My contribution to this conversation is simple: the CFA... program will humble you. You will cry. You will lament. You will question your life choices. You will bargain with God and start planning the thanksgiving service you intend to hold if you somehow make it to the other side. All these videos were taken during my Level II preparation, but the third one stands out. I remember being in a hotel room during an engagement. We had spent the entire day with the client, from about 8 a.m. until almost 10 p.m. By the time I got back, I was completely exhausted. Any reasonable person would have gone straight to bed. Instead, I took a shower, opened my CFA materials, and continued studying because the exam was approaching and CFA does not care that you’ve already worked a full day. There were days I was running on pure stubbornness. The kind of period where your prayer points become very specific: “God, if I pass this exam, the thanksgiving will be massive.” Level II showed me real pepper. You will read a concept today, understand it perfectly, solve questions on it, and feel on top of the world. By next week, you have forgotten everything and you’re starting from scratch again. You keep reading. You keep forgetting. You read it again. You forget it again. The cycle continues. CFA Level II will have you asking yourself if your brain is still functioning properly, jare. 😂 As for Level III, I am currently in the stage of fear and mental preparation. I know what it represents, so I am respectfully giving myself time to breathe before I enter that arena. For now, the books and I are just looking at each other from a safe distance. 😭 P.S. don’t mind my reading style. I almost always have music playing in the background while studying. It’s basically my coping mechanism.show more

You were born in the middle of the night,... in the midst of the biggest, most beautiful snowstorm NY had seen in years!! I remember riding in the car and looking out the window, where everything was twinkling and covered in white that night, as I held you both in my belly for the last few moments before I gave birth to you. It was as if God was making sure you would enter a world full of pure magic!! In my heart, I knew that’s how your life would always be!! When I would hold you as infants, I honestly felt as if I were holding two angels sent straight from heaven above. My life was changed forever. I cannot believe you are now adults…18 years old! You are both so kind-hearted, generous, and loving. How lucky the world was on this day 18 years ago when God decided to send you here with all of your talents and spirit and heart to make this world a better place, because that is what you do for me and anyone who is lucky enough to know you both every day. “I love you” could never encapsulate the depth of feeling, affection, and care that I have for you, my coconuts. It has always been the three of us!! We have been on this journey together. We have always had each other to hold on to and be that steady presence in the middle of any snowstorm. And I promise you, my beautiful coconuts, no matter how big you get, that’s how it will always be. Always remember, Lulu, you are my sunshine…and Max, you’re amazing just the way you are!! I love you I love you Happy 18th Birthday, my wonder twins!!!show more

My precious darlings, Tomorrow I have to do one... of the hardest things I have ever done. I have to see one of the two people closest to my heart...twenty years old...dead. This is going to be the hardest thing I have faced since my father died. I am not saying who. I will not. They are one of the two I would protect with my life, and I still will. Their name stays with the four of you who already know, and it stays in my chest. I am sorry to be cryptic. I know that can feel unfinished. Unlike a lot of people, I do not put my whole life out there, and I am not about to start now. I am looking at tomorrow with a very certain kind of dread. My heart has been stable. That is the truth I can give you today. But there is no telling how it is going to react when I walk into that room. Julie will be with me. My surgeon is on call. Keep me close in your thoughts. If anything needs to be said after, my twin will update you. I love her so much. She has been wonderful with me through all of this. Between my heart ripping and this terrible murder, she has been an absolute rock. I do not know how I would have stood without her. She is no doubt, the greatest blessing in my life to date. I'd do anything for that girl. And I love all of you. You precious darlings. You do not even know how much you have been carrying me....your love, your prayers, the way you just stay. There will never be enough thank yous in the world from me to you. Just know that I love each of you, and I hold you close to my heart. Please hold me in yours tomorrow. Grey Amanda Palmer - I Will Follow You Into the Darkshow more

