ijustlovepuzzles
@ijustlovepuzzl1 • 15,115 subscribers
Granny puzzler. Storyteller. Twitch Ambassador. 2025 Hidden Gem and 3X BIPOC award winner. I ❤️ people. Business inquiries: [email protected]
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$2,000 hug goes to pokimane 🥳🥳🥳 Thank you for making me feel like a peer. Being in a room full of multimillionaires, I was never made to feel out of place. Because I hadn't attended a formal event in over 20 years, I totally underestimated the cost of showing up to the streamer awards. The hotel, 3 nights parking at the hotel, rental car, and gas were over $2K. Thanks to all of you who contributed I didn't have to show up in sweats. I'll know better next year. 👀
ijustlovepuzzles1,032,230 views • 6 months ago
I am suffering. Tonight I just need somebody to hear me. It would help if I could go live but I can't make it to the table. I'm so disgusted with how my health has been mismanaged. I have been to the ER several times because the pain I'm in is unbearable. I've had MRIs, CT scans, ultrasounds, all kinds of labs and cultures. I've been admitted for pain control and observation three times. I just found out that I've had a kidney infection since December. DECEMBER! I don't know how I lived with it this long. My insurance sent this booklet to my home when I was released from the hospital one of the first times. I thought it was an error because nobody mentioned chronic kidney disease and nobody treated me for an ongoing infection. I checked all the lab results and read all the physician notes. Imagine seeing recurrent UTIs every visit but never any treatment... It's not recurring, it never left. They ran an IV so quick I could feel my bladder filling. They gave me a dose of antibiotics through the bag and sent me home with capsules. I was hoping that I'd feel better as the infection cleared but I'm halfway done and no relief. I'm still having pelvic pain and bleeding. Today I was finally referred to Sutter and UC Davis to meet with the gyn who'll do my surgery. This is after I had appointments with doctors who couldn't even do the surgery. On top of that, I was being referred to the same office of the doctor who nearly gutted me January 2025 and then wouldn't return calls to me or the hospital. I said I'm not going to that office. They assured me it would be with a different doctor in the group. The same group that hired him after he was found to be treating women beyond the scope of his license. NO THANKS! I don't know how this is going to turn out, but I do know that it started August 2024 and I'm tired of hurting and bleeding, being nauseous, and wearing pads and diapers. I have fibroids that weren't there in the beginning, cysts growing in my ovaries, and urinary incontinence. What's scarier than all of that is I'm having cognitive issues. I'm having difficulty figuring out simple things and remembering things from the same day. It's really feeling like the twilight zone.
ijustlovepuzzles115,671 views • 1 month ago
I've been missing your company. I came really close to checking into a mental hospital. I haven't needed that kind of saving since the late 90's. I'm so frustrated with my health, and feeling that I'm not in control, that I didn't trust myself. I got the lower back MRI results today. It shows bulging discs, arthritis, and stenosis. I feel defeated and broken. There's no lower rung for me. Tonight I'm trying to turn things around with the one thing that has helped me- my stream. My heartbeat. I'm going live now. Not sure how long I'll last but I know this is my only hope. Join me here:
ijustlovepuzzles61,404 views • 1 month ago
You never know what someone is going to look like or be like when you meet them in person. I'll tell you this, the first thing I noticed about ꜰᴀɴᴜᴍ was his skin. His face was smooth and glowing. And the fabric of his suit was top notch. I wanted to hug him at the door but I was too nervous so I just waved.
