgment or external judgment. If you're making something with a freedom of "this is something I'm making for myself for now", that is all [you have to do]. It is a diary entry. Everything I make is a diary entry. The beauty of a diary entry is that I can write my diary entry and you can't tell me that my diary entry wasn't good enough. Or that [the diary entry] is not what I experienced. Of course it's what I experienced: I'm writing a personal diary for myself and no one else can judge if it is my experience of my life. Everything we make can be that: a personal reflection of who we are in that moment of time. It doesn't have to be the greatest you could ever do. It doesn't have to have any expectation that it's going to change the world. It doesn't have to sell a certain number of copies for any reason. It doesn't have any of those things at all. It is "I'm making this thing for me and I want to do it to the best of my ability and to where I feel good about it". [The work] is honest of where I'm at and if you're living in this world of just being honest to where you're at, there's nothing blocking you. There are no blocks. The blocks are all based on dealing with a different force or a different perception that is made up.” ⬅️

Trung Phan

1,619,840 views • 2 years ago

Charlie Sheen reveals he came within seconds of accidentally snorting heroin in Hamburg in 1993 and decided the drug was too dangerous to ever try “Heroin is the one drug that I that I never did.” “I saw heroin as, I would do it once and die, or do it once and then need to do it every day for a long time until I died, you know?” “I was doing musketeers, but I had to leave and come back through Germany and I stopped off in Hamburg, right? And I was with this limo driver and I said, 'Can you get me some some shit?' Right? And I thought he knew I meant cocaine.” “He goes into a bar. He comes back out and he hands a bindle into the back seat, right? So I open it up. It's super dark. I grab like a glob of it. I don't even have a spoon or a knife or anything. And I grab a glob and I've got it up to my nose.” “We pass, we're on this super dark street. He's going about 30 miles an hour. It's about 2:00 in the morning and there's one light from this pub, like the thinnest, dimmest light you can imagine, that catches the bindle for like a 50th of a second and I see that it's brown.” “And I get to hear and I'm like, 'Hey, whoa, whoa, whoa. Uh, sir, um, I uh this is not this is not the shit that I was hoping for.'”
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Charlie Sheen reveals he came within seconds of accidentally snorting heroin in Hamburg in 1993 and decided the drug was too dangerous to ever try “Heroin is the one drug that I that I never did.” “I saw heroin as, I would do it once and die, or do it once and then need to do it every day for a long time until I died, you know?” “I was doing musketeers, but I had to leave and come back through Germany and I stopped off in Hamburg, right? And I was with this limo driver and I said, 'Can you get me some some shit?' Right? And I thought he knew I meant cocaine.” “He goes into a bar. He comes back out and he hands a bindle into the back seat, right? So I open it up. It's super dark. I grab like a glob of it. I don't even have a spoon or a knife or anything. And I grab a glob and I've got it up to my nose.” “We pass, we're on this super dark street. He's going about 30 miles an hour. It's about 2:00 in the morning and there's one light from this pub, like the thinnest, dimmest light you can imagine, that catches the bindle for like a 50th of a second and I see that it's brown.” “And I get to hear and I'm like, 'Hey, whoa, whoa, whoa. Uh, sir, um, I uh this is not this is not the shit that I was hoping for.'”

Hribi

95,577 views • 2 months ago

231022 Fate in Chicago #JAY about his Physical Health Issue 🐈‍⬛: Honestly, I kinda have a big physical health issues in this tour. Some of the fans already noticed it, yeah it's actually the tape on my knees. All the members and the people in the send off or soundcheck just ask me always "are you okay?" "can you handle this?" "is it fine?" I always acted like it was okay. Actually me and the company, just planned to skip a few concerts but as you know I didn't want to make that happen. If I skip the concert and announce that our Engenes would not believe and also they could not enjoy the whole show, I don't want to see that and make you sad. I just felt that it was not my job, my job is first to make my fans happy and not to make them worry. I just wanted to say that I was able to stand with my two legs at the end of our tour this year because of you guys. #제이 #ジェイ #엔하이픈_제이 #ENHYPEN_JAY #ENHYPEN
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231022 Fate in Chicago #JAY about his Physical Health Issue 🐈‍⬛: Honestly, I kinda have a big physical health issues in this tour. Some of the fans already noticed it, yeah it's actually the tape on my knees. All the members and the people in the send off or soundcheck just ask me always "are you okay?" "can you handle this?" "is it fine?" I always acted like it was okay. Actually me and the company, just planned to skip a few concerts but as you know I didn't want to make that happen. If I skip the concert and announce that our Engenes would not believe and also they could not enjoy the whole show, I don't want to see that and make you sad. I just felt that it was not my job, my job is first to make my fans happy and not to make them worry. I just wanted to say that I was able to stand with my two legs at the end of our tour this year because of you guys. #제이 #ジェイ #엔하이픈_제이 #ENHYPEN_JAY #ENHYPEN