PROPHETIC DECLARATIONS In the name of Jesus Christ, I... decree you're on your way to better days! Let this week come with pleasant surprises! I bless you this week! Let it be well with you! I decree: everything turns to joy for you this week! Everything turns for your peace! Everything turns for your lifting! Laughter is your portion! Restoration is your portion! A new level is your portion! Your world will celebrate you in a marvelous way this week, in the name of Jesus Christ! I declare: your prayer life jacks back to life! Your Word-study life will be on fire! I release my faith with you. Because you have left everything to be here, trusting God, may your testimony arrive speedily! Helpers come in a hurry! In the name of Jesus Christ! In the name of Jesus Christ, receive wisdom for the ember months! Wisdom for the remaining months of the year! What you could not achieve from January to August, I declare that you will achieve it in this month! In one month, you will achieve what you could not achieve in one year! You will surprise yourself this week! All who know you for good will recognize you this week! I pray for you: Your ministry blessed! Family blessed! The works of your hands blessed! Your going out is blessed and your coming in is blessed! Troublemakers will never get to you! Evildoers will never get to you! Plotters of evil will never get to you! Only goodness and mercy will get to you this week, in the name of Jesus Christ! I call you a child of God. Any blessing that follows a child of God will rain upon you! I declare this week: The earth will not swallow you! You will not be a victim of accident! You will not be a victim of tragedy, in the name of Jesus Christ! In the name of Jesus Christ, I bless your hands; experience the anointing! I release you as an ambassador this week! I declare this week: Go and heal the sick! You will only go higher and higher! You will only go upward and forward, in Jesus Christ's Name! #ApostleJoshuaSelman #CapacityAndStature #TheMysteryOfStatureAndDominion #KoinoniaAbuja #KoinoniaZaria #KoinoniaGlobalshow more

I’m trying to compute the last couple days and... honestly I’m absolutely fucking shattered. You have been my North Star for everything for as long as I can remember from when I was misunderstood as a child to the way people thought I was just a little “too much” or “strange” in my life and career. I owe so much to you, your wife and your family - you all gave me a road to run down and supported me when people would turn their nose up. You loved life so much and you adored music. It was your smile man. You taught me it was beautiful to be out of the box. I promise you with all my heart I will try my best and make it my life’s journey to keep the sprit that you started and what you have taught me alive. I will give it my best shot. To sing this song for you at an event surrounded by legends inspired by you to a crowd that loved you was truly my life’s greatest honour and I vow to play this song every night for the rest of my life. You’re my hero in every regard. I hope you’re up there avin a drink with Randy. For the prince of darkness you sure brought all the light to the world. I love you Ozzy.show more

Today, I have left my heart in Gaza and... taken my fragile body outside it. For 560 days, I have never stopped and have done over my energy to tell the truth and report our pain from my hometown. The story has come to a temporary end. I never ever imagined I would be at such an impossible decision, to leave my family behind and depart for medical treatment and care. My body, since Israel’s ongoing blockade, has become constantly weaker. And since I haven’t found my medicine either, I was plunged into my guilt zone and decided to go. With this sentiment comes relentless emotional pain. As a young man, I always dreamed to report on football. I was let down many times, instilled doses of courage into me to overcome the challenges, and fought hard to be that dreamer. But once Israel started its genocide, I put everything aside and picked up my weapon to begin reporting tirelessly hour in and hour out. Maybe, I haven’t done enough and wish I could continue until every inch is rebuilt, but my health has disappointed me this time. It couldn’t take that much horror and suffering. My braves colleagues have stayed. They’re the best of the world. There was indeed a last drop of blood in my veins, and I didn’t want to spend it nowadays. I desire to recharge, grow stronger, and come back to defend my homeland with aplomb and unmatched love. As I have always promised, I will die for the day Palestine will be free. My mother, my father, and my brothers and sisters, I have failed you. I miss you and will miss you in every second I will be out from Gaza. Love to you. My heart has remained with you and will never leave you. You’re my light in this whole darkness. That’s why I am shining. For my friends, it’s all about you. You are the companions of the journey. Even if we bid shot farewells, we will reunite and live together again. I want you to be very strong much more than when we were side by side. And to all people around the world, your support and love have been my solace and respite during the genocide. I am so grateful to every person of you. And I hope we will all be in a free Palestine soon. To all of you, I love you. And I have really known the meaning of love from you. You have been the sense of safety inside my heart when I felt afraid under the bombardments. I will continue conveying the message of my people and share my experiences during the genocide abroad and will never stop telling my people’s stories. Forgive me, all. My homeland, my heartbeat, please forgive me. I promise I will come back soon to water your soil with my blood. We will be all free. We will sacrifice until the last blood. Abdulruhman Ismailshow more