ijustlovepuzzles199,058 views • 6 months ago
Life update. I've had another biopsy and I've seen two new doctors. It's hard to believe I'm going through cancer screening- again. I have referrals approved for 2 MRIs, CT scans, and 4 other specialists. I'm so fatigued I haven't scheduled any appointments. I'm still extremely nauseous, in an incredible amount of pain, and in bed outside of the stream. With all of this going on I want to share a couple of good things that have happened. I've accepted another film. This one has nothing to do with puzzles. It's a group of filmmakers that find value in me as a person and how I relate to others. They are fully aware of my health issues. Lastly, I joined a tennis group lead by Myles David. Everyone there is deep into the technical parts of the game but they have accepted me as a fan. They allow me to just run my mouth without complaint (so far). They don't know that I'm a celebrity to you all. To them I'm just a granny who loves Coco Gauff. I like that part. They have helped me hang on from one stream to the next without even knowing it. It takes a village applies to us all. I'm still missing you all and hoping to see you soon. Real soon. I love you.
ijustlovepuzzles34,984 views • 27 days ago
My Fear& Family. I told the stream they can call me Gma Neff or Gma Kwan now. I love them all as much as I do my kids. In the midst of criticism, Hasan has quietly been a true blessing to me. It hurts to see the way he's treated publicly. Thank you all for everything! Love you
ijustlovepuzzles182,297 views • 6 months ago
Shame on you all! You heard about me 20 days ago. I've been talking about my teeth for 3 years. During that time I've been paying off debt, ($3K of which I paid to have my teeth removed for medical reasons), so that "I" could get my teeth replaced. I don't see you calling me a grifter when I'm feeding families who didn't receive their SNAP on time and giving children their dream Christmas. If I had followers like you they would've said "Yo Mama" to you calling me a bitch but that's not how we roll. And I see that the one of you who says I'm getting greedy has asked people to do their research when it comes to streamers you like, you should do the same. The real issue is having to choose between a car and teeth. Talk about that.
ijustlovepuzzles151,040 views • 5 months ago
This was the first Will Neff video my lovely children shared with their mother...
ijustlovepuzzles59,233 views • 2 months ago
QTCinderella There is nothing I can say to ease your suffering. I do want you to know that I love you and I'm thinking about you. You have changed my life in many ways. When I feel hopeless, I look back at the clips from December 6th and you're always there. You have, in your unselfish way, given us all a gift. In spite of the negativity you are faced with year after year, you continue. I saw the joy you had when I was nominated and again when I won. I thank you for that. You bring me joy, and calm, and peace, when I need it most, and I hope someone or something does the same for you.
ijustlovepuzzles18,201 views • 19 days ago
AMP Gma! I had a chat with AMP Agent ⚡ and AMP CHRIS⚡️ and they are the most kind gentlemen. When you're older you don't want to be in the way so you say a few words and keep moving, but they let me talk without feeling rushed. The photo tells the whole story. 💜💜💜
ijustlovepuzzles93,110 views • 6 months ago
I've been really ill and bedridden since Sunday. I'm doing all I can to go live to celebrate with those of you who have been there and to welcome all the new people in the chat. Thank you to the thousands of new followers across all platforms and especially the 18K+ on Twitch bringing me 48K+. I'll be back soon. Don't forget about me.
ijustlovepuzzles80,622 views • 6 months ago
Hidden Gem 2025, ijustlovepuzzles, is live right now on Twitch! I'll be doing a 1000 piece puzzle from start to finish non-stop while listening to soulful holiday music. I'M SO EXCITED TO BE BACK! Join me here: It's been a dream of mine to have 300 viewers come in from the notification. I know it's late but I think there's a chance.
ijustlovepuzzles79,027 views • 5 months ago
My bio has been upgraded... I am thrilled to announce that I will no longer be turned down for sponsorships. After nearly five years with only a single paid partnership, companies will now be saying no to me through Willy at Right Click! Thanks for carrying this burden.
ijustlovepuzzles66,758 views • 5 months ago
Will Neff is Twitch's Make A Wish for this granny. He's constantly granting wishes I didn't even know to wish. Will Neff called QTCinderella to have me participate in her puzzlethon over the phone. Next thing I know I'm going to be there in person. Twitch>>>cancer
ijustlovepuzzles118,121 views • 1 year ago