france🩵

87,420 views • 2 years ago

“I was trying purposefully not to be clever with this. I wanted to get a very simple chorus but one which still had some substance to the harmony and melody. Something that was easy to digest but still had a bit of character to it. So Much is about mortality, getting old, all the bright, cheerful subjects, but I think when you get to my sort of age, you either run away from mortality or you jump into it and try and live life to the full and that always seems to make a lot more sense to me. The countries that seem most alive are those that have death as part of their culture.” - pg
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“I was trying purposefully not to be clever with this. I wanted to get a very simple chorus but one which still had some substance to the harmony and melody. Something that was easy to digest but still had a bit of character to it. So Much is about mortality, getting old, all the bright, cheerful subjects, but I think when you get to my sort of age, you either run away from mortality or you jump into it and try and live life to the full and that always seems to make a lot more sense to me. The countries that seem most alive are those that have death as part of their culture.” - pg

Peter Gabriel

54,214 views • 2 years ago

Weingarten: It’s really only the Congress that can abolish the Department of Education. So, what the president can do is make government basically ineffective—not work—by a thousand cuts. And that’s what they’re doing. So, if you essentially fire the entire staff, or 80% of the staff, of Social Security, and somebody needs to get a Social Security card, they’re not going to be able to get it in a timely way. If you fire everybody who’s doing hurricane watch, you’re not going to have hurricane watch… The same is true in terms of education. If you fire everybody, or you make it unfeasible for it to work, then none of the laws that are supposed to be effectuated by the department will work. So, if Title I is supposed to go to a high school in Staten Island, and they’re supposed to get $5 million that goes there, and all of a sudden it doesn’t, and they don’t have the money, then that means the programs go away. That means the reading programs, the computer programs, the after-school programs—all the programs that are funded by Title I, and every schoolteacher in America understands what that means—they go away. The same goes for the programs for kids with disabilities under IDEA. If a school system, or a school—because these things go directly to schools—if the funding goes away, a kid doesn’t get physical therapy or occupational therapy
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Weingarten: It’s really only the Congress that can abolish the Department of Education. So, what the president can do is make government basically ineffective—not work—by a thousand cuts. And that’s what they’re doing. So, if you essentially fire the entire staff, or 80% of the staff, of Social Security, and somebody needs to get a Social Security card, they’re not going to be able to get it in a timely way. If you fire everybody who’s doing hurricane watch, you’re not going to have hurricane watch… The same is true in terms of education. If you fire everybody, or you make it unfeasible for it to work, then none of the laws that are supposed to be effectuated by the department will work. So, if Title I is supposed to go to a high school in Staten Island, and they’re supposed to get $5 million that goes there, and all of a sudden it doesn’t, and they don’t have the money, then that means the programs go away. That means the reading programs, the computer programs, the after-school programs—all the programs that are funded by Title I, and every schoolteacher in America understands what that means—they go away. The same goes for the programs for kids with disabilities under IDEA. If a school system, or a school—because these things go directly to schools—if the funding goes away, a kid doesn’t get physical therapy or occupational therapy