“Pen, ever since I found out you are Whistledown,... I have done everything I can to try to separate you from her. But the other day, I went back and read all of the letters you have sent me; your letters have always been the ones I am most eager to read, and I realized you are HER. You have always had one voice. There is no separating you from Whistledown. And after seeing you speak today, well, I would not want to. Because forgive me, but THAT was bloody brilliant. I think in truth I have been envious of you, of your success, of your bravery. And now, I simply cannot believe that a woman with such bravery, loves ME. How lucky I am to stand by your side and soak up even a little bit of your light. If my only purpose in life is to love a woman as great as you, then I will be a very fulfilled man, indeed.” The greatest love confession speech in all of mankind. Everyone else can go him now.show more

#TAEMIN Message to TAEMATes/Shawols: 🐥: There is something I... want to tell you all. How about we see each other more often in the future? Just as you carry me in your hearts, I carry you in mine. If you are sad we will be sad together. If you are happy let's be happy together. 🐥: Then I think we can have a relationship as if it were a mirror. Why am I telling you this? It's incredible that it's the furthest place (Chile) but if we look at it on the map, I'm simply under my feet (Korea) You say hi to me from below and I say hi from above ㅋㅋㅋ 🐥: I was really moved by your words. And I want to express the same feeling to you. I will continue to remember you until the next time we meet again ♡show more

My son, One day, when you're older, you will... come across this post and this video of the two of us walking up into the mountains. I hope you watch it more than once. We always begin the same way. You go bounding off ahead, certain the whole mountain belongs to you, and for a little while it does. Then the path gets steep. The air gets thinner and your legs get tired. You stop, you turn, and you look back at me and say: Dad, is the view really worth it? I will tell you a secret. I ask myself the same question. I'm climbing my own mountains you can't see yet, fighting things I hope you never have to fight, and some days the weight of it all feels like more than I can carry. Mom and I both put on a brave face, but it isn't always brave underneath. There are mornings I feel I am carrying the whole mountain rather than walking up it. But that's not a flaw in you or me, it just is what the journey is. You will meet climbs that burn your legs, there will be days when every step asks more than you think you have, and there will be MANY MANY times when turning back seems the only sensible thing thing to do ...don't be ashamed of wanting to. Everyone wants to turn back. But WANTING to turn back, and not doing it... well my son, that is the stuff strength is made of. There will be days when everything feels uphill. When the world feels unfair, and you’ll wonder why it has to be so hard. The summit will never stoop to meet you and the path cannot be talked into being shorter. What changes... what is changing in you even now while you're reading this, and especially on days that feel like nothing but insane amount of work and heartache... ...is YOU. You are the thing that grows. The world stays gloriously, stubbornly large, and you rise to meet it. So climb. Not because it is easy, but because you were made for the climbing. And when at last you stand in the high place with the wind in your face and the whole green country spread beneath you, you will understand something that cannot be told to a man but only shown to him: that every aching step was a kind of payment, and the view was the thing it had been buying all along. It will not feel like a reward. It will feel like coming home to a country you have never been to, and somehow always missed. I will be there. Lower on the trail by then, most likely. Slower. Catching my breath against a stone. But I will be watching you go up, and there will be no prouder man on the entire freaking mountain than me... the man who is proud of the boy who simply will not stop putting one foot in front of the other. Keep climbing, son. I am always on the trail. I love you, Dadshow more

Dear my Jajja It took me much hard time... to make a decision of proposing to you, my grandma, because I have always struggled to find the right words to explain just how much you mean to me. You are not simply my grandmother; you are one of the greatest blessings God has placed in my life. Jajja, when I think about you, I think about love, sacrifice, wisdom, kindness, and the beautiful memories we have shared. You have been a source of comfort to me in moments when I felt weak, and your presence has always made me feel like everything would eventually be okay. Today, I want to make a special proposal to you—not the kind that people normally make, but a proposal from the deepest part of my heart. I want to ask you to continue being my Jajja, my source of wisdom, my safe place, and one of the most important people in my life for as long as God allows us to have each other. I want to make you a promise: I will cherish you, respect you, listen to your advice, make you proud, and create more beautiful memories with you. I know I may not always be able to give you everything you deserve, but I promise that my love and appreciation for you will never fade. If I could choose my grandmother in every lifetime, I would choose you again and again. Jajja, thank you for every prayer, every word of encouragement, every sacrifice, every smile, and every moment you have given me. I love you more than words can ever explain.show more

The moment TOP read his comeback letter to his... fans 🥹 you can see how emotional he was ♥️ “I’m home. I’m finally home.” 🔝: “Hello everyone, long time no see. I am T.O.P. How has everyone been? When I last stood on stage 10 years ago, I remembered that day: the scene of reading a letter to all of you. Back then, you and I made a promise: that if there is a farewell, there will certainly be a reunion as well, and that I would definitely return. To fulfill that promise, it surprisingly took a full and lengthy ten years. During these 10 years of living not as the artist T.O.P, but as an ordinary person named Choi Seunghyun, there were times when I felt very free, and moments when I felt at ease and comfortable. But on the other hand, it was also very lonely and a time filled with emptiness. Even so, I wanted to keep my promise to all of you; driven by just that single thought, I never stopped making music. Over these 10 years, time and time again as ordinary person Choi Seunghyun, I faced my true self. I think this period of time was just that. In the past, when I was on stage, words like 'Thank you everyone' and 'I love you' felt like things I could just say naturally, as a matter of course. But during the time I spent away from the stage, I truly understood from the bottom of my heart how deep and how precious that unconditional love was that everyone gave me. The reason I was able to endure this long period, walk this path all the way to today, and gather the courage to stand back in front of everyone is entirely because of your unchanging love and support. Although I spent this time apart, as I searched for and read every single word left behind by those who hadn't forgotten me and were still waiting, I truly gained so much courage and strength from them. Thank you so much, truly thank you so much. From now on, I want to use my music to repay all of you for this sentiment and keep giving back along the way. In addition, even if it's just a little bit, I hope to become a presence that can give strength to all of you. I will continue to give my all. From now on, I don't want to use the word 'reunion' anymore, because we will always be together from this day forward. Finally, just this one thing: more than anything, I wanted to look into your eyes and tell you in person—I really missed you all. And everyone, I'm back.” 🤍 CR. tipsy_gallery #TOP #TTTOP #최승현 #탑 #AnotherDimensionshow more

Dear Attaullah Tarar, I have always been proud of... you, but today, the entire nation is proud of you. I have learned so much from you, but the level of tolerance and respect you show toward others truly makes you a great leader. I don’t know how long my journey with you will be, but you will always remain the greatest and kindest human being I have ever worked with!show more

There will be a part of this video that... will annoy some of you, I encourage you push through and watch the entire thing, and take what I have to say seriously. If you want to change your life, you will need to change your life. In this video I explain what trades I am looking for. I have been absolutely crushing this PA. Do yourself a favor and come back to this video within the next 10-12 hours, and read the comments. $BTC #Bitcoin.show more

🐥: Everyone... ah, everyone... why do I keep saying... 'minna' (everyone in Japanese)? 🐥: Yesterday, I told you that I had forgotten all my Japanese. So today, I have a letter again. I'll start now. 🐥: To my precious ARMY, when I'm in front of you all, my mind goes completely blank, so I decided to write a letter like this. Did you have fun today? 🐥: While we were in the military, I was a little worried that you might have forgotten about us. But seeing you all again like this, those worries have completely vanished. 🐥: Thanks to the warm welcome you gave us, the members and I are truly happy. It was only two days, so the time really flew by, didn't it? But however, will today really be the last day? That's all from me!show more

💠Some facts from the open conversation on the 12th.... EF : Does anyone have any questions? So we can clear everything up at once.❓ 🐠 : Is EL never die still here? EF : It is still there just the same as it has always been. People are just making things up in their own heads. Some even turned it into a fictional novel, which completely confuses me. I am still deeply confused about how Thai fans could go that far, and international fans are jumping on it too. 🐠 : Thai fans just talk nonsense. EF : They created an entire plot for a novel. Oh my god, it drives me crazy. There is a main hero, a heroine, and a villain. But this is real life!!. I want everyone to know that there is no one who... Now, I am not speaking about other people's feelings, but I mean that in the end, good feelings will always remain as a beautiful memory. It will always remain there forever, throughout the past five years. 🐠 : Before the contract ends, do we have a chance to have a final couple fan meet together as a farewell? EF : It is hard to say because it does not depend on me alone. It depends on the overall picture too. There is another thing where I honestly do not know how to position myself. When I try to be professional in my work, I am still looked at as just selling the pairing, selling moments, giving hope, creating hope for fans, and selling moments, which keeps looping over and over in this exact same cycle frequently. But then I felt like, okay, I will try to find a middle ground by choosing to post strictly when it involves official work and during working hours only. When I stopped serving moments or providing fan service, I was criticized again for being no love, no care, and no interest. I honestly do not understand what else to do because no matter which path I choose, I get criticized anyway. It is deeply confusing because I just cannot find that middle ground for this issue, and I believe that many other pairings probably face this exact same problem as well. Umm... and I think I might have even been too open. EF : We have been together for five years. I already told you that if I happen to have someone in my life, I will bring that person to meet all of you. I will let everyone know that person. Whether it turns out good or not, or if anyone dislikes it, feels unhappy, and wants to walk away, I will not blame you at all. But please give me time to make sure with myself first, because I have never been successful in love at all in the past. Suppose you want me to say it out loud, who you are talking to, just say it. In the past, there was someone I talked to for about a month or two, and then we stopped talking. Everything really needs to make sure first. In my life, I have been hurt by many people a lot, meaning people who seemed sincere but actually were not, I have faced that a lot. Sometimes, everyone does not know 100% of the truth. You will only know exactly what you are meant to know. As an artist, I just want to tell you that I have already kept you grounded in reality as much as possible. I do not create an illusion for you. I do not give false hope just for you to sit there getting hurt and sad afterward. If you want to criticize or blame me regarding my personal life, my work, or anything, you can go ahead and do it. But please do not look down on the love I have for you. From my own mouth, I will always tell you that I love you guys so much.show more