Acyn

613,586 views • 1 year ago

mark’s speech for the world, at the world environment day 2026 “hello everybody, my name is mark lee. it is an honor to be here today. thank you so much for inviting me to world environment day and to Azerbaijan here in Baku. it is a beautiful city. before i sing you guys a song, i would like to tell you a short story. i visited kenya earlier this year, and at that time, i was going through a very important time in my life. i had to make a very important decision for my career and for my life. and so i had a lot of people giving me advice, asking me questions that i didn’t really know the answer to. i was going through a strange, confusing period of time. but i was in kenya and so i went on a safari. i saw so many beautiful animals, and i saw a lion. and at that moment, i kind of realized that sometimes its not really important to know the answer to all these questions or to know if you’re perfectly ready for everything, but rather whether you’re willing to take the next step toward real change. so i made this song in kenya. its called “ready or not” and if i am correct and if we’re all getting the same memo, i do believe that our planet is asking us the same question. not whether we’re ready, but whether we’re willing to raise our voices and take this step. whether we’re willing to care enough to create real change. i believe our souls all have this longing for a better world and i think thats one of the truest pieces of evidence there is that a better world could exist for everybody.”
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mark’s speech for the world, at the world environment day 2026 “hello everybody, my name is mark lee. it is an honor to be here today. thank you so much for inviting me to world environment day and to Azerbaijan here in Baku. it is a beautiful city. before i sing you guys a song, i would like to tell you a short story. i visited kenya earlier this year, and at that time, i was going through a very important time in my life. i had to make a very important decision for my career and for my life. and so i had a lot of people giving me advice, asking me questions that i didn’t really know the answer to. i was going through a strange, confusing period of time. but i was in kenya and so i went on a safari. i saw so many beautiful animals, and i saw a lion. and at that moment, i kind of realized that sometimes its not really important to know the answer to all these questions or to know if you’re perfectly ready for everything, but rather whether you’re willing to take the next step toward real change. so i made this song in kenya. its called “ready or not” and if i am correct and if we’re all getting the same memo, i do believe that our planet is asking us the same question. not whether we’re ready, but whether we’re willing to raise our voices and take this step. whether we’re willing to care enough to create real change. i believe our souls all have this longing for a better world and i think thats one of the truest pieces of evidence there is that a better world could exist for everybody.”

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152,112 views • 2 months ago

This happens all the time! This is why I feel like I'm not worth myself! This is why I feel like I cant grow! This is twitch actively nerfing my account every time I go live! The audience didn't leave they were still in the chat! When I asked twitch for help, I got an automated incomplete response that said "everything looks" . I am so tired of fighting this and have pleaded with twitch, Daniel Clancy and have told the VP FACE TO FACE about this issue and still nothing has been done! Why? I'm small potatoes no one cares and no one will even put an iota of time into solving this issue! This has been a constant every day for over 2 years and I cannot express how defeated I absolutely feel every time I press start to immediately have my audience ignored by twitch. I know some of you are going to say its not all about the numbers and if you enjoy it, it shouldn't matter. Unfortunately the ultimate truth is we are heavily judged on our CPM by everyone, potential partners, sponsors, collaborative opportunities and even by twitch themselves. So yes, it does matter. It matters a lot and worst part is no one, will take this issue seriously! I have literally 120 days of information from twitches 9th longest subathon (unrecognized of course as again small potatoes) that would absolutely show this being a consistent issue. I don't know what to do, I am at wits end here and I every time I see this happen to me I just want to curl up into a ball and let the world wash over me. I need help, i need someone to look at this, because I have dedicated my life to entertaining individuals and I do this full time, I dedicate 8 hours a day every day for the past 2 years to this company and the only thing I get is ignored. I know this is a lot and it looks like just some random person complaining, but I need some way to get this in the right hands and not the automated jarble that I've been getting. Its even been acknowledged in the past by a tech for twitch that something might be up. Again, I know I'm not big but were all working under the same logo and should all be taken care of equally! Twitch
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This happens all the time! This is why I feel like I'm not worth myself! This is why I feel like I cant grow! This is twitch actively nerfing my account every time I go live! The audience didn't leave they were still in the chat! When I asked twitch for help, I got an automated incomplete response that said "everything looks" . I am so tired of fighting this and have pleaded with twitch, Daniel Clancy and have told the VP FACE TO FACE about this issue and still nothing has been done! Why? I'm small potatoes no one cares and no one will even put an iota of time into solving this issue! This has been a constant every day for over 2 years and I cannot express how defeated I absolutely feel every time I press start to immediately have my audience ignored by twitch. I know some of you are going to say its not all about the numbers and if you enjoy it, it shouldn't matter. Unfortunately the ultimate truth is we are heavily judged on our CPM by everyone, potential partners, sponsors, collaborative opportunities and even by twitch themselves. So yes, it does matter. It matters a lot and worst part is no one, will take this issue seriously! I have literally 120 days of information from twitches 9th longest subathon (unrecognized of course as again small potatoes) that would absolutely show this being a consistent issue. I don't know what to do, I am at wits end here and I every time I see this happen to me I just want to curl up into a ball and let the world wash over me. I need help, i need someone to look at this, because I have dedicated my life to entertaining individuals and I do this full time, I dedicate 8 hours a day every day for the past 2 years to this company and the only thing I get is ignored. I know this is a lot and it looks like just some random person complaining, but I need some way to get this in the right hands and not the automated jarble that I've been getting. Its even been acknowledged in the past by a tech for twitch that something might be up. Again, I know I'm not big but were all working under the same logo and should all be taken care of equally! Twitch

Frosted Fricks 💣🐦‍⬛

21,589 views • 1 year ago