Jawn, you should try putting your head down the... toilet and getting someone to flush it. I thank God every single day that I didn't destroy my soul chasing your trends. I refused to break my chastity despite being in a long term relationship. I can still truly love someone, thank God I am a virgin. You on the other hand, cannot. You'll never get that back. How do you feel, turd? How does it feel to be lifeless husk whose possible future is frozen in the past within someone that broke their bond with you? The reality is in that moment you stopped being spiritually alive, and turned into the same material stone is made of. You cannot form a pair bond and become something greater, like a cell that's been separated from a body unable to subdivide. You can reproduce meaningless biomass just like the trash around you, but it will never have love, and will wither just like the stone that you are. Nothing you ever do will be authentic, and you know it in your heart, your mind is still stuck on the moment you threw it all away and you will never be able to take the person you are with seriously. You will be cheating on every single person you are with from now until the moment you finally return from biowaste to raw material again. I'd tell you to burn in hell but we both know you're already suffering the fires of hell as you read this.show more

Almost everyone wished you are a male child, because... I already have 2 amazing daughters, and anyone who bothered to make that comment I responded with the truth , which is the fact that when ever I ask my God for a child, I never talk of gender, I ask for a child that would give me peace of mind and just like your sisters you have been nothing but amazing, I am grateful for the gift of you, we love and cherish every bit of you and as you kick of your journey with your first birthday, I pray God strengthen you and help you to become who you are destined and meant to be, as long as I live I will be here for you and your sisters … I owe you my life because it’s the only possession I have to give … happy birthday IREOLUWA … God bless and keep you safe for us all in Jesus name amen ….. daddyshow more

Today Hossam Shabat would have been 24 years old.... My tribute to him: Today Hossam Shabat would have been 24 years old. When I spoke to him before, I told him, “Hossam, they want to assassinate you. You’re on a hit list. It’s enough, you’ve done more than enough. Just please, stay alive.” He replied, “I will keep reporting. This is our duty, and this is the promise we made, one we will fulfill. And if I am martyred, you and others will be our voice.” He added, “My only wish, if I’m martyred, is that my body remains intact... that I don’t become just mere unrecognizable remains.” I once told him, “When the genocide ends, I’ll come visit you.” He replied, “Visit me where? I’m living on the streets and in tents. They destroyed my home, and I have nowhere to go.” So I said, “Then I’ll come and stay with you on the streets or in the tents.” He always spoke about wanting to get married once the genocide ends and starting a tamily of his own, living his life to the fullest as any normal human would. I remember texting telling him “I’m happy you were finally reunited with your family” he replied “May god make you always happy”, I asked “Is there anything that you need?” He replied with “I miss you” I replied “I miss you too, take care of yourself” and that was the final message because next day Israel killed him. He was only 23 years old when Israel deliberately targeted him. He had dreams. He had a name. He always said, “If our voice is killed, then be our voice.” This is a segment from Hossam’s will: “I did all this because I believe in the Palestinian cause. I believe this land is ours, and it has been the highest honor of my life to die defending it and serving its people. I ask you now: do not stop speaking about Gaza. Do not let the world look away. Keep fighting, keep telling our stories—until Palestine is free” Hossam, not a day passes by where I don’t remember your words or remember you, I know you’re in a better place now but I can’t accept the reality that you’re no longer here, I will always honor your words and my promise to you, till we we meet again... Voiceover by Propaganda & co , thank you for helping.show more